Lu Xining's hand hanging by his side subconsciously grabbed the hem of her skirt, feeling so heartbroken that he even trembled when breathing.
But this was a choice she made, and even if she had no choice, she had no choice.
In the end, Lu Xining returned to the room without saying anything.
Naturally, I couldn't sleep all night because when I closed my eyes, I saw the appearance of the baby I had dreamed about.
He put a finger in his mouth and grinned, even the drool dripping down looked so cute.
But the more rare he became, the more painful and guilty Lu Xining felt, and the more he hated himself for being incompetent.
I don't know if it's because of my emotional instability, but my stomach actually hurts.
Baby, are you blaming your mother too? Mother has no choice but to do it.
Sorry, baby.
She could only apologize continuously in her heart, but she didn't dare to beg for forgiveness, and she didn't even dare to think about these two words.
Because even she herself can't forgive herself.
Maybe my mood was too unstable, and the pain in my abdomen became more and more obvious. I thought about what might happen to my child, and I felt scared unconsciously.
She quickly put on some clothes and went out, because it was already very late, the servants had all rested, and the whole villa was quiet.
Lu Xining pushed herself to the front of Jin Shaoheng's door, raised her hand and knocked on the door twice, then suddenly paused as she remembered something.
But just when he was about to leave, Jin Shaoheng had already opened the door.
He was a little surprised when he saw Lu Xining, but he didn't show it and just asked: "Is something wrong?"
"We went to the wrong place." Lu Xining denied, raised his legs and left.
But his wrist was held by him, and he frowned and asked: "Lu Xining?"
Apart from Lu Yuzheng, he was the only one in this family. She couldn't go to Lu Yuzheng's room by mistake. This excuse was obviously perfunctory to herself.
The most important thing is the time now. If she is not forced to do so, she should wish to never see her again. Why would she take the initiative to knock on the door?
So what is going on?
Lu Xining looked at him, but countless thoughts passed through his heart.
Yes, she realized something was wrong with her child, so she subconsciously came to him for help. But she didn't wake up until she knocked on the door. He wished the child would die.
Yes, since this baby is destined to leave you, why bother with unnecessary struggles.
Jin Shaoheng saw that she had been lost in thought, and he couldn't help but feel anxious: "Do you need me to alarm Lu Yuzheng?"
He was so used to threatening her that he almost blurted out these words.
"I have a stomachache." Lu Xining said.
When Jin Shaoheng heard this, he picked her up and walked out.
His car was parked in the yard. Jin Shaoheng wrapped Lu Xining in his coat, carefully put her into the passenger seat, and walked around to the driver's seat.
While starting the engine, he reassured: "It'll be okay, don't be afraid."
"I'm not afraid." Lu Xining said.
Her voice was cold and indifferent, not wanting to be emotional, but it immediately blew away his tension and concern in the carriage.
Jin Shaoheng held the steering wheel. To be honest, he felt sad.
Because this is the Lu Xining he least wants to see. Because of his confinement, he has completely lost hope and seems to not care about anything.
But now was not the time to talk about this. He just drove out and rushed to the hospital as soon as possible.
After the doctor checked, he said to Jin Shaoheng: "There are signs of miscarriage and a miscarriage injection is needed."
"No need, just do the surgery." Lu Xining said.
Anyway, this child will not be kept sooner or later, so why bother with it over and over again. This is why she suddenly changed her mind after she just asked Jin Shaoheng for help.
The doctor looked at Jin Shaoheng's expression and then said to Lu Xining: "Mrs. Jin, your condition is unstable now. If you perform surgery rashly, it will be dangerous."
But what Lu Xining fears most now is not danger at all. She would rather die with this child.
Since there is no room for him in this world, if a person has a soul, it might as well be that she can take care of him after her death.
"Take medicine." Jin Shaoheng's voice came to his ears.
She knew, how could he let her die so easily?
Lu Xining simply closed his eyes, hearing the sounds of doctors and nurses coming and going.
Not long after, her hand was grabbed, and there was a slight tingling sensation on the back of her hand. The nurse gave her an IV and an injection.
Lu Xining didn't even frown, as if his body was not his own and was always at his mercy.
She didn't open her eyes until the doctors and nurses left one after another, she simply didn't want to see Jin Shaoheng.
Although she had never seen him, she knew that he had been staying in the ward because the refreshing smell of Jin Shaoheng was always there.
I don't know if the medicine took effect, but Lu Xining fell asleep unconsciously.
When I opened my eyes again, it was already dawn.
"Young Mistress." Mother Zhuang's voice came to my ears.
"Why are you here?" Lu Xining asked when he saw her.
"Master said you are not feeling well." Zhuang's mother looked at her distressedly.
Lu Xining smiled and asked, "Where is Jin Shaoheng?"
"I seem to be discussing some kind of surgery with the doctor." Zhuang's mother had just rushed over and didn't know her situation yet.
Abortion surgery, right? Lu Xining subconsciously touched his belly.
"Young mistress, would you like to have something to eat?" Zhuang's mother asked.
Lu Xining shook his head.
She used to insist on eating when she had no appetite because the baby in her belly needed to supplement nutrition. But now it was not necessary and she didn't want to force herself.
"Young mistress, don't be in trouble with your body." Zhuang's mother looked at her worriedly.
Before the divorce, although she felt that she was not happy, she would not be as lifeless as she is now.
Of course Lu Xining couldn't listen.
Zhuang Ma tried to persuade her, but she seemed to be in a trance and couldn't listen to anything at all. She had no choice but to sigh helplessly, turned around and went out.
The room became quiet again. Lu Xining's hand on her stomach suddenly felt a movement under her palm. It was so slight that she thought it was an illusion at first.
But not long after, it moved again, and this time it was clearer.
It's fetal movement!
Lu Xining was thinking excitedly and vaguely heard the doctor's voice coming from outside: "Mr. Jin, if you decide not to have this child, Mrs. Jin's body can be operated on today."
Reality was like a basin of cold water, which instantly chilled Lu Xining's heart, and then he was wrapped in huge sadness...
After Jin Shaoheng finished talking to the doctor, he took two more calls to deal with company affairs. When he opened the door to the ward, he found that Lu Xining was missing.
"Master." Zhuang Ma appeared behind him carrying something.
"Where are the people?" Jin Shaoheng asked.
When Zhuang's mother saw that there was no one in the ward, she was also confused: "I was just here." And looking at Lu Xining's appearance, she didn't look like she would leave at all.
Jin Shaoheng was obviously very angry, but he didn't bother to blame her and immediately went to find someone.
He was not worried about Lu Xining escaping, after all, Lu Yuzheng was still in his hands. It was precisely because of this that Jin Shaoheng removed all the bodyguards at the door.
But he felt uneasy.
"Mr. Jin, someone saw Mrs. Jin going to the roof of the building." Soon, a nurse came over and told him.
When Jin Shaoheng heard this, he immediately ran to the top floor without thinking.
The top floor of the inpatient department was very high, and the wind was much colder than the ground. It made it difficult to open one's eyes, but he still saw Lu Xining at a glance.
She was wearing thin clothes and stood barefoot on the edge of the building without a fence, with the cold wind blowing.
That delicate body seemed to be blown downstairs at any time, and seemed to suddenly jump...