Lu Xining slept very deeply and didn't even dream. When he woke up again, the ward was quiet.
She thought of the baby and quickly touched her lower abdomen. She didn't know if the anesthesia had not worn off. She didn't feel the pain as she imagined, and she couldn't even feel the slightest change, but she knew that the baby was gone.
Baby, mother is incompetent.
If there is a next life, if you have another chance, remember not to choose me as your mother again.
The heartache caused tears to burst out of her eyes, slide down the corners of her eyes, and finally fell into the pillow. She didn't even dare to beg for forgiveness.
"Sister..." Lu Yuzheng's distressed voice came to her ears.
Lu Xining slowly turned her eyes and realized that her brother was actually in the ward and had been staying by her bedside.
"Why are you here?" Lu Xining asked.
Because she was so caught off guard, she had no time to put away her embarrassment at this moment.
But in Lu Yuzheng's eyes at this time, this was not an embarrassing situation. The heartache and sadness that his sister had been suppressing were now presented to him without reservation for the first time.
Although the crying was silent, every tear tugged at his heart.
Lu Yuzheng held her hand and said, "I know everything." So she didn't have to worry or hide.
What do you know? Do you know that she is pregnant...does she have no child now? Or do you know what happened between you and Jin Shaoheng during this period?
Lu Xining didn't dare to ask, and he was even less sure what Jin Shaoheng said to him and how much he said.
After receiving his distressed look, she wanted to comfort him as usual and tell him that she was fine.
But his lips moved, but nothing came out.
Because my heart still hurts so much, it hurts so much that it feels like a hole has been dug in my heart, and it feels like it has been dug out completely, so I don’t have any strength in my body.
Seeing this, Lu Yuzheng leaned over and hugged her, saying: "It's okay, sister, don't be afraid, I will always be by your side."
Lu Yuzheng didn't know how to comfort him, he only had this sentence from beginning to end.
Because he was such a drag, he really didn't know what else he could do for his sister besides staying by her side silently.
However, Lu Xining understood that the reason he was able to stand up so quickly after what he had just experienced must be because of his fragility.
There was still hurt in those eyes, and they were no longer as innocent and carefree as before.
Lu Xining raised her hand, touched his face distressedly, and said, "Yuzheng, sister, I'm sorry for you."
Although she tried her best, she still let him get hurt again and again.
If she hadn't sent him abroad, maybe... maybe these things wouldn't have happened.
"Don't be stupid, sister. If you say you're sorry for me, what should I say to you?" What she did for him was even more love than his parents gave him.
Maybe he wasn't very clear about many things, but he knew that his sister must have done a lot for him that he couldn't imagine.
After his family went bankrupt, all his stability and even his life were given by his sister.
Lu Xining shook his head.
She had protected him, and his brother would not have survived without her. But there were also many things that he did not have to bear.
For example, when it came to taking contraband, she was sure that the other party was here for her, and she was the one who caused him trouble.
Lu Xining looked at him, filled with self-blame, both for Lu Yuzheng and for the child he had just lost.
Thinking of that child, even breathing is painful.
She didn't want her brother to see her like this, so she said she was tired and closed her eyes again.
Maybe he was really tired, so he fell asleep again without realizing it. When he woke up again, he found that Lu Yuzheng was still there.
"Sister, are you thirsty? Do you want some water?" Lu Yuzheng asked.
Lu Xining shook his head.
"Would you like something to eat?" Lu Yuzheng asked again.
Lu Xining still shook his head.
"You should eat a little, otherwise your body won't be able to bear it." Lu Yuzheng advised.
Although Lu Xining wanted to reassure her brother, she really couldn't eat at all, so she said: "Yuzheng, you should have a good rest and go back early. Someone will take care of me here."
She didn't want her brother to see her dejected look, but it was too tiring to hold on, and she felt that she was almost out of strength.
"Okay, I'll go back after you finish this bowl of porridge." Lu Yuzheng insisted.
He held the fresh porridge in his hand, scooped out a spoonful of it, blew it to cool down and put it to Lu Xining's mouth.
Lu Xining really didn't want to eat at all, but in order to reassure his brother, he still forced himself to open his mouth.
Fortunately, it is a liquid diet and does not require chewing.
But she soon discovered that if a person has no desire to live, it would be difficult to swallow. So after she forced herself to take two mouthfuls, she couldn't swallow anymore. In the end, she coughed and almost vomited out everything in her stomach.
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"Forget it, we won't eat." Seeing her suffering like this, Lu Yuzheng felt even more uncomfortable and simply gave up.
"Sorry, maybe I'm too weak. I'll be fine in two days." At this time, she was still looking for excuses to comfort him, lest he worry.
"Don't say sorry to me." He used to be unable to eat and often vomited all over his sister, but she never said anything.
Lu Xining held his hand and said, "Go back."
Lu Yuzheng looked at her current state and felt really uneasy, but at the same time he knew in his heart that Lu Xining was afraid that he would be worried when he was here, and it would be even more uncomfortable for him to hold on mentally.
"Okay, I'll come see you tomorrow." Lu Yuzheng said.
Lu Xining wanted to say that he would not come tomorrow, but he knew it was impossible, so he nodded and acquiesced.
After Lu Yuzheng left the ward, she didn't cry again, she just stared at the ceiling in a daze.
…
Since she woke up, Jin Shaoheng has not shown up, not even Zhuang's mother.
Jin Shaoheng really studied Lu Xining thoroughly, and he only asked Lu Yuzheng to take care of him.
Hanging in front of her every day reminds her that she still has relatives who need her, so she can't collapse because of this incident, let alone not think about it.
I have to say that this trick really worked. Even though Lu Xining knew his intentions, he had to force himself to cheer up because he couldn't let go of his brother.
Seeing that her eyes were gradually filled with life, Lu Yuzheng was happiest.
When Lu Xining woke up that day, he found that there was someone else beside the bed.
It's no longer his younger brother Lu Yuzheng, but Jin Shaoheng.
We haven't seen him for a few days, but his face is still as handsome as before. But his eyes are closed, and he doesn't know if he is asleep, and his face also looks slightly tired.
Jin Shaoheng is indeed very busy these days. He has been abroad for a few days and has a lot of things to do. But he is worried about Lu Xining. The reason why he didn't show up after the operation is just because he doesn't know how to face it.
right.
Snapped!
The sound of breaking glass suddenly sounded in his ears, waking him up. When he opened his eyes, he saw half of Lu Xining's body leaning under the bed, and the ground was covered with broken pieces of water glasses.
"Don't move." He grabbed her hand nervously, helped her back to the bed, and asked, "Want some water?"
Lu Xining did not answer.
Jin Shaoheng was about to pour it for her when he saw her eyes darken and a large piece of glass hidden in her hand stabbed directly into the artery on his neck...