Lu Xining was very calm when he said this, or he tried his best to look calm, even though it actually hurt to breathe.
Therefore, she didn't even dare to take a deep breath.
Jin Shaoheng raised her face: "Lu Xining, look at me and say it again."
Their eyes met, and the look in his eyes made her want to run away.
Lu Xining felt a little regretful now. He regretted that he should have run away and found a place to hide instead of facing him like this.
Because it's too cruel, too cruel.
But now that she had reached this point, she could only force herself to continue: "Actually, I don't love you very much.
Do you still remember that I lost my memory? I started to change my mind and wanted to be with you because I was pregnant and I couldn’t abort the child."
She was telling the truth, but that was just the beginning of her thoughts.
She didn't know what was going on with her. After she opened her heart and accepted him, he was so good to her.
Falling in love with him seems to be an instinct in the body that cannot be controlled at all.
Jin Shaoheng looked at her. He didn't believe what Lu Xining said now.
He was just confirming something, such as how determined she was to give up on herself? Or would it be less painful for her to live by herself?
When Lu Xining saw that he was silent, he did not dare to raise his eyes to look at him, so he forced himself to say more cruelly: "Just leave me more money, and you will ensure that I will have no worries about food and clothing in the future."
She thought that if she was more ruthless, he would be disappointed and it would be easier to let him go.
Jin Shaoheng finally withdrew his hand, even though his fingertips were shaking, he said: "Okay."
Lu Xining finally breathed a sigh of relief after hearing this. She laughed, although a tear fell uncontrollably on the back of her hand.
Jin Shaoheng stared at the water stains and said, "I will leave all my property to you."
"No!" Lu Xining refused without thinking. Then he probably remembered that this behavior was different from what he had just shown, so he changed his words: "I don't know how to take care of too many, just enough to spend."
So what if he doesn't leave it to her? Couldn't she still be able to raise two children?
But she always had to say something, even if it meant using money to build herself a pair of armor, it would not make her collapse on the spot.
Jin Shaoheng didn't speak anymore. He always had his own considerations, and it wasn't something she could control with a few words.
Lu Xining didn't know what to say, so he warned: "You should leave early and don't delay for too long, in case... I don't want to see you die and make me sad again."
"Okay, if I really die one day, I promise not to let you know -" If this is what she wants.
But before he could say anything, Lu Xining suddenly covered his mouth.
The two people's eyes met again, and her lips trembled for a long time, trying to say that you won't die, but she didn't make a sound for a long time.
She could even blame herself, it's all her fault, why did she mention this word?
Jin Shaoheng also couldn't stand the look in her eyes, as if he would faint from heartache at any time.
And a strong pain also came from his heart that was originally densely packed. He was afraid that he couldn't hold it in, so he simply pulled her hand off and said, "Don't come... in the future."
His voice was slightly cold.
Lu Xining nodded, of course she wouldn't come.
She lowered her eyes and stood up unsteadily, as if she might fall down at any moment.
Jin Shaoheng resisted the urge to help her and watched her walk toward the door little by little.
Seeing her getting further and further away from him, he began to feel afraid, afraid that he would never see her again: "Lu Xining!"
She was shocked and stopped, but she didn't have the courage to turn around and look at him. She just asked: "Mr. Jin, is there anything else you want to explain?"
"Although you don't remember, I still want to explain it clearly to you. If you remember one day, it would be inappropriate to come to me again." Jin Shaoheng said.
Lu Xining said nothing, just waiting for him to continue.
"Because I was stupid, I suffered a lot of injustice for you because of Lin Qingyue. I can never make up for this debt.
Thank you for giving me, the bastard, another chance.
I have never touched her. You are the only woman I have loved and touched in my life."
He knew that it was not appropriate to say this at the time of farewell.
He should be like her and let her hate him, so that she won't be too sad when she hears the news of his death one day.
But he had also complained about her for three years and knew that it was not a pleasant feeling.
Instead of this, it is better to let her feel relieved when she thinks of herself one day, so that she can start a new life journey...
If Lu Xining turned around, he would see Jin Shaoheng's lustful eyes on him.
But she couldn't face his deep affection at the moment, she was afraid that she wouldn't be able to leave after just one glance.
Lu Xining unconsciously clutched the hem of her skirt, trying to sound calm: "I will give birth to the child."
She took a deep breath and said, "But don't come and rob me. I can't stand them calling others mom."
Jin Shaoheng and Du Jinyu will definitely have their own children in the future.
"Mu Xi, can I leave it to you too?" Jin Shaoheng asked again: "Although he is not our biological child, he likes you."
"I'm afraid I won't be able to take care of you." Lu Xining subconsciously refused.
"You don't need to take care of me. I'll leave Zhuang Ma and Jiang Cheng here. You can still live in the original house. I... won't go back." Jin Shaoheng said again.
"Forget it, I'd better move out." Lu Xining refused.
There were traces of their life there, and she was afraid that she would miss him.
Because he was still standing in front of her, she had already started to think about it.
"Then I will arrange another house for you." Jin Shaoheng said.
That kind of tone was more like he would arrange the rest of his life for her before she died.
Lu Xining didn't answer. She seemed to have finally gathered all the courage, turned around, looked up at him deeply, and said, "Goodbye."
She left his hospital room before tears came to her eyes.
She bit her lip and walked very fast, bumping into several people one after another, but they couldn't hear anything they said.
The people following Jin Shaoheng helped her deal with it, so it was obvious that she didn't notice it.
But she didn't go too far when she suddenly heard a shrill call ringing in the corridor.
She stopped as if she sensed something, and turned around to see a group of medical staff running towards Jin Shaoheng's room.
Lu Xining's mind went blank at the time. When she ran to the door, she saw Jin Shaoheng being pushed out of the ward.
His lips were dyed a seductive red with blood, but his eyes were closed, and his face was pale.
"Jin Shaoheng..." Lu Xining followed them unconsciously.
"The patient's condition is very bad."
"Need surgery as soon as possible."
"Quick, quick -"
The rumble of the trolley rolling down the corridor was accompanied by the doctor's urgent urging.
Lu Xining felt like the world was spinning.
"Xining!" Until someone held his arm.
When she saw Meng Wanyang's face, she opened her mouth to call her, but her vision went dark and she fell down...