How many people dream of it, and how many people struggle for life but never make it.
How many women would never have money even if they abandoned their conscience, yet he gave it to her like this.
It is impossible to say that I am not moved.
The structure of human thinking is too complex.
You can hate someone because of one thing.
You will also like someone because of one thing.
In the long river of time in the future, you can love someone first, and then slowly turn into disgust.
You can also dislike someone first and then turn into liking them.
And her thoughts were spinning between truth and falsehood, imagination and reality.
In fact, she knew that Ji Chenling wanted to break up because it was impossible to be with her.
During the two nights and one day she was on the roof, her heart felt as if it had been torn apart. She was immersed in a tsunami, and she could not suppress the pain in her heart.
She saw a psychiatrist five years ago, and the psychiatrist told her a way to treat broken love: Don't think about his good things, the grief after losing him, and the good things about having him, but think about his bad things, after losing him.
Good.
She deliberately thought Ji Chenling was bad in her thoughts, bad enough to make her hate and give up.
Over and over again, I kept convincing myself, warning myself, and hinting myself until I fainted.
She finally convinced herself.
But the facts are right in front of you.
She knew he was good.
The better he is, the greater the pain of broken love will be to her.
His emotions became a little more exciting, and his eyes filled with mist.
"Xiao Xi, are you okay? What's wrong?" Xu Yan asked worriedly.
Bai Xi regained consciousness, grinned, but couldn't control his tears and rolled down, saying: "There are four stages of falling in love, the disbelief at the beginning, the anger next, the self-blame, and the last
Depression, secret sadness, as long as you pass these four stages, you will accept the reality, slowly come out, and start living again. Time can dilute all sadness and sorrow. It is just a process, and I will be fine."
Bai Xi's tears flowed even more fiercely, "You guys eat first, I'll go wash my face."
Xu Yan felt distressed when she saw Bai Xi standing up. She glanced at Han Ningxi who was also distressed, got up, followed Bai Xi to the bathroom, and hugged Bai Xi from behind.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were so sad and still happily going out on a date." Xu Yan apologized.
"It's okay. You have to adjust to things like falling out of love by yourself. You can't listen to what others say. If you can be happy, my mood will be better." Bai Xi comforted Xu Yan in turn, raising a smile and crying.
Still flowing.
"What's wrong? Why do you keep crying?" Xu Yan wiped Bai Xi's tears with a tissue.
"I don't know." Bai Xi took the paper in Xu Yan's hand. "I just feel heavy in my heart and very uncomfortable. It's okay."
"It's okay, Xiao Xi, don't keep everything in your heart. Although I can't help you with anything, I am definitely a good listener, and I will never betray you, I swear." Xu Yan said.
She knew that Xu Yan would not betray her.
She wants to be with Ji Chenling!
But what’s the use of saying this!
They can't be together.
She knows it, and so does Ji Chenling.
"I want to stay alone for a while, is that okay? Just ten minutes and help take care of Tiantian." Bai Xi said with red eyes.
"You still don't want to say it, forget it, I'm out, I'll go out and see Tiantian." Xu Yan went out and closed the door for Bai Xi.
Tiantian looked at the kitchen worriedly, pouted, and didn't even eat the cake.
She saw Xu Yan coming out and asked, "What's wrong with my mother? Is she feeling uncomfortable somewhere?"
"Your mother is a female warrior. She is fine, but her stomach is a little uncomfortable. She will be fine in a while. Eat first every day." Xu Yan said, sitting opposite Tiantian, holding her chin up, and looking at Tiantian thoughtfully.
"You stay with Tiantian while I go down to buy carrots and apples," Han Ningxi said.
"Thank you, dear." Xu Yan said sweetly.
Tiantian also followed Xu Yan's example and said to Han Ningxi: "Thank you, dear."
Han Ningxi raised a smile and turned around to go out.
Ten minutes later, Bai Xi came out of the bathroom with red eyes.
"Mom." Tiantian shouted, wiped his hands with paper, and ran to Bai Xi.
He pressed his hand on Bai Xi's belly.
"It doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, mommy's stomach doesn't hurt, it will get better immediately." I made a wish every day.
Bai Xi gently touched Tiantian's head and said with a smile, "Mom doesn't hurt anymore."
Xu Yan looked at Bai Xi.
Now Bai Xi really behaves like a fine person.
"Let's eat." Xu Yan said.
"Um."
afternoon
The four of them went to the zoo to play.
have a good time.
Especially the interaction with the monkeys.
It was already past five o'clock when we came out of the zoo.
"Yan, please help me take care of Tiantian tonight. I have an appointment with Song Zhenhai. I have to go to court tomorrow and I need to meet him beforehand."
"No problem. Also, I'm going to ask for leave tomorrow. Those people from your former husband's family are not human beings. I'm going to prevent them from bullying you," Xu Yan said.
"I'm off tomorrow and will drive you there." Han Ningxi said.
"Thank you." Bai Xi was moved, "I'll treat you to dinner at noon."
"I want to have a seafood buffet." Xu Yan said with a smile.
"Okay." Bai Xi agreed readily.
On the way to see Song Zhenhai
Bai Xi called Long Youfei, "Hello, I'm Bai Xi."
"I know, what's wrong?"
"After I came back, I thought about it for a long time. Mr. Long gave me a good opportunity and a lot of salary, which is beyond my ability. However, you also know the past relationship between me and Ji Chenling. If you ask me to deal with him, I will do it."
If you don't succeed, you might become soft-hearted one day and tell him your plan, and you would be sorry for your kindness, so..."
"So you want to resign?" Long Youfei interrupted Bai Xi.
"I'm sorry, but I have made up my mind. I will pay you back my salary and the money you gave me before tomorrow. If possible, could you please give me an account, or should I return it to your previous account?" Bai Xi said calmly.
Long Youfei pursed his lips, remained silent for a while, and said unhappily: "I hope you think about it carefully."
"I have thought for a long time that when I work at your place, I will inevitably meet Ji Chenling. I am not a positive person in the first place. It is best for me to leave." Bai Xi said seriously.
"You...you promised to be a good person yesterday, but you changed your mind today. Are you the Heaven of June?" Long Youfei said displeased.
"Originally, I thought that I was a trustworthy and positive person, but today I saw myself clearly. It seems that I have always been loud and clear, and I often talk big words, promises, and guarantees.
I've never been able to do that. I'm sorry. I'll hang up now. You have a good rest." After Bai Xi finished speaking, he hung up the phone without giving Long Youfei a chance to speak.