The most terrifying thing in the world is not that there is no way out or being bullied and unable to turn around, but that there is no hope in the heart. Without hope, there is no goal, and even if you are alive, it is no different than dead.
From the beginning of the 19th century, when the world gradually entered a new era of rapid development with the advancement of productivity, it was extremely unfriendly to the aspiring young people in Russia!
The era of Catherine the Great disappeared with her death, and Paul I who succeeded her could not speak of any achievements. Compared with the increasingly developed Western European powers, Russia was just standing still.
There was no way out, no hope, and the whole country was suffocating with its conservativeness and backwardness. Finally, the French Revolution brought a ray of light, allowing the Russian youth of that era to see hope. They imitated the French or emulated the Great Revolution and became Russian youth.
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It can be said that the Russian youth who have just entered the new century fell in love with the free and open new France in an instant. Napoleon has also become their idol. Perhaps in their hearts, they also hope that one day they can cut a piece with a sword like their idol.
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It's just that this beam of light came and went faster. As the relationship between France and Russia took a turn for the worse, especially as Napoleon became Russia's enemy, the young people in Russia who admired him were suddenly embarrassed.
Especially when Napoleon led an army of 500,000 troops into Russia and was invincible, the progressive Russian youths almost had their personalities split. The idols of the past have become the enemies of today. So what is the point of worshiping and learning from him?
The spiritual world of Russia's progressive youth collapsed for the first time. Between their idols and their motherland, they had to choose the motherland.
Then the idol failed, but the Russian youth who worshiped him were not necessarily very happy. The light brought by the French Revolution and Napoleon was extinguished, and Russia was once again plunged into boundless darkness without any hope.
For more than ten years, Russian youths struggled in pain, and then in the winter of 1825, they vented all their long-suppressed depression, hoping to change everything through a coup - risk it all!
Then, failed! Exiled, hanged! More stringent censorship, more severe social repression, the dark clouds hanging over the head not only did not dissipate, but became thicker!
By this time, what stood in front of Dmitry was no longer a dark cloud, but a solid black wall. Nicholas I sealed off the country with an iron fist, and all citizens could only follow his will and wishes.
If you don't live your life, you will be jailed with hard labor or exiled to death.
Nicholas I was so arrogant. In Russia, he could either live the way he liked or die.
Such a high-pressure policy naturally aroused high dissatisfaction among a large number of young talents, including Dmitry. However, Nicholas I was too powerful and could not win for the time being, so they could only choose to swallow their anger, but
They always have a will in their hearts - sooner or later, they will change everything.
Sooner or later, it can be regarded as Ah Q's self-comfort, but for the Russian youth of this era, they can only swallow this kind of chicken soup and endure it silently. Although they don't know when the day will come sooner or later, but
I firmly believe that this day will come!
It's just that Dmitry is different from others. Before, he also firmly believed that "sooner or later this day will come." He even knew in his heart that there was a time when this day might come, that is, after Nicholas I died.
He felt that maybe as long as Nicholas I, the devil king, left, the dark clouds hanging over Russia would dissipate. So he joined the crown prince, because the young crown prince was initially very different from his overbearing father.
Alexander is more compassionate than his father, gentler than his father, and has received a better and more complete modern education than his father. This crown prince is no longer a Romanov or a crazy or ruthless barbarian.
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Such a crown prince should be able to bring something completely different from the past and lead the country onto a new and prosperous road, right?
With this hope, Dmitri happily became the military attache of Crown Prince Alexander, ready to assist the Crown Prince in his career.
But this excitement slowly faded as the crown prince grew up. This crown prince was indeed very different from his father, but he was too cautious and did not dare to go beyond the rules. Let alone shake the rules set by his father.
There are no humane and extremely conservative rules. Even if you let go of your hands and feet to do anything, you are still trembling. It is really disappointing!
This is not what makes Dmitry the most desperate. What makes him even more desperate is that whenever he tries to talk to the crown prince about reforms or changes, the crown prince will immediately stop the conversation. At first, he thought this was because
The crown prince was too cautious, but later he discovered that the crown prince was really not interested in it!
Their handsome, unrestrained and extremely talented crown prince is actually a person who is unwilling to make trouble at his core. If he could just be a monk for a day and clock the clock, then that would be fine. How hard it would be to change!
When Dmitri discovered this, you can imagine how crazy and desperate he was. Because when you place all your hopes on that point, you find out at some point that there is actually no hope at that point, then
Then your inner world will naturally collapse!
Dmitry originally thought that Crown Prince Alexander was hope, but in the end he found that it was just an illusion. His natural inner world collapsed, but he was unwilling to face this desperate fact, so he could only deceive himself and paralyze himself, telling
There is still hope for Crown Prince Alexander himself, maybe things will change after he ascends the throne?
It has to be said that the progressive young people in Russia at that time survived step by step in this way. Through self-paralysis, they prevented themselves from collapsing too early, otherwise they would really not be able to endure those days.
Of course, there will be a day when this kind of self-paralysis cannot be overcome. At that time, it will either commit suicide, go hysterically crazy, or become completely crazy, and there will be no other way out.
History also goes like this. Alexander II, who was once devastated by the Crimean War, was forced to start reforms, which once gave Russia's progressive youth hope. But in the end, he himself destroyed these hopes.
When he thought he was comfortable and did not need to continue to carry out any reforms, those desperate Russian progressive youths would naturally vent their full anger on him.
Take a look at the assassination of the Tsar during the middle and late periods of Alexander II's reign, and you will see how terrible it is for people who are driven crazy by despair! And now Dmitri's state was forcibly awakened from self-paralysis by Count Rostovtsev