Linger rarely gets so direct questioned. In the past, he always stood on the side of questioning others because he was a pastor, with a kind of innate power that could see through the hearts of the people, and could always keenly detect it.
People's inner fear or confusion. They never think they can do anything, but occasionally they will instinctively re-expose the secrets buried by these parties and force them to face them. This is in the religious sense.
Is it preaching? Or is it a guide with a mysterious nature? He didn't think so, but just did it subconsciously.
But he gradually lost that ability. As the young man no longer served as the resident pastor of Tianxin Church, he also lost that position. This may be the reason why his companions felt that he was beginning to become weak. At this moment,
The young man couldn't stand his gaze at Saint Charlie's attitude, "If you don't tell me the truth, I will never look away."
He opened his mouth: "I..."
"Tell the truth, Linger." St. Charlie interrupted him, his eyes narrowed slightly, and his tone was confident: "You can't deceive me."
Who can say that he knows exactly what another person knows, knows his words and thoughts so well that no lie can escape from this person? But Saint Charlie has the confidence to say such words, because she
Knowing that her understanding of Ringer was not based on common sense, but from some mysterious intuition, just as she now pressed her hand on the young man's chest, but not through the temperature that came through the fabric to sense his heartbeat
, but the veins that spread through the palm of the palm, as unpredictable as fate.
People themselves move forward according to the laws, but this law is not as rigorous as nature. Therefore, sometimes the impression people have established in the passing years will be considered a law that cannot exist without the established track. Young people are
This loyalty of the law is also the unswerving executor on this track. He always meticulously plans the image he shows in the eyes of others, just like building a fortress on the high ground of thought, overlooking people's criticism.
And St. Charliea tried to find a way out in this fortress without an entrance or an exit. Fortunately, she never relied on vision, hearing and direction, but on an instinct. As I mentioned earlier
What comes is as unpredictable as fate.
When the young man threw up the golden ball of yarn, the thread of destiny was like water flowing, like sunlight, like everything that could be seen and touched but could not be grasped, quietly pried a gap in this fortress.
From two years ago to two years later, from a long time ago to a long time later, the time that can be counted and the time that cannot be counted, the girl has figured out his rules.
so.
"You can't deceive me." She emphasized again word by word.
If the first sentence just surprised Linge, then the second sentence suddenly made him convinced that he had no secret in front of the shepherd girl. He felt regretful about this, but somehow
, and there was another subtle sense of gratitude. After a quiet breath of relief, a helpless smile appeared on his face: "Okay."
He said, "I won't lie."
Then Saint Charlie pursed her lips, outlined a shallow curve, withdrew her hand on the young man's chest, and asked, "Then can you tell me now why you are lying?"
Ringer sighed: "Because Bai Ye and Shino."
The girl blinked: "What does this matter have to do with them...?"
"They all think I'm too weak," Linger said. "Bai Ye wants me to become colder, and Shino wants me to become stronger. Only in this way can we deal with the challenges from the witch association, I think they say
It's very reasonable."
"So you want to make yourself look...indifferent and strong in this way?" St. Charlie was a little hesitant: "To measure the value of the ashes guerrilla as a bargaining chip, to see the cooperation between the two sides as a resource for exploitation,
Just pay attention to what benefits you can get from it, and everything else, including human hearts, ideals, beliefs or beliefs, is not worth mentioning. You think that as long as you force yourself to do this and force yourself to believe, you
Just like Bai Ye and Shino said, they will become more indifferent and strong, and will not be defeated by any difficulties again...?"
"kindness."
She analyzed Linger's psychology very thoroughly. The young man couldn't say a word of defense, so he could only admit it.
In fact, he felt vaguely that this was wrong, but reality made him unable to convince himself. When he recalled all the experiences he had experienced since he embarked on the journey, he would inevitably think that if he had not always been so weak, so naive, and so deceiving himself,
I only want to find the goddess, help me to relieve the Golden Apple, and return to normal life with Metien, but face the fate in front of me, not to ignore the atrocities and tragedies that happened before me, even like Rochelle,
Carson Borg, like the hero Ian, vowed to fight the tyrannical confrontation with the witch association, will everything end differently?
Themis in the heavens will not sacrifice themselves because they are difficult to make decisions in fantasy and reality; Alice will not close her mind because she loses the ability to fantasy; Iyeta will not blame all her mistakes on her, it is clear
He had already walked out of the windmill tower but walked back voluntarily; Metien would not struggle to support himself because he gave up his father's career; and Shino and Bai Ye would not be disappointed with their weak and escaping behavior. If this is the case,
If everything can change, who can say it is not a bright future?
Perhaps, Linger himself resisted this change, but it was no longer important, because in the face of the power of reality, he felt that his personal emotions were no longer important. Perhaps people all need to make changes, but often
When they realized this, they had already paid a heavy price.
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And the weak I in the past is dead...
"Puff!" Saint Shariya couldn't help but laughed out loud. She laughed very happily, and even squeezed out several drops of tears. She leaned half of her body against Linge and covered her with one hand.
The belly, one hand wiped the tears at the corners of her eyes, her cheerful and bright appearance, was not the same person as the gentle and quiet shepherd girl who was usually gentle and quiet.
Linger was confused by her smile, and looked at her at a loss, not knowing what was funny in her words. Through a dim aisle, the children's laughter came from the front hall.
The huge, happy atmosphere wrapped the young man around, but he didn't know what to do.
After a while, St. Charlie's laughter gradually stopped. She gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes and said to the young man with a smile: "What a childish idea, Linger."
"Child, childish!?"
Linger is like being struck by lightning. For a long time, only others have praised his calmness and caution, describing him as having a mature temperament that is not in line with young people of this age, but no one has ever said to Linger, "You are childish"
In this case, Saint Charlie is the first one. Of course, Ringer would not agree. He only felt that Saint Charlie mistakenly put his evaluation of others on himself, for example, it is good to describe Shemi and Leticia.
.Although, they are children.
A detail worth pondering is that only adults are described as "childish". This is because children's innocence and naivety are taken for granted. Only those qualities that are contrary to common sense will attract people's attention.
"Yes, childish." Saint Charia put her hands behind her, with an innocent expression on her face, not thinking there was anything wrong with her evaluation: "Because someone said that she was not cold and strong enough, she insisted on proving that she could do it.
Do it; isn’t this the same as a child being said to be immature enough and trying his best to become an adult?”
Linger was speechless, and when she thought about it carefully, it was true.
Am I really a childish person? He couldn't help but reflect on himself, but everyone on Yunjingkong Island, including Saint Charlie, would get the same answer.
When Loria saw that Linger quickly got along with Miche and Cardora, and even faster than Metien, she was not surprised at all. The person who knows the children best is closest to them
A child's person, who knows best what children want and need, must have a child living in his heart.
"But, children often miss their time when they are adults." Saint-Chalia whispered: "The same is true for you, Linger, when you really become like you think you are,
When an adult who is indifferent, strong, does not care about ideals and emotions, and only focuses on reality and interests, he will definitely miss himself now, right? Besides, I think Bai Ye hopes that you will become, and Xino hopes
The kind of strong adult you become must not be what you understand, Linger.”
Her words silenced Ringer.
Did you understand it wrong?
The young man couldn't help thinking. In the empty and deserted church, under the gaze of the goddess statue, the gray-haired girl showed herself a mysterious, cold but provocative smile, mocking herself for being too weak. But
Gloria also said that Bai Ye did not hate such young people, and on the contrary, he liked it very much; then he thought of the deep and quiet night, under the ancient sycamore tree as an umbrella, the white-haired and red-eyed knight
Gently reach out and hug yourself into your arms, persuade yourself to put away those weak thorns and become stronger in a sincere tone. But she also said to Linger, don't care about the impression others have of you, what is important is you
What do you want to be?
The faint fragrance lingers in the tip of the nose, and the green-haired girl hides the smell of spring, and perhaps a trace of apples. When she picks the apples from the tree, she washes away by the clear stream.
When she was dust on the peel, when she thought in her heart whether everyone would smile happily after eating apples while gently cutting the flesh, the warm fragrance always floated in the air, under neat bangs
, in those bright and pure golden eyes, Linger smelled it.
On the day of the incredible journey, he also ate an apple and went with his sister Metien.
However, both apples are the most common apples.
"You think," the young man blurted out before he could think about the special meaning of the past memories suddenly appeared in his mind, and whether the illusory whispers left before they disappeared showed some special meaning, he blurted out: "What should I do
, St. Charlie?”
Saint Charlie was stunned for a moment, then his eyes curled and he laughed silently.
If the memory is not wrong, this is the first time Linger asked others what to do about himself. In the past, only others asked him this question. He was always so mature, steady, and confident, so
I feel that I can achieve my goals and don’t need to think about other things; but at the same time I am so weak, sensitive, and full of childishness. Because I want to cater to other people’s expectations, I force myself to change something.
There seemed to be two people living in his body at the same time, and when they flew into the sky, they were the first person; and when they fell to the ground, they were replaced by another person. If you ask yourself, what do you like more
If one Linger is the answer, the girl must not be able to give the answer, right? After all, she thinks both Linger is very good and likes it so much. It would be great if they could become one person.
A Linger who is both mature, steady, and confident, worthy of being dependent on by everyone; a Linger who is weak, sensitive, full of childishness and needs to be protected by everyone. Like a fortress, the hedgehog put away his stubborn thorns;
It's like apples ushering in the ripe season. The wine has fermented in the cellar for thirteen years. Is it cold? Is it strong? Is it upset that I'm rated as childish? It's because I see it
Is it so serious and serious when I talked about the girl's smile? Is it so serious and serious when I was talking about the goddess's teachings on the altar? Is it...?
They are Linger.
It's all Ringer.
So, if you ask me what should I do.
"Be more like myself, Linger." She opened her hands and gently held the young man in her arms, her forehead just pressed against his chest, as if she could still hear the warm touch through a warm feeling
A heart thumps in the young man's body. Is that out of tension or some kind of emotion? In the past, Saint Charlie had always wanted to know the answer to this question, but suddenly
She didn't care about anything, because nothing was more important than him: "Don't live too much for others, the most important thing is-"
She murmured, slowly closing her eyes in his arms: "What kind of life do you want to live?"