Emperor Zhaoming's love and protection alone were not enough for Han Han.
You can only commit a thief in a thousand days, but you can't guard against a thief in a thousand days.
Han Han was born in Prince Yi's Mansion. As the eldest grandson of the emperor, Han Han seemed to be born with a silver spoon in his mouth, with flowers blooming all the way, but shadows and dangers behind his back were everywhere.
Bei Bei is always facing the threat of death due to congenital fetal poison.
However, Han Han became the most conspicuous target because of his identity and status.
Within the Northern Qin Dynasty, there were people like Xie Yurui who were lurking like tigers and venomous snakes who would pounce out and take a bite at any time.
Outside of Northern Qin, Han Han was the first to be targeted by the assassins sent from Nan Yan, who traveled thousands of miles away.
The reasons for both of these.
It's all because Han Han is Zhan Beihan's only son, the heir to Prince Yi's palace, and the only direct grandson of Northern Qin.
The more Xiao Lingyue thought about it, the colder her heart became, and the more scared she felt.
The guilt hidden deep in her heart suddenly surged up and rushed straight into her heart, making her almost breathless.
She should have thought that Hanhan's situation was not as good as she thought.
It was because she was too optimistic before.
She should return to Beijing as soon as possible, even if she can't pretend to be anyone with her real identity, at least she can protect her children in secret.
Xiao Lingyue even remembered that Zhan Beihan had told her before that when Hanhan was one year old, he accidentally ate the snacks of Emperor Zhaoming in the palace, was poisoned and was on the verge of death, and almost couldn't be saved.
When she stayed away from the disputes in the capital and devoted herself wholeheartedly to treating Beibei's illness and recuperating her health.
Hanhan was somewhere she couldn't see, and she experienced countless dangers.
What she knows may be just the tip of the iceberg.
Thinking like this, Xiao Lingyue felt as if her heart was being twisted by a knife. Years of belated panic, fear, regret, guilt, and various emotions flooded her heart like a tide, making her breathless.
Of course she can explain herself.
For example, she didn't abandon Hanhan on purpose, and there was nothing she could do about it.
In that situation, she had to make a choice between her two children.
Hanhan stayed in the capital, and although there were dangers, he could still survive.
But Beibei was born sick and weak. If she were left alone, she might not even have a chance to survive...
Another example...
She had too many reasons to defend herself and make herself feel less guilty and self-blame.
But there are thousands of reasons, but none of them are worth one.
She is Hanhan's biological mother.
She abandoned her child. No matter what the reason was, it could not make up for her guilt for Hanhan and the five years of absence as a mother.
Xiao Lingyue silently hugged the little body in her arms tightly, burying her face in the warm crook of his neck, her breath a little unsteady.
"Mom...you hug me too tightly, I can't breathe..." the little guy said weakly.
"I'm sorry." Xiao Lingyue was so frightened that she quickly let go.
"It's okay." Han Han didn't care. He stretched out his arms to hug her, put his warm little face against hers, and said softly: "Mom, what's wrong with you? Are you unhappy? I'll comfort you.
"
As she said that, the little guy imitated the way she used to coax him, and patted her back with his little hand: "Okay, it's okay, I will protect my mother!"
He thought his mother was depressed because of Xie Yurui's troubles, and said in a childish voice: "Even if father is not here, I will protect my mother. No one can bully you. Don't be afraid, mother!"
Xiao Lingyue's eyes were sore, she quickly turned her head and hid her tears.
Hanhan was hugged by her and could not see the expression on her face.
Beibei on the side could see it clearly.
He thought thoughtfully for a while and seemed to understand something. He walked over to her like Hanhan, stretched out his arms to hug her comfortingly, and whispered: "Idiot mother, this is not your fault, you have done a good job.
"
Hanhan didn't understand at all, but nodded vigorously: "Beibei is right, mother is already great!"
Xiao Lingyue burst into tears and smiled, reaching out to take Beibei into her arms, hugging the two children and kissing them: "Thank you."
It's a time of tenderness.
A sharp and angry voice came: "Are there all dead people outside? Why don't you bring this bitch in for me!" This chapter has been completed!