"Or you will simply ask me, since you don't like this kind of life, why don't you resist and fight for it."
"There is a saying that goes well. Don't comment if you don't know the whole story. I don't know your past, so I won't criticize you hastily. If you are willing to talk, I am willing to listen carefully. Just treat me as a tree hole and tell me something.
As long as you accumulate it in your heart, it will be fine, no matter what."
"Thank you, you are really different. I thought that at your age, you must be arrogant, and you must look down on my behavior. It's because I am narrow-minded." Lin curled her lips and said, "I think, if I
If I was in your state of mind at that time, maybe things wouldn't be so bad."
"Time gives us not only age, but also an examination of the past and a more comprehensive understanding of the future, but it is not used to give us regrets, right?" Hua Yanxi said.
Mrs. Lin nodded, and this time she was more relaxed: "Then let's continue telling the story. Later, I followed Lu Yuan on an overseas trip. When I returned to Beijing, I met him again. He became a flower hunter and rode around the streets.
, which attracted the admiration of all the red sleeves. I did not expect that he would become an official in the court. This was not his ambition. He told me at the time that he wanted to open a private school, teach students, live a plain life, and did not like officialdom."
At this point, Mrs. Lin's eyes suddenly filled with moisture: "Although we have no contact with each other anymore, I know that he entered the officialdom because of me. He wanted to see me again, but why did they want to
So, why don't you want to let him go, why do you want to wipe away the little warmth left in my heart!"
It should be that the Li family and Lu Yuan knew about this man's past with the Lin family. Even though there was a lot of love and etiquette between them from beginning to end, they still attacked the flower hunter.
"He died. He died in a fight. He happened to be passing by and was affected. By the time I found out about his death, half a year had passed. I found someone to investigate secretly, and then I found out that these people had met with the housekeeper of the Lu family.
noodle."
"He is most afraid of pain. He accidentally fell down and was frightened to tears when he saw his knees bleeding. He would come to me with a limp leg every day to apply medicine on him. For such a person, who had been stabbed more than a dozen times, he would have to
How painful it is."
Speaking of this, Mrs. Lin felt pain all over her body, as if all those dozen knives had fallen on her body.
Hua Yanxi held her hand and said firmly: "He has never blamed you."
"But I have to blame myself. If it weren't for me, he would be just a teacher now. Maybe in a few years, he would let go of this relationship, marry a virtuous wife, and live the life he should have lived."
Hua Yanxi understood: "So you started collecting clues about the Prime Minister just for today?"
"I have been timid and fearful all my life. Since there is nothing left, what do I have to be afraid of?" Lin sneered.
When she was a child, she lived under the shelter of others and lived in humiliation for fear of being beaten and scolded.
Later, he proposed to elope with her, but she was afraid that he would blame her because she lost her future, and that the Li family would find him.
Later, she received a letter from him, which said that if she was happy, he would care about her from a distance. If she was unhappy, he would take her away. But she was afraid of the rumors and chose to ignore them until she died.
Didn't get to see him.
She thought countless times if she had been braver, the ending would have been different.
If she had chosen to elope with him at that time, the two of them would have found a place where no one knew them, lived a plain life in anonymity, and met each other every day.