In life, there are always many choices that may seem stupid and irrational.
But maybe this is the twisted and endearing part of human nature.
"does it worth?"
"It's not a matter of whether it's worth it, it's a question of whether it's worth it or not. You know you should do it, right?"
"I know."
Lu Ping'an sighed and spared his head. He was a little helpless, but also a little happy.
He is not a saint, and he is very happy that his friends are not. Even if he must save, he needs to prioritize. If he really saves them all without any distinction, likes or dislikes, it will eventually be like a glass of water extinguishing a fire. The fire is not extinguished.
And the water has been exhausted.
"I'll take care of it for you, but don't expect it to be trouble-free."
"grateful."
"Guan Xinxian" smiled very calmly, but through him, Lu Pingan saw the Ark of God outside the earth's atmosphere.
To be precise, only half of the God's Boat is like an ancient tree lying flat, with the upper half being a wooden body. Compared with the God's Boat that Lu Ping'an saw before, it has more humanity and holiness.
The face of the human figure on the ancient tree seems to be filled with infinite compassion, but also seems to be full of anger.
Most of its arms, which might be called arms, were completely broken off, but one of them was holding a rope.
Lu Ping'an was a little surprised, surprised that he had grown up to be able to look directly at a god-level existence, and also surprised that this "evil god" was weak.
"have a rest."
"Guan Xinxian" nodded, and then disappeared without a trace.
At this time, he is no longer a mortal, and the star ship in outer orbit is its true body.
However, the broken posture was like a severed limb pulled out from the earth. In fact, he just forcibly tore off a part of himself before leaving Mercury 42.
On Mercury 42, over the past year or so, he has actually begun to transform into a god.
However, unlike those normal gods, he was "enlightened" and the world longed for his achievements, giving him a lot of power (pollution), and in the supernatural world power and will are inseparable.
Borrowing the gifts of the world to become a god is equivalent to making the world a part of you, and integrating yourself into this world.
In fact, Guan Xinxian can accept such a result.
"Becoming a savior, you can also take eternal revenge on Ba Zhao. Hey, is there a better future than this?"
Therefore, he successfully persuaded Lu Ping'an to help him prepare to become a god.
Lu Ping An tries his best to allow more believers in the God of Redemption to appear in the mortal world. This is only to allow them to have more anchor points of humanity, and to have as much humanity and self as possible.
But perhaps, it was his efforts that "hurt" the other party.
"Is it worth it to degenerate from a true god into an evil god?"
That man's smile may be the answer.
From the beginning, it’s not whether it’s worth it or not, it’s something that must be done.
That "you should know" smile is like saying, "You and I are the same. There are some things that you don't need to calculate from the beginning. If you encounter them, you will do them."
"Huh, I'm not a saint." Lu Ping'an sighed. At that moment, he didn't even know if he would, but Lu could understand Guan.
Always very understanding.
Is becoming the God of Redemption in Mercury 42 really for redemption? Redemption is his desire, his daily routine, and his ideal, but it is not the highest desire in his heart.
Revenge is its destined priesthood. For the God of Resistance and Redemption, being able to bleed permanently on Ba Zhao's body is his desire that he is willing to sacrifice everything for.
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Redemption is also revenge.
Fighting is also revenge.
Rescue is also revenge.
Both love and hatred can become motivations, and the unforgettable nightmare has become eternal hatred. Being a saved person and having to live may also be an eternal pain for him.
Saving others is redeeming others, and perhaps also redeeming yourself, even if it is only a short-term "pain relief".
If you close your eyes and fall asleep, you may hear screams and questions.
"Why, you are the one who is alive."
"What have you done to survive?"
"Why am I not the one who survived? I obviously have more dreams."
Auditory hallucinations and visual hallucinations are not serious mental illnesses. Questioning from the heart is an unavoidable torture.
Lu Pingan has seen through everything, but will not deny Guan Xinxian's "holiness" because of this.
After all, in Lu's eyes, looking at a person is never about what he says or thinks, but what he does.
After ten years of redemption and countless saved people, when that kindness finally turned into the anchor of the God of redemption, Lu Ping'an was not surprised at all.
The rapid expansion of the Church of God of Redemption is also an act of great achievement. If the existence of saving the world for ten years cannot represent hope and salvation, then who can?
The eyes of ordinary people are sometimes short-sighted, but if you let the torrent of time go by and look at it over a longer period of time, you will find that they are actually very sensible. They know who is good to them and who is a bastard who deceives the world and steals his name."
The "sinner" became an eternal hero, while the traitor who once stood at the top of the world knelt at his feet.
In fact, the God of Redemption's human anchor point is a bit beyond expectations. Lu Ping'an has no doubt that after he succeeds in becoming a god, he will still be able to retain most of his humanity.
"Maybe it's this humanity that makes him so irrational. But should I be happy about it?"
After thinking about it, Lu Pingan laughed.
In the past, Lu Pingan would not humiliate the other person to make him give up hatred. Let him choose the so-called love and future, which is the greatest humiliation.
Lu Ping'an knew that outsiders could not make decisions for him. Whether he could go out was up to him. However, it was not impossible to go out. Perhaps this was a kind of happiness for him.
"Can't stand forgetting, can't stand being happy, the worst kind of post-traumatic stress disorder"
As a friend, Lu Pingan can only help him fulfill his wish.
Even Lu Pingan himself did not expect to see Guan Xinxian here and see the unformed boat of God that actively tore him apart.
"Compared with hate, you still can't let go of love?"
Rather than revenge, he ultimately chose salvation.
Even if you can't ascend to the gods or take revenge, you still have to come back to protect him.
If there is only one power, if there is only one life, if possible, hope can still be used to save.
Lu Ping'an closed his eyes. The loss of the God's Ship was very heavy. It borrowed the world of Mercury 42 and needs to repay it twice.
Betrayal comes with a price. I'm afraid it's incredible luck that this "evil god" exists.
"Don't worry, I'm here."
Lu Ping'an didn't say anything, but he knew that the other party knew that I would take care of everything. You can rest in peace and wait for your long-cherished wish to be fulfilled.
"Let's talk to the officials first. By the way, we still need help from Lin Nu's church. Maybe I should go see Lin Nu and meet my God?"