"I'm going crazy now." Sister Chen and Sheng Chuncheng said, "At home, I have to be careful and don't even dare to smile. As long as I smile, my daughter will look at me and blame me.
'Are you happy that your father has been captured?!'
"Someone calls and asks about her father on the phone. Do you know what I do? I can only go into my room. This is not enough. I also have to hide in the bathroom to answer the phone without letting her hear it.
Not a single word, otherwise her eyes could kill people. I even doubted whether she was thinking that I conspired with others to send her father in.
"When her father's accident just happened, she really asked me how others knew about the things that my father did. Was it me who reported and exposed it? Was it me who stepped on her father's body to climb up? I
It's true, it's true that she can't argue, and it feels uncomfortable to have a knife stabbed in her heart. How could she miss me so much? I'm her mother.
"I just don't smile and don't say anything. She doesn't like me when she looks at me. From time to time, she will criticize me with words, saying that I am so calm and bother to put on makeup and sit here with the air conditioner blowing. My father is in prison now.
, there is no air conditioning in the prison, probably not even a fan.
"Is it true that she will be happy and satisfied only if my hair is unkempt every day? Is that right?
"Either she begged me plaintively, or even knelt down. She begged me, don't you know a lot of people? Don't the leaders all appreciate you? Please save dad, even if you don't have feelings.
, then he is also my father. Please save him for my sake.
"She told me that as long as dad can come out, the two of us will leave you and leave everything to you. It doesn't matter if dad doesn't have an official position, and it doesn't matter if he doesn't have a job. I will drop out of school and work to support him. I promise.
It doesn’t cost you a penny.
"Think about it, how uncomfortable it makes me feel after hearing such words? She doesn't care, she doesn't care how I feel, and she doesn't think about it, if I could help, would I not help? At this time, I
Interfering would only be a disservice. She didn't know about the people she mentioned who admired me very much. It was too late to avoid me now. If I asked them, it would only be counterproductive.
"But she didn't know, how could she know that in her heart, there was only her father, and she would only torture me and try every means to torture me. As long as I didn't sacrifice myself to save her father, she would feel that I
It's gloating.
"I don't know what party discipline and state law can be changed by a certain person. How capable am I? It's only now that I'm talking to you that I feel like I've vented some of my heart and feel better. Otherwise, I feel like I'll be bullied again.
If she is forced like this, I will go crazy before she goes crazy..."
Sister Chen started crying as she cried, shaking her head constantly. Sheng Chuncheng handed over a tissue, and she kept wiping her eyes. Soon, the tissue became soaked. Sheng Chuncheng passed it over again and again, and she wiped her eyes.
He continued again and again, and after wiping the paper towels, he didn't even bother to throw them into the paper bag, but just threw them next to his feet.
Sheng Chuncheng has never seen Sister Chen so rude. It was her birthday and she couldn't help but cry. She still maintained a certain degree of dignity. It can be said that Sister Chen now and at this time have no idea what dignity is.
What's the matter? She just needed to vent to her heart's content, venting regardless of dignity. In front of a blind man, she completely let down her guard.
Sheng Chuncheng looked at Sister Chen, feeling a dull pain in his heart, but there was nothing he could do. He didn't know what he could do, and he couldn't do anything. Apart from being an emotional trash can and listening to Sister Chen tell him,
There's really nothing he can do.
Sister Chen finally stopped crying and said to Sheng Chuncheng:
"I'm sorry, Xiao Sheng, I shouldn't have told you this. These are my family affairs and private matters. I shouldn't have told you. But, Xiao Sheng, if I didn't tell you, I really don't know how I would be able to survive."
No matter who I tell, I have been completely defeated, but when I get to work, in front of other people, I still have to pretend to be strong and maintain my dignity."
"Sister Chen, I know. I just hate myself. I have a humble status and no ability. I can't help you." Sheng Chuncheng said, "If I can help, I will definitely help. I can tell you anything."
Help, I said..."
Sister Chen reached out and held his hand, shook it, and said to him: "I know, Xiao Sheng, thank you. This is also the reason why I will not tell these things to other people, but only to you. In front of you
, sister is not afraid of embarrassment."
"No, sister, you didn't do anything wrong. There's nothing embarrassing about it." Sheng Chuncheng said.
Sister Chen sighed and said to Sheng Chuncheng: "Actually, I know it's useless to complain about this. In my heart, I have been worried about my daughter. Her current condition is very bad. It has never been so bad.
"It's summer vacation now, and she doesn't go out to play. Several good high school classmates come to see her at home. She doesn't go out either. She just stays at home all day. My aunt told me that she sometimes sits there.
I just sat there for a few hours, motionless. Even my aunt knew that sitting like this would make people sick. I didn't dare to tell her that she was sick.
"Also, from morning to night, I don't wash my face or brush my teeth. Sometimes I fall asleep wherever I fall, on the sofa, on the floor, on the TV cabinet. Sometimes I go into the bathroom and don't come out for a long, long time.
The door was also locked. Auntie was really worried that something would happen to her inside. She knocked on the door and was scolded by her. She could still scold others, but she felt relieved.
“Sometimes people suddenly go crazy, turn up the sound very loudly, sing, dance and smash things with bare feet, dance and sing, and finally burst into tears.
"Now it's not just me, even my aunt can't bear it. She told me that she wanted to quit her job and said that she was not afraid of anything else. She was just afraid that if something happened to my daughter and she couldn't bear the responsibility, I could only persuade her and tell her
, if anything happens, just call me. For other things, I told her, if anything happens, I promise not to blame her.
"After I made this promise, Auntie agreed to stay. If Auntie isn't even at home, then I won't be able to stay in the unit for even a minute."
"Have you called the doctor? What did he say?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.
"Four words, adding insult to injury, he said, this is the worst situation. At this time, except to see if she can survive it, no one can do anything." Sister Chen said, "The doctor told me, you now
If you ask to bring her to Shanghai, she will definitely resist fiercely, which will only aggravate her condition. Even if you give her medicine, she will probably throw the medicine in your face."
Sister Chen said and sighed: "The doctor is right. I am really helpless now. I am a party member with more than 20 years of party experience and an atheist. I went to Lingyin to pray to Bodhisattva that day. Apart from that, I am really helpless."
I don’t know what else I can do.”
"What's next? School will start soon. What will she do?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.
"How can she go back to school in this condition? I have already contacted her school and asked her to suspend school and stay at home. The school is also afraid of something happening," said Sister Chen.
