176 Sister Chen walks to the door leading to the balcony in the living room
Sister Chen walked to the doorway from the living room to the balcony and looked outside. She saw her daughter and Sheng Chuncheng sitting there. Her mood had calmed down. She breathed a sigh of relief and turned back to the living room.
Just now, she heard two people yelling at each other outside, and she was still very worried. She was afraid that Guo Shuang would be stimulated. Sister Chen tried her best to control herself and did not come out.
The two people outside were arguing fiercely. After a while, there seemed to be no movement. Sister Chen couldn't help it anymore and decided to come over and have a look. While she was worried that her daughter would be hurt, she was also worried that her daughter would be hurt.
Sheng Chuncheng, she had learned about her daughter's mouth, and Sheng Chuncheng was a disabled person after all, so even when he was with a girl, he was at a disadvantage.
Fortunately, the two people outside seemed to be safe, and her daughter did not leave the balcony angrily and go back to her room, which showed that even if they quarreled, it was not to the point where they were not talking on the same page, which made her feel relieved a little.
Guo Shuang sat there in silence. She felt that this blind man was right about one thing just now, that is, she was a performer. Guo Shuang felt that it was true. Not only was she a performer, but her father and especially her mother were.
, which one is not, their performing personality was cultivated by them.
Many times, when she saw them on TV and online, sitting on the podium and speaking sanctimoniously, this feeling became even more profound.
Guo Shuang remembers that when he was a child, his father and mother often quarreled. Before the quarrel, they would close the doors and windows and draw the curtains. This was because they were afraid that the neighbors would hear them quarreling.
The three of them were sitting eating or sitting in the living room. Because of something, their father and mother were talking and their voices became louder. At this time, when one person stood up to close the door and window, Guo Shuang began to tremble.
Find an opportunity and escape to your room.
She knew a storm was coming soon.
In front of outsiders, they were a happy family of three, but when they had a quarrel, Guo Shuang felt that these two college graduates, party members, and junior leaders in the unit at that time were no different from the uncle and aunt in the farmer's market.
They almost always choose the most rude, direct, and most painful words to curse each other. One party suddenly raises his voice. When the curse is too loud, the other party, although furious, still cannot forget to turn on the stereo. Sometimes the neighbor comes to knock on the sound.
They opened the door to protest that the speakers in their home were too loud.
As soon as such a knock on the door rang, the two people immediately stopped, walked to the door together, opened the door, and the two smiling faces faced the outside together, saying "I'm sorry" to each other alternately. The other party didn't know what was going on, and thought they were
I was overjoyed.
Close the door and come back. There should be no more arguing. As soon as my mother turns around, she will slam the door to the room and lock herself in the room.
On nights like this, dad could only come and sleep with Guo Shuang.
The two young leaders usually like to talk about the bad influence, but they have never thought that every time they quarrel, their daughter has experienced the whole process. They know that being heard by the neighbors has a bad influence, but they never think about it.
I also don’t think about whether it will be good or bad if my daughter hears it.
Every time at this time, Guo Shuang sat in his room, trembling all over, not with anger, but with humiliation. Compared with how much they loved to quarrel, what made Guo Shuang even more intolerable was that they were so fake.
, so hypocritical, their hypocrisy made Guo Shuang feel as if she was hypocritical and deceitful along with them. This was what made her feel most ashamed.
Yes, at that time, her mother took her to many occasions and met many people. In every place and everyone she met, Guo Shuang felt that she was dressed up on stage. She was responsible for playing a happy and happy person.
To a smart daughter, the mother is responsible for playing a capable and virtuous mother, and there will be no second role.
Guo Shuang often feels that he is made up of two and a half people, one half is the one in front of others, and the other half is the one behind others. These two and a half people often fight, scold and despise each other, which makes Guo Shuang often confused.
Be clear about which half of you is your true self.
Look again, isn’t the same for mom? Isn’t the same for dad? They are both made up of two and a half people. What a unique parent they are, and what a unique family they are.
With a performing personality, Humph, even Guo Shuang didn't know which half was performing and which half was the audience, and how quickly their roles were reversed.
Guo Shuang sighed, and Sheng Chuncheng asked: "Why are you sighing?"
"Let me ask you a question, okay?" Guo Shuang said.
Sheng Chuncheng nodded: "You say."
"Have you ever felt like you were divided, that is, as if there were two people in you?" Guo Shuang asked.
Sheng Chuncheng thought, I am divided every day, there are two people, one when I put on my sunglasses, and another when I take off my sunglasses. He said honestly:
"Yes, it happens often."
"Then what will you do?" Guo Shuang asked.
"Try not to think about it," Sheng Chuncheng said. "If you don't take yourself seriously, if you take yourself too seriously, you won't be able to survive."
Guo Shuang nodded thoughtfully, then shook his head.
Sheng Chuncheng said: "Actually, how many people are the same on the outside and on the inside? In this society, no one has several faces, and they need to keep changing their faces to survive. If we say that there are really people who are the same on the outside, there are some.
In one place, such people are most concentrated."
"Where?" Guo Shuang asked curiously.
"Mental hospital." Sheng Chuncheng said, "Those people will express whatever they think in their hearts."
Guo Shuang couldn't help but laugh, feeling that what Sheng Chuncheng said made sense, and then he became sad again, thinking that he was going crazy, and that he would soon become one of those people.
Through her sunglasses, Sheng Chuncheng saw a smile flash across Guo Shuang's face, and then a look of mourning appeared on her face. She couldn't help but ask:
"what's on your mind?"
"Tell me, is that a good place?" Guo Shuang asked.
"where?"
"It's a mental hospital. At least everyone doesn't have to pretend," Guo Shuang said, and Sheng Chuncheng was moved.
"You think too much. If you don't pretend, you won't be a human being." Sheng Chuncheng said.
"Why?" Guo Shuang asked.
Sheng Chuncheng said: "Primitive people probably don't pretend, and animals don't pretend. How come we degenerate back? The history of human progress is a history of pretending, and pretending is art. Think about it, it's easy for a person to become a loser.
How difficult it is to pretend to be a rich second generation. How many outfits, props, and selfies does he need to make others believe that he is a rich second generation?
"It's the same if he wants to pretend to be various masters. He needs to memorize many books so that he can talk freely, and he also needs to be able to pretend to be a master, so that he can look like a master.
"By the way, there are those actors who are not famous at all. When they go out, they need to hire thirty or forty bodyguards, who line up in two rows to clear the way. As a result, there are not as many onlookers as his bodyguards. The sad thing is
Those who came to watch were here to see the bodyguard, not him."
Guo Shuang finally couldn't help it and chuckled.
"Okay, I guess you're right." Guo Shuang said.
"Originally, pretending is not scary. As long as you don't be too harsh on yourself, it's not that scary. Many times, letting yourself go is more important than demanding yourself. If you demand yourself, you will then demand others and the people around you.
, let go of yourself, that is, let go of others, let go of the people around you, then everyone will be relaxed, how good it is."
As Sheng Chuncheng spoke, Guo Shuang stopped talking again.
It was getting late, and Sheng Chuncheng was about to leave. He got up and remembered something, and quietly said to Guo Shuang:
"Give me your mobile phone and I will fix it for you. There is a mobile phone repairman at the door of our community."
Guo Shuang was surprised and asked, "Do you know?"
Sheng Chuncheng smiled and said: "You took all my water and told me that my phone was gone. If you didn't use water to bathe your phone, what else could it be?"
Guo Shuang was stunned for a moment, and then he remembered that if he had to go out to repair his mobile phone, it would be a bit difficult.
Guo Shuang handed his mobile phone to Sheng Chuncheng, and Sheng Chuncheng put it in his bag.
The two people walked into the living room. Sister Chen and her aunt were sitting at the dining table in the distance. When they saw them coming in, they came over. Sheng Chuncheng and Sister Chen said that they were going back.
Sister Chen looked at Guo Shuang and said to her: "It's not convenient for Xiao Sheng to take a taxi or anything. Shuang Shuang, please give him a ride."
Guo Shuang hesitated for a moment, then she said okay.
The two people went out and the door closed behind them. Sister Chen and Auntie looked at each other inside the door. The two couldn't help but hug each other happily. Sister Chen almost cried.
In nearly two months, this is the first time Guo Shuang has left the house.
"I'd better go down and follow Shuangshuang back." Auntie said to Sister Chen, and Sister Chen nodded.
Just as Auntie was about to go out, Sister Chen shouted: "Trash, trash, take the trash down with you."
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