(I know everyone has some opinions on the system, so please read this chapter as a side story. A short side story.)
After Chen Mo cooperated with the work of the police station to complete the record, he did not return to the dormitory. He had spoken to Jiang Lei and others before coming to the police station. When he came out of the police station, he did not think about finding a hotel.
At the beginning of the retrograde period, he slept lightly.
Since it was just an experiment and he wasn't particular about where to sleep, it would be better to be somewhere where he could wake up at any time and deal with what happened in reality. He was afraid that the hotel environment would be too comfortable and he would fall asleep. What would happen to the hotel when he opened his eyes tomorrow morning?
The serial murder case may have gone wrong...
After all, it's not like it hasn't happened before.
In line with the principle of letting things happen, after Chen Mo left the police station, he went to the Xiaobai Building near Y Mei to buy some painting materials. He casually opened a nearby KFC store and walked in. He ordered some food and opened his mobile phone.
A few days ago, when I was adjusting my schedule and getting jet-lagged, I found an app called "Small Sleep" to help me sleep, and randomly clicked on a hypnotic meditation audio.
He leaned against the window and closed his eyes.
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The moonlight outside the window is like a gentle veil, which occasionally appears when the clouds pass by, gently exuding a soft light.
Looking in, it seems that you can still see spots on the aperture, but as the lens gradually zooms out, the moonlight seen from a distance is beautiful and picturesque. The light gray of the dark clouds in front of the moonlight is dyed with a faint blue, and there are layers around it.
The squirming nerves, the yellowish-brown to black nerve tentacles squirm gently under the iris, making the moonlight look particularly lonely, and the contrast is also lonely and desolate.
Just like Gao Mengan's state of mind at this time.
Gao Mengan closed his eyes and opened them again. He didn't know if it was due to his state of mind, but the moonlight still gave him that lonely feeling. He smiled to himself, put his hands behind his head, and looked at the moonlight behind the railing, unconsciously thinking about it.
It drifted away.
When a person is alone, he will always unconsciously think of his childhood. The iron fence not only closes people, but also their hearts.
How could he, Gao Mengan, step by step reach this point?
At what point did the error begin?
Life is like a chess game. Every choice you make has no regrets. As people get older, there will be a certain point where they wish to sacrifice their lives and want to do it again.
But if your memory is removed and you are asked to make a choice again, almost most people will still go down the same path as before.
Some people call this that everyone has his or her own destiny. This is a person's fixed destiny. It is like a dream he has been having repeatedly during this period. The repetition is like a joke. He is awake and watching how he goes step by step.
Make a mess of your own life.
He obviously promised his mother that he would be a master...
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Gao Mengan has always prided himself on being smart, and his brain was very good at a very young age. His mother passed away very early. He still remembers that when he was a child, his mother asked him to study hard because he had a good brain. At that time, in the countryside in the 1970s and 1980s
, the special era has just ended, and I am not rich at all.
Unruly people come out of poor mountains and rivers. At that time, there was no public security like today. In the village, the doors were fastened and the branches inside could be pushed in and opened. Basically, the whole room in the house would be rummaged through the next day. Maybe you hid it in the bedside table.
Everything of value has been rummaged through.
In that era, his grandmother allowed him to go to school. He can still remember when he closes his eyes now that her grandmother got up early before the sun came up to carry the lotus roots from the pond to the tricycle, and then pedaled the tricycle with him on her back.
Go to the market to grab a stall.
Bags of lotus root and bags of cotton provided for him to go to school.
His mother was very happy. She had fled from the north. At first, her family was in good condition, and she was raised by a noble family. However, during the years when she did not escape the great famine, he was the only one who died in the family.
His mother and his uncle. He still remembered that his mother said that she watched one of her brothers steal a taro because he was hungry, and his leg was broken by a shovel. The brother crawled to the grass little by little.
Inside the pile, the haystack was dyed red with blood, and he finally died in the haystack.
It was not easy for the brother and sister to make a living on their own, so their uncle married their mother to a local family, that is, his father. My mother was not happy at first, but the village was remote and there were even human trafficking, let alone a married woman who wanted to run away.
, his mother had been beaten before he was born. It was not until his alcoholic father wandered outside and died in someone else's belly that the situation improved.
But it goes without saying how difficult it is for orphans and widowed mothers to live in this mountain village. As the saying goes, poor people come out of poverty, and everyone's way of dealing with things is barbaric and cruel. They say that a mother is strong, even if she is not his mother.
She really wanted to give birth to a child, but her mother still raised him. Even in order to survive with him in the mountain village, she transformed herself from a gentle little woman into a tough butcher knife.
A shrew yelling at the entrance to the village.
That small body of about 1.5 meters seems to have huge and infinite power, which can carry the family and him.
Grandma has always hoped that he would get ahead, hope that he would become a master in the future and would not have to suffer like she did. So she tried her best to support him in studying, and wanted him to read out, so that he would no longer live the life of her generation.
But he disappointed his mother.
His grandma loved and cared for him, and she also cared for his grandma when he grew up.
Maybe it's a common problem among boys.
As I grow up and become sensible, I always think of doing something quickly to make my grandma less tired.
He dropped out of school when he was in middle school. Young and Dangerous were popular at the time and were influenced by X-city movies. Young people of that era were all middle-schoolers, and he was no exception. He thought that by joining a gang, his family would no longer be afraid.
I can protect my mother.
The soil and water support each person, and he is no exception. He is also a unruly man raised in poor mountains and rivers. He is also very evil, as his mother said, if he is neither bad nor evil, he cannot survive.
Because of this ruthlessness, he became famous in Nao Shizi's gang and met many people. Later, he was beaten with a stick by his grandmother, who forcibly changed his temper. Later, he came to Lu
The gangs were withdrawn one after another.
He still remembers what his grandma said that day when she saw him kneeling in the hall, holding a cane with trembling hands.
Grandma said that people can choose evil in order to survive, but they must have a bottom line. They cannot do things that harm others. If a person has no bottom line, he is no different from an animal. The farmer who killed the evil landlord with a knife eventually became the next disaster for the countryside.
Wild evil landowner, what is going on?
He knew that his grandmother had always been a very gentle person, even if she picked manure and watered vegetables every day, dug in the fields, handled livestock, stabbed people with a kitchen knife, and scolded people in the village like a shrew over the vegetable fields...
...But when she calmed down, she was still a gentle woman who would plant a bouquet of red roses at the door of her house.
Just like what she said, no matter how sharp the thorns are on the outside, there is still a pure land in the heart.
His grandma is really a very good person, so good that he wants to be good to her all his life, honor her well, treat her well, very, very well. He wants to be the pride of her grandma.
I want my grandma to be able to stand proud in the village and at my uncle's house, stand up straight, and say that she has lived a good life and that she has lived a good life for herself.
She said that all the hard work in the first half of her life was for the enjoyment of the second half of her life. She, Li Fanglan, had raised a good son.
But he no longer saw his mother's body upright, but instead became more and more rickety. The root of the disease left in her youth was overwork. Her body, which was originally not tall, looked even more curled up and pitiful because of this bend.
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He listened to his mother's words and stopped fooling around. He went to Xiangyang and started a job of buying and selling. He started as a small merchant. Perhaps his mother was right when he praised him when he was a child. He is really smart and he is not afraid of hardship or fatigue.
The man had a vicious energy, so he started to do it little by little.
At first, I just resold socks and underwear, and then gradually took over the store. Finally, with the help of some well-connected people in the early years, I gradually started to do business and became bigger. After several transformations and investments, I finally had the previous business.
The size of Shuang'an Plaza.
These are simple things to say, but it took him more than twenty years to reach this point.
He has become a popular figure among people in the conventional sense. TV stations will interview him, people in the village will fawn over him, and his uncle will also compliment him and ask him to help him with some things.
He finally became someone who was envied by others, lived a good life in the eyes of others, and became a successful person.
But...what's the use.
Not long after he started his business and was still reselling underwear, his mother became ill due to overwork and contracted esophageal cancer. She passed away in less than a year.
He was sitting outside the operating room of the hospital crying like a fool. He had no money, and he had never hated himself so much for not having money. How could his son be so incompetent, how could he be so helpless? When his mother was sick, he had nothing to do with anything.
I couldn't do it. I couldn't even find a better ward for my mother and buy better medicine.
He wanted to change his mother's hospital, but he couldn't even afford the money for hospitalization or surgery. He begged many people, but no one lent him money. So when he became rich, he retaliated and didn't want to lend him money.
Others, Qian, are said to be iron roosters who don't know how to behave, and if they are not successful, they will fall sooner or later. But he doesn't care, he is just taking revenge.
Revenge yourself, revenge for this damn fate.
He had wondered more than once why time couldn't give him a few more years, give him a little more time, let him grow up a little bit, even if he grew up a little bit more, don't let him make every effort when his mother was in trouble.
No. Let his son feel so painful and resentful of himself.
Even if you give him a little more time, let his mother take a look and see that his son can make money and buy her beautiful clothes. He can buy her many, many flowers that she likes, not just roses.
Flowers, roses, jasmine, gardenias, they can all be planted in our yard.
Decorate your home beautifully.
(The following is the anti-theft chapter. Just refresh it one hour after the update.)
Just like what she said, no matter how sharp the thorns are on the outside, there is still a pure land in the heart.
His grandma is really a very good person, so good that he wants to be good to her all his life, honor her well, treat her well, very, very well. He wants to be the pride of her grandma.
I want my grandma to be able to stand proud in the village and at my uncle's house, stand up straight, and say that she has lived a good life and that she has lived a good life for herself.
She said that all the hard work in the first half of her life was for the enjoyment of the second half of her life. She, Li Fanglan, had raised a good son.
But he no longer saw his mother's body upright, but instead became more and more rickety. The root of the disease left in her youth was overwork. Her body, which was originally not tall, looked even more curled up and pitiful because of this bend.
.
He listened to his mother's words and stopped fooling around. He went to Xiangyang and started a job of buying and selling. He started as a small merchant. Perhaps his mother was right when he praised him when he was a child. He is really smart and he is not afraid of hardship or fatigue.
The man had a vicious energy, so he started to do it little by little.
At first, I just resold socks and underwear, and then gradually took over the store. Finally, with the help of some well-connected people in the early years, I gradually started to do business and became bigger. After several transformations and investments, I finally had the previous business.
The size of Shuang'an Plaza.
These are simple things to say, but it took him more than twenty years to reach this point.
He has become a popular figure among people in the conventional sense. TV stations will interview him, people in the village will fawn over him, and his uncle will also compliment him and ask him to help him with some things.
He finally became someone who was envied by others, lived a good life in the eyes of others, and became a successful person.
But...what's the use.
Not long after he started his business and was still reselling underwear, his mother became ill due to overwork and contracted esophageal cancer. She passed away in less than a year.
He was sitting outside the operating room of the hospital crying like a fool. He had no money, and he had never hated himself so much for not having money. How could his son be so incompetent, how could he be so helpless? When his mother was sick, he had nothing to do with anything.
I couldn't do it. I couldn't even find a better ward for my mother and buy better medicine.
He wanted to change his mother's hospital, but he couldn't even afford the money for hospitalization or surgery. He begged many people, but no one lent him money. So when he became rich, he retaliated and didn't want to lend him money.
Others, Qian, are said to be iron roosters who don't know how to behave, and if they are not successful, they will fall sooner or later. But he doesn't care, he is just taking revenge.
Revenge yourself, revenge for this damn fate.
He had wondered more than once why time couldn't give him a few more years, give him a little more time, let him grow up a little bit, even if he grew up a little bit more, don't let him make every effort when his mother was in trouble.
No. Let his son feel so painful and resentful of himself.
Even if you give him a little more time, it would be better to let his mother take a look and see that his son can make money and buy her beautiful clothes.