This is a father's guilt, gratitude and pride for his son.
As a father, he knows how difficult it has been for Chen Mo these years.
He could clearly see how carefully Chen Mo had paid attention to his condition and maintained his self-esteem over the years.
He has been a very proud person all his life. Because of his good talent and quick learning, everything he did in his life went smoothly without making any mistakes. He developed an extremely proud temperament, so that when he was frustrated later, he even
He couldn't accept the setback of his disability and did a lot of bastard things.
He dumped the emotional garbage of his unbearable collapse on the people closest to him.
He stabbed the two people he loved the most and loved him most with the cruelest knife.
It wasn't until his wife left that he realized what he had done in those years.
He could still recall the decisive look on his face when this little boy who looked almost exactly like him snatched the bottle from his hand. The little boy's eyes were red and he looked at him tremblingly.
His son seems to have followed him and has not cried much since he was a child. That was the first time he saw him cry. His eyes, which were similar to his, were red with hot tears in his eyes and they looked straight at him.
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There are collapse, determination, and disappointment in the eyes, as well as admiration and exhaustion that cannot be let go. These complex emotions are mixed in the eyes of an eleven or twelve-year-old child, which is complicated and suffocating.
He still can't forget the complicated look in his eyes. It was like a sharp blade that penetrated straight into his fragile heart that he had been covering up with the mist of irritability, collapse and despair, and stung him at that moment.
woke up.
After his wife left, she originally wanted to take Chen Mo away, but Chen Mo did not follow her that night.
The little boy stood at the entrance and raised his head and said to his mother: Mom, you go, I won't leave, I want to follow dad. Just like I told you when I was a child, I will protect you, and I did it silently, mom
, you have to be good in the future... Your life will be better if you leave, but dad is only one person.
Mom, he used to be a hero, right... He was just not sober during this period. He was just a bit of a jerk during this period, but he will get better. He will definitely. I will stay with him and watch him get better.
Get up. He has always been a Superman in my mind, a unique hero, the Ultraman who helps me fight monsters, the father I have always admired... I want to be with him.
What they didn't know was that he was sitting behind the door not far away at that time.
That day, he woke up from his sleep and forgot to bring his prosthetic leg, so he suddenly fell off the bed. No one was at home at the time, and the pain made him stand frozen on the floor for a long time. Because of his pride, he did not call anyone to ask for help.
He lay on the floor for a long time before he recovered. He slowly supported himself with both hands and wanted to get a glass of water, when he heard the door open.
For some reason, he slowly lowered his hand to open the door and sat down against the door.
Listening to the rustling sounds of my wife packing her luggage, and the sound of my son helping, telling his mother not to cry, handing tissues and talking.
He sometimes thought if his hearing hadn't been so good for a long time.
He won't feel so uncomfortable.
But he still leaned against the door and listened to everything outside the door like a masochist.
Until I heard what my son said to his wife when I went out...
He couldn't remember how long it took him to digest the extremely sweet and sour and bitter emotions in his heart.
The scenes of his son trying to make him happy over the years appeared before his eyes, his eyes were soaked with tears, and his eyes were blurred.
Every time he saw Chen Mo trying to please him and make him happy, he felt extremely complicated.
He knows all the efforts Chen Mo has made for his father, and has always known it...
In order not to disappoint his son, he gradually cooperated and forced himself to come out of that state of loss and decadence.
Every time he saw the child looking happy at his condition, he couldn't help but laugh too.
Old Chen patted Chen Mo hard on the back.
I am both grateful and moved.
"It's been really hard these years...little bastard, you make me so proud, you really make me so proud."
He owed this child too much when he divorced his wife. He still remembered Chen Mo's desperate study state after he and his wife divorced in the second half of the third year of junior high school. He slept four or five hours a day, and spent the whole day
He was holding a book and chewing on it with dark circles under his eyes.
Chen Mo didn't go to bed until he fell asleep. He still remembered that every time he got up at night during that time, at one or two o'clock in the morning, he would see Chen Mo, lighting a small lamp and lying on his back in order not to disturb his sleep.
He looked like he was studying hard in front of his desk.
He came so close to the door that he could still smell the strong scent of Fengyoujing wafting from the house.
And this smell lasted for four full years.
During the high school entrance examination, because he and his wife were divorcing so violently, the relatives at home felt that Chen Mo had been dragged down by them, and he was probably failing in the high school entrance examination. They thought it would probably hurt Zhong Yong...
His sister Qiufen discussed with him and made preparations. If Chen Mo really did not do well in the exam, she would also pay for the child to repeat his studies for another year.
But Shen Sheng's test results were beyond everyone's expectations. The child filled in all the gaps in the three years of junior high school in just half a semester, and finally passed the exam in Xiangyang, one of the top three schools in the province, with excellent results.
No. 1, giving everyone a shocking surprise.
Everyone said that Chen Mo was very lucky. This kid had good foundation and talent. Only he knew how hard Chen Mo worked that year...
In high school, due to the delay in junior high school, Chen Mo's admission score into Xiangyang No. 1 Middle School was not good, and he was in the middle and lower reaches of his grade.
Little by little, he watched how Chen Mo slowly climbed from the lower reaches to the middle. Finally, when he started his second year of high school, he directly became the first in the class, and then quickly established himself as the first in his age.
As his father, he was both shocked and indescribably proud.
But what's more, it's a kind of complexity from the heart. It's really not easy for this child to go all the way.
During the parent-teacher meeting and chatting with friends, everyone praised his son in front of him for how smart he was and how smart he was... He smiled stiffly.
Everyone only saw Chen Mo's glamorous appearance after winning the award.
Only he, the father, knew that his son was forcing himself to the point of vomiting behind his back. The high-pressure and intense study made his scalp numb just looking at it.
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"Haha, that's not true. You don't even know who gave birth to me. Isn't this mind just following you?..."
Chen Mo was stunned for a moment and said with a smile. He was still a little stunned when his father hugged him.