After Lin Fan sent the message, he suddenly raised his eyes, glanced at Ling Xuefei through the rearview mirror, and slowly asked: "How have you been...in these years?"
Ling Xuefei's eyes were slightly stunned. She didn't expect that Lin Fan would suddenly ask such a question. Then she pretended to be indifferent, smoothed her hair and said, "It's not bad. I'm living a good life."
"I'm sorry." Lin Fan sighed and said softly.
This "I'm sorry" made Ling Xuefei's eyes turn red. She sniffed and turned to look out the window.
Lin Fan took a deep breath and continued: "I'm sorry, I never knew you were pregnant. Otherwise, I wouldn't let you bear this alone."
Ling Xuefei looked at the receding street trees outside the window and said, "You don't have to apologize. I can't blame you for this. Speaking of which, it was you who saved me at that time. Otherwise, I really can't imagine what would have happened."
"I didn't expect that after that... I would actually get pregnant. When I found out I was pregnant, I was completely confused, panicked, and helpless. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't even
I have never even talked about love, and fate seems to have played a big joke on me, and it actually allowed me to have a baby."
"The night I first found out I was pregnant, I didn't sleep all night. I thought about aborting the child. I was still young. If I gave birth to a child, my life might be ruined. But the next day I got up and
After washing my face, I changed my mind, that is my child, how could I bear to deprive her of the right to see this beautiful world."
"But I didn't dare to let my parents know, let alone the family. As you know, in such a big family, you can't make the decision on many things by yourself. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to protect my child, so I had to talk to An An.
I secretly ran away to Australia. The life of leaving my hometown in Australia was very difficult and sad. I couldn’t find anyone to help me when I was bullied. Fortunately, An An was with me. Otherwise, I really don’t know what I would have done.
Can’t hold on.”
As she spoke, Ling Xuefei's tears flowed uncontrollably, and her voice became more choked up.
Giving birth out of wedlock, being a single mother, traveling to a foreign country, without any relatives...
It’s hard to imagine how Ling Xuefei spent her time in Australia with her big belly.
Lin Fan's eyes flashed with distress, and he said, "It's all my fault."
Ling Xuefei pursed her lips, calmed down her emotions, slightly opened her red lips, and said in a much calmer tone: "I can't blame you, you didn't know either."
"After I found out that I was pregnant, even my parents didn't dare to tell me. I just told An An. At that time, An An was so angry that she almost took a plane to Yang'an to settle the score with you. In fact, I also wanted to go to you, but I
I don’t know how to face you. To be honest, I didn’t hate you at that time, but... I didn’t have any good feelings towards you. At that time, you yourself were indeed... a very bad person. I can’t risk my own happiness, but...
I have made a bet on my future with children, and after much thought, it seems that the only way to go abroad is to go abroad."
"In Australia, it was really hard in the beginning, and as my belly got bigger day by day, it not only brought a lot of inconvenience to my life, but I also faced many strange looks and criticisms. During that time, I even had a childbirth.
Before I suffered from depression, I locked myself in my room all day long, not seeing anyone or talking to anyone.”
"Fortunately, God saw that I was working so hard and gave me the cutest little angel. When I saw Qiqi for the first time, I knew that I had to be strong and take good care of my child. See
Qiqi is growing up day by day, and I feel that no matter how much suffering she suffers, it is all worth it."
"When she was first born, she was so small. Now I can hardly hold her..."
Ling Xuefei looked down at the sleeping little guy in her arms, her eyes full of love, and her whole body exuded the brilliance of motherhood. At this time, Ling Xuefei may have lost a little bit of charm, but her charm has not diminished at all, and is even more shining.
.
Listening to Ling Xuefei's narration, the image of a young woman with a big belly appearing in Lin Fan's mind, living a hard life in a foreign country, must have been very hard for her over the years.
Ling Xuefei looked up at Lin Fan, looking at his angular profile, she burst into a touching smile, lightly parted her red lips and said: "Originally, I planned to stay in Australia and never return to China, but this idea
As Qiqi became wiser, things also changed."
"Since last winter, Qiqi has often asked me, where is dad? Why do other children have dads, but I don't? Does dad no longer want Qiqi? Faced with Qiqi's questions, I really don't know
How should I answer, to lie to her and say that my father has gone to another place? But the child will always grow up, and this kind of lie cannot deceive her for the rest of her life."
"Seeing that the smile on Qiqi's face is getting less and less, and her personality is slowly becoming dull, I know that I can't go on like this. For the sake of Qiqi's growth, I have no choice but to bring her back to you."
"But it was only after I returned home that I found out that something had happened to you not long after I left the country. I found a lot of friends and inquired about you before I found out about you. Knowing that you were in Longcheng, I brought her to Longcheng to find you.
"
"To be honest, as soon as I saw you for the first time, I had the urge to turn around and leave, because I really didn't trust my child with you like that. But Qiqi didn't care, she only knew that the man in front of her was her.
I miss you dearly, the light in my eyes is so obvious, I can't bear to take her away by force, so I will leave her to stay with you for a while."
"I originally thought that when Qiqi had more contact with you, she would be completely disappointed in you, and I could pick her up by then, but I didn't expect..."
Speaking of this, Ling Xuefei's eyes flickered with light, and there were many inexplicable things in her eyes when she looked at Lin Fan.
Lin Fan smiled and added: "You didn't expect me to be so outstanding, did you?"
"You're so beautiful now." Ling Xuefei rolled her eyes at Lin Fan and scolded her. Then she changed the subject and her tone became more soothing: "But I am indeed very glad that you are no longer the playboy you were four years ago.
You are indeed outstanding now."
"Yes, he is qualified to be Qiqi's father."
Lin Fan laughed and said in a determined voice: "No matter what, I am Qiqi's father. Blood is thicker than water. No one can deny this."
"Okay, okay." Ling Xuefei said helplessly, "No one can snatch her away from you. This little guy can't kiss you right now, and no one can snatch her away."
"Haha..." Lin Fan laughed twice and said, "Of course, of course my daughter, Lin Fan, will kiss me."
Ling Xuefei pursed her lips and smiled. She didn't know why she opened her heart and confided so much to Lin Fan tonight. She had never mentioned these words even to her parents, An Yanan and Lu Shihan. Maybe, that great stature
The figure has already entered my heart without even realizing it.
In this way, Lin Fan and Ling Xuefei left while chatting and thinking about Tianshui Fragrance Spring.