Ruyuan and I walked all the way, Ruyuan dragged her injured body, and the journey was very slow. So, this gave me time to process the messy information.
For the first time, I dug out my memories from the depths of my heart, and recounted from beginning to end everything I had experienced, seen, heard, loved, missed, and hated.
I thought about it again. From the lush forest to the Demon Realm, from Zhuoyun Xiaozhu to Mengjun Villa, from Quexian Waterfall to Wushan; from mother to Nalan Mosheng, from Xiaolu to Rouyi, from Cangli to Meng Yunzhong...
…
And how do these people and these things relate to me? Perhaps, it was when I was brought into the demon realm by Cang Li; perhaps, it was when I decided to start swallowing the demon's true energy to increase my spiritual power and avenge my mother; perhaps, it was when I decided to start swallowing the demon's true energy to increase my spiritual power and avenge my mother;
, it was the moment when my mother was brutally killed by the demons; perhaps, it was when I entered the secret realm of the temple despite my mother's prohibition; perhaps, it was when I was forcibly brought back to the Forest of Desolation by my mother... My destiny has already begun.
Changes have occurred, but what is the power that controls my destiny?
I suddenly felt extremely lonely and ashamed, extremely confused and desperate. I thought I was just an ordinary monster living in the Depressed Forest, but because of the sudden hatred, I became farther and farther away from the Depressed Forest. I didn’t even
Knowing whether my mother is alive or not, I have even begun to doubt whether my mother is my mother... What is this? Do I want to question my mother? But what about those people who seem to have nothing to do with me?
What's the reason for lying to me?
In the confusion, I became curious about my own life experience. Where did I come from? What am I? A long time ago, my mother said that I have a special physique and the demonic energy in my body is much weaker than other demons.
But later, some people actually said that I have other auras besides demonic aura. Why? I suddenly remembered that Guichen once said when I was in Yifeng Valley that I have a strange aura. Is it just that?
Is it because of a special constitution?
At this moment, I even began to question the oath my mother forced me to make. My mother told me personally that the demons killed her, but why did the demons kill her for no reason? If it was for the true essence inner elixir, then my mother’s true essence
But why is he still there? Which demon killed my mother? What was the reason? Why didn't my mother let me find out and just let me kill all the demons? If my mother is really not dead, then the monument of oath sealed in the
What is it? What is the reason for all this? Why?...
Suddenly, I realized that I had been living in doubt and passive revenge for many years, but what revenge had I taken? I didn’t even have a real enemy!
Not only that, at this moment, I am no longer the person I used to be... What is flowing in my body is other people's blood, and even my memory has begun to be eroded.
But at this moment, I am trying my best to rescue a demon or a god. No matter what it is, this person has hurt me, saved me, and even wants to marry me, but so far, I still can't.
Knowing how complicated the relationship between him and me is. Just because I look similar to his beloved wife? Just because the blood of his wife is flowing through me at this moment?
There is another person who makes me worried, makes me helplessly entangled, and even makes me want to put everything aside and spend the rest of my life with him. His back appears in front of my eyes again and again, and it seems that he may turn his head at any time and use those pairs of hands.
Looking at me with deep and affectionate eyes, that face, that expression, whenever I think of it, I feel that it is already engraved in my life. How can I forget? How can I let go? Is it really like this?
As Yuan said, was my fate with him destined three lives ago? Or even earlier?
All these kinds of memories.
I felt lost.
In the past many years, I have either lived under my mother's severe discipline, or lived in confused hatred, or lived under the strong protection of Cang Li, or lived in the entangled love and hate with Meng Yunzhong. When did I really think about myself?
How should we live? How should we live?
Cang Li's persistence in guarding the Holy Spirit Mountain for thousands of years, Wushan Goddess's dedication to Dayu, Zhi Fen's persistence to the Qilin in her heart, You Ruojun's persistence to Meng Yunzhong, Ru Yuan's persistence to her sister, Nalan Mo Sheng's commitment to the mission of the forest master.
Perseverance...and what about me? What am I obsessed with? Is it just the hatred towards the demons who killed my mother? Unfortunately, now, I seem to have no reason to persist in hatred. My mother is not dead, so how can I have hatred?
?Is it just my feelings for Meng Yunzhong that have a bleak future? It’s a pity that now, I don’t know if the poison of desire in my body can be resolved. If it can, Cang Li will also be resurrected. Since he is resurrected, can I still be innocent?
Do you have any scruples about leaving with Meng Yunzhong?
For a moment, I just felt that no matter what choice I made, it might not be the result I wanted. Am I not a monster? Shouldn’t the world of monsters be simple? But why should I passively experience this?
"Yinluo! Yinluo!"
Ruyuan's call pulled me back from my long thoughts. I don't know why, but I said quietly:
"I can't just live like this. In these long years, I have to find my own persistence..."
"What's wrong with you? Could it be the influence of that magic weapon again?" Ruyuan stopped and stood in front of me, looking at me with some worry.
Seeing the anxiety on her face, I just smiled lightly: "It's okay, I just suddenly feel that I still have a lot to do."
After saying that, I took a step forward and walked forward, leaving Ru Yuan behind me in confusion.
The Ganoderma Forbidden Zone is indeed a miracle. Only now did I realize that the trees around us were almost all towering giant trees that were full of spiritual energy. Every blade of grass and every inch of soil under our feet seemed to be exuding the incomparably pure breath of God. That’s it.
As she walked, Ruyuan's injuries were not as serious as before, because she obviously speeded up and no longer kept covering her chest with her hands. She really looked much better.
What surprises me is that there is no sunlight in this restricted area of Ganoderma lucidum. How do these plants grow? Is it all based on the remaining spiritual power of the goddess?
I have never been on this road before, and I only followed Ru Yuan to the depths of this unknown secret realm. The last time I went to the forbidden area of Ganoderma lucidum, I only wanted to retrieve the healing grass. I just found a small road and sneaked in until I saw one.
After taking the Fu Ling Grass that glowed lavender, he hurriedly left without paying attention to how big this place was. But now he discovered that this was really another space. After walking for a long time, he could not see the edge at all.
The vegetation is getting denser and thicker. Looking deeper, there is only a faint darkness. Only in the darkness, for some unknown reason, everything is clearly visible.
"Ruyuan, are you almost there?"
"Well, it's not far. But there is an abyss ahead, and you can only use space magic to teleport there."
As soon as Ru Yuan's words fell, I suddenly felt a breeze blowing on my face. The vague and moist breath in the wind was actually mixed with some different feelings. Only when the wind gradually dissipated, I felt not only
I didn't feel cold, but had a touch of warmth. Moreover, there seemed to be some voice calling deep in my memory, so the delicate tenderness hidden in the deepest part was unearthed. I actually remembered that deep feeling.
The person who is engraved in my heart is as if he is right in front of me.
He smiled at me very gently.
"This abyss is said to have been formed by the goddess' endless longing for Dayu. It is boundless and bottomless, and all spiritual power will fail above it. It contains the purest and deepest feelings of longing. In my mother's memory,
When the Nine-tailed Fox Clan first came here, many members of the tribe accidentally fell into it and never came out. We all called it the Abyss of Thoughts. If we want to get over, we can only use space magic. After crossing this abyss,
It is also the stronghold of the Nine-tailed Fox Clan."
After listening to Ruyuan's words, I stopped and took a closer look. Not far in front of us, there was indeed a dark crack cutting the ground in half. And the gust of wind just now came from that deep darkness.
What flows out is indeed the purest longing, which can evoke the most beautiful memories.
However, the goddess' longing for Dayu had nothing to place on it. It could only sink deeply and turned into this bottomless abyss. It was really sad. I don't know how the goddess felt at that time facing the endless longing.
The abyss of thinking, longing can also become a bottomless abyss...
"Let's go there."
I was looking at the abyss in trance, Ruyuan walked up to me and said lightly.
"Do you really want to go there?"
My sudden question made Ruyuan look at me with wide eyes again.
"If I'm not mistaken, this abyss is the boundary of the sealed barrier. Are you sure you can get out of the barrier this time?"
Ruyuan hesitated for a moment, then continued: "Why do you have so many worries? Since I promised you to come, I will risk my life to accompany... this woman!"
I smiled again.
"Could it be that you are willing to give up the colorful world of the human world? If you are sealed here forever, wouldn't your peerless grace be useless?"
"If that's the case, I will trap you here and never see your lover! Humph!" Ruyuan smiled charmingly.
Only then did I realize that I hadn't seen her in such a charming posture for a long time.
"What about your sister? You don't care anymore?"
"Sister...it's just because you want to take care of it, that's why you have to go in! If she gets mixed up with that monster, there will definitely be no good results. When you resurrect that god, the monster will disappear. Maybe, sister is just trapped by that monster.
Deceive and lose your mind will lead to this..." As she said this, Ruyuan became a little sad because she mentioned Ruyu, or thought of Ruyu's determination to her, or even she felt that she
The assumption is too far-fetched.
"Then let's go, just don't regret it." I deliberately interrupted her thoughts.
"Yes. Of course I won't regret it!" Ru Yuan suddenly said firmly, "She is my only sister, and I will not let her fall into a devil's trap!"
Looking at her determined expression, I suddenly felt very comfortable.
"And you! Actually, I think you are quite good, at least, much better than that skill! Besides, I was the one who gave you the poison, so I just think of it as helping you find the antidote. Don't worry, you'
Woman', I am determined to accompany you!"
Ruyuan's voice is clear and soft, tactful and enchanting, but at this moment, she is looking at me seriously. I think I can vaguely understand what she means. After Xiaolu and Rouyi, I haven't found it for a long time.
I’ve never felt this way before.
"Why did you listen to You Ruojun... Tech Lian's instructions in the first place?"
"Listen to her instructions? This is really ugly! I can make a deal with you, but can't I make a deal with her? She said that as long as I help her harm you, she will give Yu Ruyi to me. But she didn't expect that she would
Go back on your word! No, I have to find someone else to make the deal." Ru Yuan stroked her hair on her temples with an extremely innocent expression.