Chapter 12 How to Live in Shabby Houses and Shabby Houses
Although Chu Hengye regretted Ximen Yourong's deliberate alienation, he understood her character and there was no dissatisfaction in her deliberateness. She was just facing their past and present rationally.
After thinking about it carefully, Chu Hengye knew that Ximen Yourong was right to alienate their relationship. But he still forced a smile with some regrets and said:
"The queen was careful, but the general was negligent. The general is just a hundred million things in the past. If there had been no changes, you and I should have...!"
"General Chu, it is said that God's will is unpredictable. If there were no changes, you would not have the opportunity to make achievements today. I think there is nothing wrong with letting nature take its course and accepting God's arrangements."
Although Ximen Yourong had no romantic feelings for Chu Hengye, her past interactions made her acquiesce in him as a friend.
She knew that he had been depressed because he had no chance to express his talents.
This time, the Chu family was the first to quell the rebellion in Dacheng and punish the guilty ministers. Therefore, Chu Hengye had the best opportunity to stand out.
In terms of talent, Ximen Yourong believed that Chu Hengye definitely had the ability to lead troops in war. Therefore, she had long believed that he would succeed sooner or later. Now it seems that his success has officially taken the first step.
Maybe it was because Chu Hengye felt guilty about Ximen Yourong, so after listening to her words, he subconsciously thought that she was somewhat disappointed with him, so he asked with some seriousness:
"I chose to break away from you when you were in the most critical moment. Do you... blame me?"
"What's there to complain about?" Ximen Yourong smiled lightly!
"Why don't you complain?" He selfishly chose to abandon her. Doesn't she mind at all?
"If it were the other way around, and it was Chu who was in trouble, I'm afraid I would also be asked to disassociate myself from you. So, you don't have to blame yourself, I have no complaints against you at all."
In fact, she never felt that she had any special relationship with him from the beginning to the end. She never really paid attention to the so-called engagement, because she had no intention of marrying him obediently.
However, there was no need to mention these again. She seemed to have guessed what Chu Hengye wanted to say to her. Before he could say anything more, she took a step ahead of him and said:
"General Chu, it is useless for you and me to bring up the past now. Especially the general has also seen my current situation. If I make a mistake in every step I take, I may be in danger of catastrophe at any time. I wonder if the general will
understand what I meant?"
Chu Hengye looked at Ximen Yourong's gloomy face. How could he not understand what she meant? She wanted to end everything she had with him.
Because the future she has to face is full of uncertainties, she can only go on better if she has no right and wrong in her body.
It wouldn't hurt him to bury the past. Ximen Yourong was the queen now, so he couldn't even have a personal relationship with her.
However, when she said that she had no complaints against him, he felt very unhappy, which proved that she didn't care about him that much. Otherwise, how could a woman not complain about her future husband's abandonment?
However, he was not very emotionally loyal to her, because when he learned about Ximen's crimes, his first thought was not to help her, but to worry about his own future. He was afraid that it would be difficult for him to get ahead.
Japan's situation will be more difficult because of her.
So, when his father suddenly promoted him, he didn't even hesitate for too long before he made up his mind to cut off all ties with Ximen Yourong.
Originally, he felt guilty towards Ximen Yourong for this, but now, he found that his guilt seemed to be meaningless to Ximen Yourong, because she didn't care at all!
In this way, he seemed to have nothing to say to her. He raised his hands in salute again and said:
"What the Queen said, I will take it to heart. After today, you and I will only be distinguished as monarchs and ministers, nothing else!"
Ximen Yourong smiled and didn't answer, then she looked around the palace and said:
"I guess the general still has military affairs to attend to. I also want to see how to clean up this place so that I can spend tonight."
Chu Hengye also looked at the almost empty inner hall. He hesitated and suggested:
"There is nothing here, how about I find a way to send something over..."
"General, please don't bother, we can just take care of it ourselves."
Ximen Yourong rejected Chu Hengye's kindness, not to mention that she inadvertently saw his subconscious dilemma, so she didn't want to accept his help at this time!
Afterwards, Chu Hengye stopped insisting and retreated, leaving behind Ximen Yourong, Xiang Qing and a baby who started to cry.
Xiang Qing looked at Ximen Yourong and complained:
"Miss, we are unfamiliar with the place here and have no one to rely on. General Chu just wanted to send us some things. Why did you refuse? It is empty here, there is nothing, and the weather is so cold. Let's go today.
How do you spend your evening?"
"It's okay, there's always a way..." Ximen Yourong said, while patting Ximen Ruozun unskillfully to coax him into crying!
Xiang Qing saw that Ximen Yourong was a little powerless, so she stepped forward and took the child from her hand, while saying:
"It's easy for us two adults to say that we can't die even if we don't eat or drink for one night, but what about the child? Are we going to let the child suffer from cold and starvation with us? The little boy was very well-behaved just now, but now he must be very hungry.
That’s why you’re crying!”
Ximen Yourong rubbed her sore wrists. She really didn't expect that just holding the child would be so hard. If she was asked to be responsible for raising him as an adult, could she really do it?
Seeing that she didn't speak, Xiang Qing continued to complain:
"Miss, you are still the future queen no matter what. Does His Majesty really want you to live in this desolate palace with no one to serve you? Is this fair to say?"
"Now that he's here, let him live in peace. There is a way to live in a shabby house. As long as he doesn't kill us right away, we are worthy of gratitude."
"It's no different from killing us now!" Xiang Qing muttered depressedly.
"At least we are still alive...there is hope when we are alive!"
Ximen Yourong sighed in silence, he was more concerned about whether they could live safely than where they lived!
The reason why she rejected Chu Hengye's kindness just now was not because she didn't need it, but because she didn't dare to ask for it!
She was assigned to this old and secluded palace without even thinking about it. She knew that Dongling Yuanyong meant it.
Since it was his intention, who would dare to give her anything at this time?
Chu Hengye must also know this, so he just wanted to help her but he looked embarrassed!
But now, just like Xiang Qing said, the two adults could get over it after staying up all night, but the children definitely couldn't.
Faced with the problem in front of him, Ximen Yourong walked out of the hall and said calmly:
"Let's go and take a look outside."
Xiang Qing didn't know what Ximen Yourong wanted to see when she went out, and what it would change if she saw it, but she knew that her young lady was never one to sit back and wait for death, so she just had to go along!