Shanshan thought about Shu Wan telling her not to blame him, so she didn't say anything more and turned to fetch water, ignoring him.
Gu Jingshen stood at the door, looking at the petite and weak body on the hospital bed, mist gradually filling his eyes.
He stabilized his trembling body, clenched his fists, and walked with heavy steps to the hospital bed step by step.
Shu Wan, who couldn't see her, felt someone approaching and thought it was Shanshan coming back, so he reached out to hook her clothes.
"Shanshan..."
Before it could be hooked, it was grabbed into the palm of a generous and slender hand.
The hand that was holding her tightly was trembling slightly, as if it had a thousand words to say but couldn't say them out, so it could only hold on to her and not let go.
Shu Wan realized that these were a pair of men's hands, and Ji Si Hanyi's handsome face came to mind, but she felt that it couldn't be him.
She tried to call out: "Si Yue..."
Gu Jingshen didn't expect that she could still recognize him, and after recognizing him, she didn't throw away his hand.
This added a sense of guilt to his collapsed heart. He squeezed her hand tightly and sat down in front of the hospital bed.
He didn't speak, and his slender fingers touched Shu Wan's cheek, tracing it carefully from top to bottom.
Shu Wan didn't push him away and let him touch her, feeling as calm as a lake in her heart.
After probably several minutes, Gu Jingshen said in a hoarse voice: "Wanwan..."
He gently called her name, as if calling the most beloved person, affectionately and reluctantly.
"Um."
Shu Wan responded and asked him softly: "Why are you back..."
Gu Jingshen twitched the corners of his mouth bitterly: "I feel panicked for no reason, so I came back to see you..."
He had been very irritable for the past two days, his heart was beating non-stop, as if something had happened, and he couldn't help but want to come back to find her.
I went to the apartment and waited all night, but no one opened the door, and neither she nor Shanshan answered the phone, so I had to go find Alan, and then I found out that she had been admitted to the hospital.
He was glad that he came, otherwise he would regret it for the rest of his life, but unfortunately, her illness was caused by him...
He held her hand, put it to his lips, and kissed it gently: "Wanwan, I'm sorry..."
Shu Wan guessed that he heard the conversation between him and Shanshan before he came in.
Now facing his apology, she no longer felt anything. Perhaps the approach to death had made her let go of a lot of things.
In the past, she could not see through life and death, but now she feels that there is nothing to be attached to in this life, whether it brings birth or death.
She raised the corners of her lips and comforted him: "I have heart disease, I don't blame you..."
Gu Jingshen shook his head, his scarlet eyes full of self-blame: "Wanwan, I will give you an explanation."
Hearing such a solemn promise, Shu Wan frowned slightly.
Song Siyue always kept his word and promised to give her an explanation.
Although she didn't know what explanation he would give her, these were actually not important to her...
She used all her strength to squeeze his palm: "Si Yue, please be kind and give me the best explanation..."
Gu Jingshen shook his head, his eyes were paranoid and firm, as if he had made up his mind and didn't want to tell her.
Shu Wan no longer had the energy to care about what he was thinking, and looked at him vaguely with dull eyes.
"Si Yue, I can't see you now..."
"But in my impression, you have always been the cleanest boy..."
"I remember the best of you, can you also remember the best of me?"
Gu Jingshen's eyes were red and his Adam's apple rolled: "Okay."
Shu Wan smiled, still with a quiet and elegant smile: "Then why don't you go back to the Imperial Capital? I don't want you to see me after I die."