In the past few days, Shu Wan spent more time asleep than awake.
Even when he woke up, he couldn't say a few words and fell asleep again.
Gu Jingshen sat in front of the hospital bed, never moving at all. His pale face was covered with beard, and he looked exhausted.
Shanshan persuaded him to take a rest, but he didn't want to. Shanshan couldn't do anything to him, so she left him alone.
She was afraid that Shu Wan would want to eat some liquid food after she woke up. Even though she couldn't eat it, Shanshan wanted to prepare it for her.
She told Gu Jingshen to buy some gruel, then left the ward and went downstairs.
Not long after she left, Shu Wan woke up. The edema in her limbs made her unable to move.
She could guess that her face was probably swollen as well, and she must look extremely ugly.
She felt Gu Jingshen's hands holding hers so hard that her heart paused for a moment.
She swallowed her saliva and spoke in a hoarse voice: "Si Yue...has the sun come out?"
Gu Jingshen nodded, but then he thought that she couldn't see him, so he quickly replied to her softly: "It's out..."
His red eyes looked out the window, where there was heavy snow falling like goose feathers, and the sun was nowhere to be seen.
But these days, when I wake up every night, the first thing I do is ask him if the sun is out.
She must have really wanted to see the sun, but she couldn't see it, so she could only ask if there was one.
Shu Wan heard the sun coming out and slowly turned her head. Her unfocused eyes seemed to see a beam of sunlight shining through the glass window, which made her heart feel warm...
"Si Yue, was it the same weather the day you picked me up?"
"Yes, the sky is blue and the sun is shining brightly. I saw you lying in the grass at a glance."
When Song Siyue was five years old, he was flying a kite outside the orphanage. When he saw her in the grass, he picked her up and took her back to the orphanage without hesitation.
From the moment he picked her up, he was destined to devote his whole life to her...
When Shu Wan heard Gu Jingshen's description, he couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips and reveal a faint smile.
In her dream, she saw a woman standing in the sun, stretching out her hand, as if saying to her: "Wanwan, mother is here to pick you up."
She thought it might be her mother who put her in the sun just as she came, and then left reluctantly and helplessly...
Or maybe it wasn't her mother, but she wanted to have a mother so much that she imagined a mother in her dream to pick her up.
After all, she has never felt what mother's love is and what father's love is in her life.
Coming naked and leaving naked is always a bit regretful...
Seeing her bitter smile, Gu Jingshen felt like a thorn had been pierced in his heart, causing pain all over his body.
That kind of pain made him unable to help but hug her, holding her tightly in his arms, not daring to let go at all...
Shu Wan weakly patted his back: "Si Yue, don't be sad, see you in the next life..."
Like a child, Gu Jingshen buried his head in the crook of her neck, and the cold liquid hit her skin silently.
Shu Wan's heart trembled. After all, he was moved by his persistence and couldn't help but blush...
They cuddled tightly, as if they were the only ones left in the world, as pure as they had been when they were young.
In the end, Gu Jingshen was still afraid that she would be exhausted, so he gently put her down...
Shu Wan turned sideways and looked out the window, unconsciously thinking of that knife-like face.
Gu Jingshen felt uneasy in the imperial capital, so he hurried to see her, but he was in City A and never came once.
Only now did she understand that if you don't love someone, you can really be cold and unfeeling, let alone that he is already cold and unfeeling.
She curled her lips and smiled again. When she pushed him away, she didn't want him to see her dying. Why was she being pretentious now?