Countless pain and despair entered Zheng Kai's body.
Even the blood scab mask cannot withstand such huge hatred.
Zheng Kai's eyes turned pure red, and his expression became dull.
The sea of blood swallowed him up.
Memories that didn't belong to him were forced into his mind.
Zheng Kai used a third-person perspective and endured the pain of exploding in his head to piece together these broken memories.
many years ago,
A child is born.
When he was born, his whole body was covered with thick hair, his lips were turned out, his teeth were sharp, and his face was covered with wrinkles and tumors.
Not only that,
His whole body was a strange black color.
Considered by everyone to be an ominous representative, this child came into the world.
As the child grew up, his appearance did not improve, but became more hideous and ugly.
Everyone thinks of him as a monster.
Including his parents.
finally,
On the child's tenth birthday, he was abandoned.
There is no bright future for this child. He is like an ugly filler used to set off all the beauty in the world.
As long as they see his appearance, people will have this thought: It turns out that ugliness, which corresponds to beauty, looks like this.
Dirty, filthy, monster...
Such adjectives made Zheng Kai's head almost burst.
From a third-person perspective, Zheng Kai also felt a sense of disgust towards this child.
People pursue beauty.
corresponding,
The subconscious will unconsciously reject ugliness.
Especially when this kind of rejection does not have any moral condemnation, abuse, contempt, and disgust will become a matter of course.
Zheng Kai felt everyone's emotions.
I also felt the child's emotions.
From being ignorant when he was born, to being humble and cowardly, he finally looked at everyone with hatred in his eyes.
This hatred first manifested itself in body movements. He began to fight back at everyone who spat on him, beating them desperately.
But gradually, he began to bury his hatred in his heart.
Because the moment he took action, two more items were added to his ugly list: violence and rudeness.
that moment,
The most negative and ugly things in the world can be seen in this child.
"You're so ugly, don't come out to scare people, okay?"
"What sin did your parents do to give birth to you?"
"It looks like a monster, no wonder no one wants it."
"Look at this kid's eyes, it looks like he wants to eat someone."
"If you look at me like that again, I'll dig your eyes out!"
.......
Zheng Kai's consciousness was torn to pieces in an instant.
He couldn't tell who was saying these words in his mind.
in a trance,
The voices of these people speaking became his own.
In the surging sea of blood, two lines of blood flowed from the corners of Zheng Kai's eyes, and countless cracks appeared on his skin, like a doll about to be torn apart.
His mouth was repeating the words he just said.
again and again!
Just now, he was from the perspective of a bystander, witnessing memories one after another.
Now,
He became one of the reviled ones.
The endless feeling of disgust rendered Zheng Kai's expression extremely terrifying.
I do not know how long it has been,
Zheng Kai saw a ray of incandescent light from the suffocating sea of blood, weak and warm, tearing open a hole.
"stop fighting!"
Zheng Kai roared.
The curses that bothered him and bothered him disappeared instantly.
Zheng Kai did not escape from the sea of blood.
His consciousness was only temporarily awake for a moment.
The fragmented memories continue.
further on,
The ugly child began to understand people's aversion to ugliness, and began to yearn for the most perfect "beauty."
There is no such thing as a perfect person in the true sense.
at least,
In the eyes of this child, no one in the world is perfect.
Some people have exquisite facial features but missing limbs; some people are hand models, but their mouths are full of swear words; and some people are kind and optimistic, but are troubled by diseases.
Everyone has shortcomings.
Everyone has imperfections.
He began to no longer hate the people around him, and even felt a little pitiful about them.
Relying on a scalpel he picked up from nowhere, he cut off what he thought was the best part of each person's body and sewed it on his own body.
First the legs, then the hands, organs, facial features, and even every inch of delicate skin are stuck to his body.
At the end,
He became a very perfect person.
This man has the most exquisite facial features, perfectly proportioned hands and feet, and a smile on his face that makes it impossible to find anything wrong with him.
........
Zheng Kai understood.
He knows how the 25th came.
He also knows where No. 25’s hatred comes from.
Abnormal control over beauty!
His hatred is not a simple physical pain, nor is it the psychological shadow left behind when he cries in despair.
He hates every imperfection, just like he hated his old self.
There is a period of memory in the middle that is very vague.
After skipping this memory,
The so-called ugly child has become the school nurse of an educational kindergarten.
He showed a warm and kind smile in front of the children, and the children also respected him very much.
In the memory of the 25th,
Zheng Kai saw Qiu Jing, the director of Yizhi Kindergarten.
More than half of the memories related to Qiu Jing are of Qiu Jing scolding No. 25.
from an invisible angle,
No. 25's lowered head, his expression gradually became ferocious and scary.
Finally, No. 25 began to transform his brain.
The most perfect person should not have negative emotions.
Anger, irritability, anxiety, fear and other emotions should not appear in a perfect person.
The bloody scalpel became particularly beautiful in his hand.
Even the craniotomy surgery he performed was amazing.
Emotions are controlled by the brain.
And the most perfect brain should be a masterpiece composed of countless perfect fragments.
"He is the murderer who killed all the children in Yizhi Kindergarten."
"He not only killed kindergarten children, but also dragged back many strangers from outside and took out their brains."
Zheng Kai's consciousness was rare and clear.
School doctor No. 25 was the real culprit in the child abuse and murder case that year.
He killed far more than twenty people.
From the transparent glass jars he saw, Zheng Kai saw hundreds of transparent glass jars.
This incidates that,
The victims back then were far more than just kindergarten children.
However, in the files investigated that year, there was no such person as the school doctor at all.
Even Chen Xiangping never mentioned the existence of the school doctor to Zheng Kai. It was as if this person who should have existed was naturally forgotten by everyone.
No one felt anything was wrong.
Before Zheng Kai could think more, his consciousness was once again covered with hatred.
The bloody mask fell off his face, and a familiar sharp pain came from his chest, which was worse than before.
The double physical and psychological pain gave Zheng Kai the idea of committing suicide.