Lawrence's voice always seemed to have a hint of exhaustion, and a hint of gentleness hidden in the exhaustion, which made him unmotivated.
Lack of energy means that Lawrence's fatigue prevents her from using all her energy to be gentle.
Should this be considered part of Harley's personality?
"What's wrong, Ritsuka?"
Fujimaru Ritsuka couldn't help but feel a sense of peace of mind when she heard Lawrence's familiar voice ringing in her ears.
"I always feel that when I am helpless, I subconsciously think of Miss Lawrence."
An unconscious smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.
Along the way until now, Lawrence has always been by her side, like a mother, like a sister, and occasionally gave her the feeling of a father...?
All in all, Lawrence's status in Fujimaru Ritsuka's heart is very strange, but no matter what the image is, it is a positive image.
Except for Mr. Rosen's incident, Miss Lawrence seemed to blame herself for that incident. She remembers that she was beaten by Miss Harley at that time...
"I'm sorry I couldn't be with you this time."
Lawrence's voice still sounded a bit remorseful.
This singularity is not considered safe. Lawrence was not able to protect Fujimaru Ritsuka, which was a bit difficult for her to accept.
"It's okay, Miss Lawrence, I want to ask you... mainly other questions."
Fujimaru Ritsuka leaned against the wall, gently wrapped his hands around his legs, placed his chin on his knees, and chewed lightly.
"Miss Lawrence, do you think that false happiness... must not exist?"
After a slight hesitation, Fujimaru Ritsuka asked.
"False happiness?"
Lawrence stopped what he was doing, his voice a little confused.
"In this singularity, I met Mr. Ryoma Sakamoto and Ms. Aaron."
Fujimaru Ritsuka raised her eyes, looked out from the opened door, and murmured to the communication device.
"Mr. Ryoma and Miss Aaron look very happy."
"Very happy, very happy."
"In this village, Mr. Ryoma will not be in danger or assassinated, and Miss Aaron will not have to see the dead Mr. Ryoma, nor will she have to walk into the cold and silent deep sea alone..."
"The mountain god called me under the cherry blossom tree of the shrine and asked me this question."
"The history represented by Servants and Heroic Spirits is full of real pain and happiness, but when you become a Servant, you have lost the right to real happiness, so you enjoy a moment of fake happiness in a fake place,
Is this not allowed - he asked the question."
"I can't figure it out, Miss Lawrence, I can't figure it out."
Fujimaru Ritsuka buried her face in her arms, her voice a little dull.
She didn't know why, but after thinking about this problem, she subconsciously felt uncomfortable.
"Is that the problem?"
Lawrence blinked.
this problem......
"So, Ritsuka, what do you think?"
Lawrence adjusted his sitting posture, opened the video communication, and looked at Guda with a gentle smile.
Lawrence's smile was always so warm. Fujimaru Ritsuka raised his head and glanced quietly, feeling that the slight blockage in his heart was relieved a lot in an instant.
"Ritsuka, don't look at other people, look at me, look at me currently in Chaldea."
Lawrence smiled and opened his arms.
"Is the happiness I get from being with you and Matthew false?"
"well?"
Fujimaru Ritsuka was stunned.
"Happiness should never be defined. Everyone's so-called 'feeling' of happiness is different. For me, even if my life cannot continue and my regrets cannot be made up, I can still
Meeting you and Mashu in Chaldea, and walking all the way here with you, this is my true happiness."
Lawrence blinked at Fujimaru Ritsuka.
"Or, Ritsuka, do you think the happiness of being with me is false?"
Looking at Ms. Lawrence, who pretended to be cheerful, Fujimaru Ritsuka couldn't help but laugh.
"No, absolutely not."
With a smile, Fujimaru Ritsuka said firmly.
"If it is true for you, then it is also true for me." Lawrence nodded, "Happiness should not be defined, at least the happiness of many people should not be defined by one person."
Lawrence regained his usual tired and gentle expression, pursed his lips, and looked at Fujimaru Ritsuka seriously.
"I don't know what the person who created this singularity thinks, but...anyone who has been with you, Ritsuka, will not think that the emotions generated by you are false."
"We are indeed Servants. The significance of the history we represent is far more important than our own significance as Servants, but it does not mean that we have lost the right to obtain true happiness."
"Rather, it is precisely because we have received this precious opportunity that can be called a continued life that we will have the opportunity to continue to feel the emotions called true after death."
"Existence may be a lie, but emotions are never false. Do you understand?"
"So, don't be fooled by the guy who asked the question. Moreover, that guy seems to be deliberately trying to trip you up and make you fall into thoughts you shouldn't have."
Lawrence looked thoughtful.
According to common sense, Ritsuka should never think about such a problem at this time. Ritsuka has always been an action-oriented Master and would rather make mistakes than do nothing. But now he is trapped in a problem because of a problem.
In the midst of my own entangled thoughts...
Maybe there is a factor of not having a sense of security around me, but it's not that serious.
So...that guy influenced Ritsuka on some level?
Lawrence had a guess, but didn't say it immediately.
The creator of this singularity seems to be very wary of himself... Could it be...
"Well, I understand, Miss Lawrence."
After Lawrence's enlightenment, Fujimaru Ritsuka seemed to be in a much better mood, a smile appeared on his face again, and he lifted his head from his arms.
"Be happy, I can't be with you now, but there is Miss Nobunaga."
"If you want to go up the mountain to investigate tomorrow, remember to be careful."
"Watch your own spirit."
Lawrence reminded him from the side.
Fujimaru Ritsuka's pupils narrowed slightly, and then nodded.
It seemed that Miss Lawrence must have discovered something, but for some reason could not tell.
You need to pay more attention to yourself.
Fujimaru Ritsuka, who has returned to normal, definitely has the most powerful insight.