Shen Cangzhu's steps were heavy and weak, and his face was pale. After seeing her wake up and exhale with his own eyes, he felt that he was alive.
But after seeing her look, there was only pain in his eyes.
"Your Highness, I deserve to die..."
Shen Cangzhu apologized, but for the first time he found that the apology was so feeble. He explained to Chu Xingchen and said everything he thought.
"...I thought that was Mr. Zhou. I took it for granted. Your Highness, I really deserve to die."
Chu Xingchen exclaimed, "So that's what you think."
She didn't speak for a long time after she finished speaking. Shen Cangzhu looked at her and had a thousand words to say but didn't know how to say them.
Language is too pale at this moment.
He has always been very expressive, ever since he was a child, but for the first time he ran out of words.
He only felt that he really deserved to die.
Chu Xingchen was a little weak and thought in a daze. In fact, looking back now, maybe it was because he felt uneasy when he asked him those stupid questions.
Their status and situation are too special, and they face such a complicated situation. But what she wants is such pure feelings, how is this possible?
The most important person is just a fairy tale.
Ordinary people can't do it, let alone them.
Seeing Shen Cangzhu in such pain, she was convinced that Shen Cangzhu had feelings for her, and she was also very important to him. She understood his explanation, but unfortunately there would be problems of this kind between them in the future. After this choice, how could she trust him in the future?
"Shen Cangzhu, your choice is well-founded and right. That is your savior, Luo Wan'er, whom you have known since childhood. Naturally, the relationship is deeper."
Luo Wan'er was equally important to him both in public and private matters, and he also mistakenly thought that Zhou Buyan was here.
It was just a choice. Just like she really didn't blame Xiao Wang before, she didn't hate her, but she was still heartbroken and disheartened.
She was the one who was given up, and this feeling was not pleasant.
"Originally, I wanted to calm down more before speaking, but if you insist, then it's okay if you can speak."
Shen Cangzhu had a very bad premonition when he heard these words. He spoke in time, "You can talk about it later. Your Highness, the most important thing now is to recover from your injuries. I...I will leave now."
He almost ran away, his body was a little weak and his steps were staggering. He tried his best to escape, but in the end he couldn't escape.
Chu Xingchen looked at his back and knew clearly when he was about to escape.
"Shen Cangzhu, I don't want to like you anymore."
Shen Cangzhu's footsteps stopped abruptly and turned back abruptly.
Chu Xingchen looked at him, "I made a promise to you before to be frank. I have to tell you frankly, Shen Cangzhu, let's... get over it."
Shen Cangzhu turned around and stopped looking at Chu Xingchen. He closed his eyes and said, "Your Highness, you'd better stay calm. We'll talk about it later."
"No, I'm already very calm. It's the same result."
There was no turning back. Chu Xingchen made it clear at once, "I'm sorry, I have proposed to end it in just a few days, but there is no point in dragging it out."
"Shen Cangzhu, as I told you before, I have some psychological problems. I know I'm being hypocritical, but I really...have nothing to do."
"Reason belongs to reason, but I'm just a layman. I just want to be the most important person."
She didn't blame Shen Cangzhu, but she didn't want to be the one who was given up again. She would never fall in love with Shen Cangzhu again, and she didn't dare anymore.
She didn't even dare to love anyone anymore.
She suddenly remembered the saying on the Internet, don't get close to men, you will become unfortunate.
Although it is not appropriate to use it here and is a bit ambiguous, it does mean something like that, and it will not end well.
The first time, she cautiously stuck her head out, but was hit hard. The second time, she was sure and sure, and finally mustered up the courage to take the first step, but she was covered in bruises.
Likewise, for a mentally ill person like her who demands so much, it would be unfortunate for anyone to like her.
What right does she have to ask others? She doesn't deserve it. It's best not to harm others, so as not to embarrass others and make herself disappointed and uncomfortable.
Shen Cangzhu's heart fell to the bottom, "It's over? Your Highness wants to end it?"
"Well, let's end it as soon as possible before the relationship is so deep."
Shen Cangzhu smiled miserably, who said the feelings are not that deep?
Chu Xingchen couldn't see his expression because he kept facing her with his back. Forget it, just don't look at it if you don't want to.
She looked at Shen Cangzhu's back and said directly, "Shen Cangzhu, please leave the palace."
"Go and take the imperial examination. If nothing happens, you will be able to get into the top three, or even the top pick. When the time comes, I will say that I just don't want to bury your talent, and no one will say anything. Miss Luo Wan'er, you don't have to worry too much..."
Shen Cangzhu turned around suddenly, "Your Highness!" He interrupted her with a trembling voice, "You want me to leave the palace?"
"Yes, you should still remember what I said before. I don't need so many people. Since you and I are not suitable and things have become like this, it would be good for you and me to take this opportunity to leave the palace."
"Don't worry, I will not hold you responsible for anything, nor will I implicate the Shen family. It will be the same as before."
"We can't be husband and wife, but we can be the best monarchs and ministers. I believe in your ability and character, and you can also trust me."
"But your marriage has to wait for the time being. You have to let Miss Luo wait for you. But don't worry about anyone forcing her again. I have already found Qi Ming's mother. With her in hand, Qi Ming dare not say anything."
Chu Xingchen didn't stop, every word he said was like a sharp arrow piercing deeply into Shen Cangzhu's heart.
"I don't like her, I like you."
Shen Cangzhu said with red eyes, "Your Highness, what I said before is not a lie. I didn't choose her because I like her."
This may be true, but Chu Xingchen is already calm, "Then I won't mention your marriage. You are free to marry whoever you want after leaving the palace."
She went straight to the point, "Many people know what happened this time. Do you want to take this opportunity to leave the palace, or do you want to wait until you finish the imperial examination before leaving the palace? Although you will be criticized, I hope you take this opportunity to leave the palace..."
"Your Highness, the person I love is you."
Shen Cangzhu interrupted Chu Xingchen, "I won't take part in the imperial examination, and I won't leave the palace. If His Highness insists on letting me leave the palace, I can. The order is that if you just enter the East Palace, there is no reason to leave the palace alive."
Only corpses are eligible to leave the palace. Strictly speaking, corpses are not eligible to leave the palace. After all, since they have joined the royal family, they will be the ghosts of the royal family after death.
However, she hated him and refused to let him be buried in the imperial mausoleum so that his body could be released from the palace.
Shen Cangzhu looked at Chu Xingchen and said, "Your Highness has thought about it, just tell me and I will cooperate."
Chu Xingchen tightened his hands and said, "Shen Cangzhu, you are threatening me."
"This is not a threat, this is a fact and a rule."
"There is no such rule." Otherwise, why would her father be outside the palace? In the original novel, they were also outside the palace.
"It's always been there." After Shen Cangzhu finished speaking, he left without looking back.
He was not a threat, but the moment he entered the palace, he never thought about leaving the palace.
He will not leave the palace, let alone give up on her.