When the car got on the road, Cheng Weiting seemed to have said nothing just now, and Sang Xiaoyu didn't dare to ask.
Cheng Weiting parked the car next to a small flower bed, put her hands on the steering wheel, and buried her head in her arms. She was silent for a while before slowly raising her head.
She sat up straight, her face was pale, tears welled up in her eyes, and her lips were trembling. Her look of fear and pity frightened Sang Xiaoyu.
She said: "Everything is over. Now I have no way to go to heaven and no way to go to earth. It is a kind of despair with no way out."
Sang Xiaoyu held her back with his hand and said, "Don't be too discouraged. No one can survive in this world. Just follow your heart."
Cheng Weiting's eyes were empty, she was sobbing, and she was extremely sad and said: "Xiao Yu, I now deeply understand your state of mind at that time.
I'm just like you. I became a loner overnight. Everything in my family no longer belongs to me. The love we once had is now a joke..."
Sang Xiaoyu didn't want to think that the feeling that she had called Tiantian not to respond and called the earth and earth to be unresponsive came back to her mind. At that time, she used the words "life is worse than death" to explain it.
At this moment, a thorough understanding made Sang Xiaoyu heartbroken.
Cheng Weiting was completely unaware of the changes in Sang Xiaoyu's face, and was silent in her own misery.
"Xiao Yu, I don't have the face to see anyone now. I wish there were cracks everywhere and I could get in at any time. Do you know what pains me the most?
It's just memories. All memories are related to hypocrisy. The two of us are just a joke together. I am running the family seriously, and he uses me as a cover. We work together perfectly.
I have been preaching everywhere about my happy marriage, what do you think I should do now? Tell them that this is all a misunderstanding? What a huge misunderstanding!!!"
Cheng Weiting knocked on the steering wheel with her hand and said numbly: "I might as well die, but I don't have that much determination, and I still think about my children..."
Sang Xiaoyu said softly: "I know all this, I've been through it, haven't I got through it now? You also know how your brother and I were in love, don't you think I was a big joke at the time?
But haven’t I made it through? The light shines through the haze. We can only endure. This word sounds simple, but in fact it is too difficult.
Tell me how you solved it."
Cheng Weiting obviously didn't hear what Sang Xiaoyu was saying, and said to herself: "We went home that day, and I asked him why? He knelt down and said he was sorry.
Can I just say I'm sorry and let the past few years of our marriage go by? He said that the matter has reached this point and there is nothing he can do about it. He also said that he can just live like this, his life only lasts a few decades.
I scolded him, and I said you were living a miserable life, but what about me? I am just a widowed woman, but you are not. You can easily use me as a shield or a fig leaf to cover up mountains and rivers...
"
Sang Xiaoyu saw her crying and quickly took out a tissue.
Cheng Weiting wiped her tears and said: "He actually said that he had difficulties. He said that he didn't want to live in a dark corner like now, but there was no way.
I said that no matter how much pain you have, it is not caused by me, but my pain is caused by you. Don’t you say every day that I like this in bed? What about you?
Why are you so shameless and call me like a shameless slut? What about you?
I never knew he could be so calm. He was nothing like the husband I knew. Maybe he had been prepared for such a day.
He asked me what I wanted.
I said I want to hear your thoughts.
You don’t even know that he actually brought up the old words again, saying that if you just feel that I am not satisfied with you in that aspect, let me find someone to like outside, but don’t be too arrogant, don’t make the whole city uproar, like that
Both of them have no face.
How interesting it is for us two, we treat our home like a stage, and we act on it every day, but I don’t have that ability.
Even at this moment, he still wants to save face. I said, why don't I have the chance to pursue pure feelings for you? Why do I have to be so secretive and make people laugh at me?
People are afraid of being a mistress, but it’s good for me. My husband supports me, so I lose my moral bottom line? What I hate most in my life is cheating and being a mistress!
He said that he felt very guilty towards me and always wanted to make it up to me. He said that there was no one else in this world who could treat him as well as he did to me. She also said that he had no good solution, and now that he thinks about it,
That was all he could do. In fact, he didn't want to.
He said he wanted to satisfy everything I wanted, but he was really unable to do so.
I said divorce.
He immediately said he wanted to divorce over such a trivial matter? You are making too much of a fuss, and he was sure that I didn’t dare to divorce him, and I couldn’t bear to part with everything I have now.”
Sang Xiaoyu asked: "Have you really thought about it?"
Cheng Weiting said painfully: "How do you think this person can disguise himself to this extent?
I confide in him every day, but what about him? It’s all just perfunctory. Apart from divorcing us now, I really don’t know. I really don’t know what to do now.
If they really get divorced, how can my parents endure it? What about my daughter? What about me? We have three children in our family, and now two of them are divorced. Do I have to follow in their footsteps?"
Sang Xiaoyu said: "You have to think carefully and choose the lesser of two evils. Don't be impulsive."
Cheng Weiting took a serious look at Sang Xiaoyu and said, "How come this world has become so unpredictable? It's so absurd that it makes me question life.
There are only two roads in front of us, one is to leave, the other is to continue to live hypocritically..."
Sang Xiaoyu said with deep sympathy: "I thought the same way at the time, how could such a ridiculous thing happen to me... There is no way, no matter what happens, you have to get through it, time is the best
good medicine.”
Sang Xiaoyu rarely thinks about the past now. To tear the wound open again is tantamount to making herself unhappy and making her doubt the life in front of her.
Cheng Weiting looked at Sang Xiaoyu desperately and asked seriously: "I have always regarded you as my friend, my best friend. No matter how you behave with my brother, I have always regarded you as my confidant. If this thing happens to you, you
What should I do? I want the truth."
Cheng Weiting's incident touched Sang Xiaoyu's emotions, and the past things rushed out like a flood from a gate that had been closed for a long time.
Just like she is facing Cheng Weize now, the love in the past is still there, but it is no longer with this person. It seems that he is separated from the things he once did. At least Sang Xiaoyu no longer misses him at all.
She thought for a while and said carefully: "If it were before the accident, I would most likely have tolerated it because, like you, I don't know how to face such a difficult thing.
But it’s different now. If something like this happens again after the accident, I want to live a life of my own control and choose divorce."