The moment Fu Yanshen put his arm around Mu Chenxi, he felt her body become stiff instantly.
Her body language immediately revealed her rejection and resistance to him.
"want?"
The extremely cold words came out of her mouth, and she didn't care at all whether such words would hurt the person behind her.
Or, that's what she meant.
Mu Chenxi did not wait for Fu Yanshen's answer. In her eyes, his approach meant nothing more than satisfying her physiological needs.
Seeing that he didn't move, he didn't want to waste time, so he raised his hand to unzip his skirt.
His movements were almost numb, and even colder words followed soon after.
"I have something to do tonight, please hurry up."
Ever since the two signed an agreement and he required her to fulfill her obligations in the agreement, this has been her attitude towards him.
Basically I don’t resist, but I no longer have the soft words like before.
Some are just endless indifference, even if the body cannot resist him, it will eventually bloom in his arms.
But every time it ended, she never felt any attachment to him.
He had thought about forcing her to reveal her true self.
In the past, when they were intimate, if he forced her, she would bite him.
Now she can only bite herself, and she won't hesitate to bite herself, but she is unwilling to compromise with him.
He couldn't do anything to her, and he didn't dare to force her again.
Two hearts, getting further and further apart.
Even when he was doing the most intimate things, he couldn't feel the slightest warmth from her.
She really did it and just fulfilled her obligation.
There was a "stab" sound, which was the sound of the zipper being opened. It was very light, but it stung his internal organs.
Fu Yanshen's body trembled uncontrollably, and a thousand arrows pierced his heart.
He raised his hand and grabbed her hand, and choked with pain: "No, I don't mean it, I mean..."
"You don't have to just let me go. I said there is no need for such a hug between us."
Mu Chenxi interrupted him coldly and pulled his hand back.
As soon as he pulled out a little, Fu Yanshen tightened his grip again.
He didn't let her go, but hugged her tighter, sobbing in her ear and apologizing to her, "Chenxi, I'm sorry!"
An apology contained too much of his apology and guilt for her.
He rested his chin on her shoulder, his eyes falling on her cold profile, full of confession and pleading.
"I know everything about the child. I misunderstood you."
Every word contained regret that he didn't know how to express in his heart.
He held her cold little hand and gently covered her flat belly. The moment he noticed the trembling of her fingertips, he wrapped his big hand tightly around her little hand.
He thought of what Dr. Qin said unintentionally when he confessed in tears.
She also regretted taking Gu Xiyan's money and deceiving him.
It is unconscionable to say that a mother who obviously loves her child very much ruthlessly takes away the child who has already formed.
She is not human to tell such lies.
This is heartbreaking for a mother who loves her children deeply.
She obviously loves her children so much...
She said that when Chen Xi heard her saying that the child was stillborn, she collapsed and knelt on the ground begging her to save the child.
She said that Chenxi almost cried when she agreed to sign.
She said that throughout the entire operation process, Chenxi burst into tears even under anesthesia.
Chenxi cried through the entire operation. When she woke up from anesthesia, her pillow was soaked in two large pieces.
When Fu Yan thought of these words, his heart felt like a knife.
Every word hurt his heart.
Knife after knife, it hurts my heart.
But these pains are nothing compared to the pain of the morning sun.
At that time, Chen Xi must have been so sad when she knew she had to take away the child she loved so much.
It was so painful that I left the hospital right after the baby was removed.
His morning light must have been unbearable, so he didn't dare to face it and wanted to escape from there.
But what did he do?
He rushed over, either to question or to throw her away. He looked at her sitting on the cold ground and left her alone.
Why couldn't he think more about the possibility that Chen Xi, who wanted to divorce him, would lie to him when he questioned her because he didn't trust her?
What are his eyes for?
Why only listen to what she says, why should you believe a doctor's words? Can't he see how much she hates her child?
Couldn't he see that after Chenxi took away the child, he cried every night until dawn?
Her reluctance was so obvious, but he still hurt her with such sharp words.
She was already feeling guilty and blaming herself, and he also said that the baby would never forgive her!
He thought about the bastard things he said to her and the bastard things he did during this period.
Endless regret overwhelmed him.
"Chenxi, it was my fault, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!"
Only he himself knows how guilty he is.
But he also knew that after the damage was done, even a million words of sorry could not make up for the bastard things he did and the bastard words he said!
But other than sorry, he didn't know what else to say to her!
Warm liquid gushes from his eyes and flows down his cheeks.
"Crack-"
It landed on the side of her neck.
Drop by drop.
Slowly they came together, slid down together, and slipped past her heart.
Cold, bone-chilling.
"I shouldn't have listened to Dr. Qin's lies and misunderstood that you aborted the child in order to divorce me."
"I really don't know, our child was stillborn——"
Mu Chenxi's body kept shaking. From the moment he mentioned the child, she had been trying hard to suppress her emotions.
She thought she was invincible and could perfectly hide all her emotions in front of him.
However, when he told her that the baby was stillborn, it still hurt her to the bone.
She can't forget it, nor can she let it go.
The wound that had never healed was torn open by him, and it was still dripping with blood and extremely painful.
Mu Chenxi vigorously pulled Fu Yanshen's hand away, stepped away from his arms, and turned around.
The tears that had been in her eyes were thrown out by her actions and fell on Fu Yanshen's face.
Mixed with the tears on his face, they fell together.
Mu Chenxi raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, and looked at the apologetic Fu Yanshen fiercely, with a face full of resentment and heartbreaking.
"Fu Yanshen, so what if you know?"
"What about your sadness and regret? What can you change?"
"My baby can't come back! She can't come back!"
"I couldn't see her being born, I couldn't hear her calling me mom, I couldn't hold her soft body and tell her in person how much I loved her! How much I couldn't let her go!"
"I can do nothing! I have lost her, forever!"
"Who? Who deprived her of her right to live? It was you!"
"Fu Yanshen, if you hadn't cheated on her during marriage, if you hadn't let her go, nothing would have happened to our baby!"
He will never understand how painful it was when she chose to give up her beloved baby.
Mother and son are connected, she is cutting her heart out!
"If I hadn't failed to live up to my expectations..."
Mu Chenxi's voice became softer and softer, and her tears fell heavily.
Yesterday, she had been backlogged for too long and lost control.
The guilt and self-blame she felt towards her baby never diminished day by day.
As time goes by, it gets deeper and heavier.
She trapped herself in guilt and self-blame, and she was punishing herself.
She dare not forget, and she cannot forget.
In this way, torture yourself.
Fu Yanshen looked at Mu Chenxi who went from breaking down and crying to crying silently, and once again faced her pain for losing her child.
His heart was overwhelmed once again, and he could say a thousand words, but only the weakest one was left, "I'm sorry..."