As night fell, Cheng Jingshu, who had nowhere to go, wandered the streets like a ghost.
Finally seeing a bar, she felt so uncomfortable that she walked in.
I sat at the bar and ordered a bottle of liquor.
After opening it, I poured a glass and drank it in one gulp.
One drink after another, trying to drown my sorrows.
For the first time, I felt that wine was so bitter.
"Hey, isn't this Mrs. Lu? What's the point of drinking alone? Come on, go to the box, and we brothers will have fun with you?"
Although the news about her love affair with Nangong Jue was suppressed, the gossip about the wealthy family was still spread.
In the eyes of many people, Cheng Jingshu is a despicable person who refuses to be left alone, carries her husband away from others, and does everything she can to help her husband.
No, after drinking for a while, someone came over and humiliated her with frivolous words.
Cheng Jingshu's face darkened, and she waved away the other person's hand with a look of disgust, "Don't touch me with your dirty hands, get out of here."
Her dislike made the man she was chatting with lose face. He directly grabbed Cheng Jingshu's hand and said, "A bitch who is unwilling to be lonely and cheats on her husband, how can she pretend to be a chaste saint here? We don't think you are dirty and we are willing to play with you...
"
"Shut your stinky mouth!"
Cheng Jingshu's eyes turned red from the stimulation, and she slapped her hard with her backhand.
Who are they? They deserve to be compared with Jue!
The relationship between her and Nangong Jue was not that she couldn't bear the loneliness and just looked for men to solve her physical needs.
It’s not that he hated Lu Jingxing’s cold violence and wanted to take revenge on him, so he deliberately cuckolded him.
If she had wanted to, she wouldn't have stayed in a sexless marriage for more than three years.
He Jue, she is just... too cold.
Four years ago, she entered marriage as a winner.
I grabbed Lu Jingxing, won Wen Nuan, and got my wish.
She thought she was a winner in life and had won everything.
But she didn't expect that the marriage she had obtained by any means was so unbearable, which made her feel cold to the bone.
Lu Jingxing ignored her pregnancy and regarded her as speechless.
She insisted on getting married, and she couldn't go back and cry.
She also didn’t believe that Lu Jingxing could really guard a dead man and not touch a woman for the rest of his life!
She thought that her persistence would melt Lu Jingxing's cold heart.
Time and time again she put her hot face on him, and time and time again she was treated coldly.
For more than three years, for countless days and nights, she guarded a man who had a dead man in his heart.
She tried her best, but couldn't get any response.
Not even a look.
Meeting Nangong Jue again was a surprise.
He was her first love. She didn't love him much, but she never thought that Nangong Jue would always miss her.
She hadn't seen that look in her eyes for a long time.
A man who only has eyes for her.
That night, she was not so drunk that she really didn't know what she was doing.
But that night, under the influence of alcohol, her heart, which had been frozen by Lu Jingxing for too long, faced Nangong Jue's hot eyes.
She admitted that she failed to hold on and sank.
She is really too cold.
Want to be close to a heat source.
A moment of greed led to an accident that night.
It was also a moment of greed that made her fall in love with that warmth and gradually became addicted to his embrace.
Whenever she was chilled by Lu Jingxing, she couldn't help but think of Nangong Jue.
Thinking of his focused and affectionate eyes, and his hot body temperature.
I want him to hold her tightly, making her feel a little warm.
Then there will be cheating again and again!
A porter and a thief?!
Why did she think about it?
Cheng Jingshu's raised hand was grabbed by another man. The man raised his hand and slapped her down hard.
The force was so heavy that her ears rang.
Half of his face swelled up quickly, and blood slid down the corners of his mouth.
"If you don't drink a toast, you will be punished with a drink. It's a toy played by men..."
The man's mouth was dirty, he cursed, grabbed Cheng Jingshu's hair, and dragged her to the corner of the bar.
The two of them just went to the private room and didn't bother to go, so they decided to play something exciting.
"Let me go!" Cheng Jingshu struggled desperately, but she couldn't withstand the strength of the two men at all.
"Help me!"
The people around him seemed so indifferent as if they didn't see it.
Cheng Jingshu's face was full of despair.
Until this moment, something emerged from the cocoon in her heart.
This is something she has never wanted to admit or face.
She treats Nangong Jue...
"ah!"
A shrill scream rang in her ears, and Cheng Jingshu, filled with despair, fell into the arms of a man.
A familiar voice sounded in her ears, "Shu'er, don't be afraid, I'm here."
Nangong Jue's eyes were scarlet, but his movements while holding Cheng Jingshu were extremely gentle, and he whispered in her ear, "Wait for me for a while."
The sound fell and Cheng Jingshu was released.
Cheng Jingshu panicked and subconsciously wanted to reach out to hold him.
Don't let go of her hand.
She found that Nangong Jue did not abandon her, but helped her clean up the two bastards who humiliated her.
She looked at Nangong Jue as if he had become a different person, with cruel eyes.
He is a doctor, and every place he touches is not fatal, but extremely painful.
Soon, two men were lying in the corner, dying.
After dealing with the two of them, Nangong Jue returned to Cheng Jingshu, picked her up by the waist, protected her in his arms, and quickly left the bar.
He carefully protected her in his arms all the way. Knowing that she was frightened, he didn't let go of her when he got into the car. He just held her in his arms and kissed her tenderly on the top of her hair.
"Don't be afraid, it's okay, it's okay."
Cheng Jingshu's emotions collapsed instantly, and she cried bitterly in Nangong Jue's arms, "Nangong Jue, is it worth it?"
"Is it worth it for a woman like me?"
Is it worth risking his reputation just to be with her?
"I think it's worth it, it's worth it."
Nangong Jue hugged Cheng Jingshu tightly, love was unreasonable.
He is a doctor.
See all kinds of things in the world.
A heart has long lost its warmth.
Over the years, it’s not like there haven’t been people around me. But after all, there has always been something missing.
Until I met Cheng Jingshu again, she was no longer the same as in the memory.
But he always remembered the pure and beautiful smile of eighteen-year-old Cheng Jingshu.
In his lens, she ran towards him from afar, threw herself into his arms, and smiled as brightly as a flower.
She said: "Jue, will you love me forever?"
He said: "Yes."
She may have forgotten a promise she made when she was a boy, but he took it seriously.
His words made Cheng Jingshu cry harder.
While guarding Lu Jingxing in the hospital that night, she already knew that the person exposed was not Lu Jingxing.
He won't do this.
He would not ignore the Lu Cheng family, and the only possible candidate was Nangong Jue.
When she first figured it out, she was angry.
How could Nangong Jue put her in such an unbearable situation.
Therefore, when he called her and asked her not to guard Lu Jingxing, she would angrily tell him to go away and not appear in front of her again.
But at this time, hearing him say it was worth it, Cheng Jingshu didn't have any resentment towards him, only felt sorry for him.
In order to be with him, he really wanted nothing.
Is she really that important to him?
"Shu'er, in my eyes, you are the best, I love you."
Nangong Jue hugged her and whispered above her head almost sweetly.
His words made Cheng Jingshu break down and cry in his arms.
Tears soaked his clothes.
Finally, tired of crying, she fell asleep in his arms.
Nangong Jue then put the person into the back seat of the car, drove the car, and took the person home.
He helped her take a bath and change clothes, and carried her to his bed.
Cheng Jingshu was already exhausted from taking care of Lu Jingxing. She just drank too much and didn't wake up the whole time.
Nangong Jue took a quick bath, put on his pajamas, lifted the quilt and lay down next to Cheng Jingshu.
As soon as he lay down, before he could hug him, Cheng Jingshu had already moved towards him.
She wrapped her arms around his waist and fell asleep deeper.
It's not like they never slept in each other's arms.
Many times when she was in a bad mood because of Lu Jingxing, she would come to him and do it crazily until she was exhausted, and she would stay overnight.
But this was the first time that the two of them were lying on the same bed, not having sex, but simply embracing each other and sleeping.
Nangong Jue tightened his arms and held Cheng Jingshu in his arms.
He has done everything he can and used the most extreme method to force her to divorce and stay with him.
But she remained stubborn.
As soon as he heard that Lu Jingxing was in a car accident, he immediately ran to take care of him, regardless of his feelings.
He is at the end of his rope.
…
Cheng Jingshu didn't know whether it was because she drank wine or because her emotions were vented.
She slept for a long time and didn't wake up until the next night.
When she woke up, she felt a burning gaze falling on her.
She slowly opened her eyes and met Nangong Jue's affectionate gaze.
There was an unconcealable blue color between his eyebrows, and it looked like he hadn't slept for a long time.
I don't know how long I kept her like this.
"Are you awake? I'm going to serve you some hangover soup. You'll feel better after drinking it."
Nangong Jue, who had been waiting for her to wake up, got up and went out, and soon brought a bowl of hangover soup at just the right temperature.
He gently lifted her up, and seeing that she had no intention of doing it himself, he sat behind her, let her lean into his arms, took a small spoonful of it with a spoon and put it to her mouth, "Be careful of the burn."
He fed her gently one bite at a time.
After drinking, he gently wiped the corners of her mouth and asked, "Do you have a headache?"
He pressed his fingers on her temples, the pressure was very comfortable.
Cheng Jingshu remained silent and just looked at Nangong Jue.
After pressing it for a while, he helped her lie down, kissed her on the lips, and said warmly: "Lie down for a while, and I will make breakfast for you."
When Nangong Jue stood up, Cheng Jingshu reached out and held him.
Eyes facing each other.
She looked at him with a cautious look in her eyes and asked him softly, "Jue, do you really love me?"
She vaguely remembered last night that he said: "In my eyes, you are the best. Shu'er, I love you."
She couldn't understand why he loved her.
Love someone who is very miserable in the eyes of others.
Cheng Jingshu, who was once the sweet girl of heaven and full of confidence, became less and less like herself in an unloved marriage.
Even though she still looks proud on the face, deep down she has extremely low self-esteem.
She asked herself countless times whether she was unworthy of being loved and loved.
"Yes, I love you, I love you very much."
Nangong Jue held Cheng Jingshu's face, looked deep into her eyes, and spoke firmly.
I fell in love so much that I did the things I never bothered to do.
Interfering in other people's marriages.
A glimmer of hope rose in his heart.
Shu'er asked this, did it mean that she had the idea of being with him?
Cheng Jingshu looked at Nangong Jue's affectionate eyes, tears rolled down her eyes, and she took the initiative to stretch out her arms to hug him.
"Jue, I want to be with you."
It's no longer about physical pleasure, but about wanting to be with this man.
She really loved Lu Jingxing deeply.
That's why I will do whatever it takes to grab it.
She didn't even think she was wrong for grabbing it.
Lu Jingyu said that she had done it herself and had no one to blame.
But she doesn't know where she went wrong?
Love is inherently selfish, isn't it?
She fell in love with Lu Jingxing, she wanted to have him, and she didn't think she was wrong.
But now?
Does she still love Lu Jingxing that much?
In fact, I no longer love you.
What she loves is obsession.
But she didn't want to admit it.
Her pride did not allow her to admit defeat, and she was unwilling to admit that she was clearly better than Wen Nuan in every aspect, but she still lost to her in the end.
She is really unwilling!
Because she was unwilling to give in, she fell into obsession, not wanting to let Lu Jingxing go, nor herself.
But, what’s the meaning?
Thinking of the scene when Lu Jingxing woke up, Cheng Jingshu's eyes turned red again.
What is she planning?
What are you still clinging to?
She doesn't want to be obsessed with anything anymore, and she doesn't want to be tortured by obsession anymore.
She wanted to break free from the prison she had put on herself.
"Shu'er, what did you say?"
Nangong Jue pushed Cheng Jingshu away from his arms in panic with both hands, holding her face in his hands, unable to believe his ears.
"You said you want to be with me?"
Unable to wait for Cheng Jingshu to speak again, he asked excitedly and nervously.
Is that what he meant?
Is Shuer planning to divorce and be with him?
Cheng Jingshu wanted to understand and was reluctant to let Nangong Jue suffer any more torture. She nodded heavily.
"Yes, Nangong Jue, I want to be with you."
"I want to divorce Lu Jingxing and be with you openly."
She raised her hand to hold the big hand holding her face, looked at his rapidly red eyes, and kissed him on his eyelids.
How could she break the heart of such a man who has no regrets for her and treats her sincerely for a man who doesn't have her in his heart at all?
He is her happy destination.
She should not and cannot live up to it.
Nangong Jue's tears did not stop, they burst out instantly.
Overwhelmed by ecstasy.
He held Cheng Jingshu's face with trembling hands and kissed her.
The emotional kiss received a response from Cheng Jingshu.
She opened her heart and felt joy she had never felt before.
A kiss that makes each other's hearts throb.
She no longer feels guilty.
I no longer regard the entanglement with Nangong Jue as a way to vent my anger.
Cheng Jingshu also cried.
Crying but laughing.
In the passionate kiss, they tasted each other's tears.
Obviously the tears are salty.
But they tasted the sweetness.
They desperately entangled each other's lips and tongues, reluctant to let go.
A kiss that lasted for a long time.
Nangong Jue took into consideration that she hadn't eaten for a long time and reluctantly let go, "I'll go make you something to eat first."
Even if he is already moved.
I wanted to have her right away, but I still let go of her and stood up.
As soon as he stood up, he was pulled back by Cheng Jingshu.
She hugged his neck and looked at him tenderly.
He is in her eyes.
Smiled and kissed him.
She wants to do it with him.
This time it was not to vent, nor to seek warmth, but simply to unite with his spirit and body.
This night was long, but it was the happiest night they had together.
Early the next morning, Cheng Jingshu and Nangong Jue had breakfast together.
During this period, Nangong Jue has been taking care of Cheng Jingshu.
His eyes couldn't help but fall on her, and he hesitated to speak.
Last night was so beautiful.
It was so beautiful that when he woke up, he was afraid it was just a dream.
I'm afraid that what she said last night was just for the moment and may not be true.
Cheng Jingshu noticed Nangong Jue's gaze and knew what he was worried about.
After finishing breakfast, she reached out and held Nangong Jue's hand, interlocking his fingers, "Will you accompany me to the hospital?"
Nangong Jue's eyes instantly turned red.
Nodding heavily, "Okay!"
Nangong Jue went to clean up the kitchen, while Cheng Jingshu sat in front of the dressing table and put on makeup.
She had never felt Nangong Jue's dedication to her before, so she didn't dare.
Most women cannot completely separate sex and love.
To truly meet physiological needs.
At least she's not.
She knew that she had Nangong Jue in her heart.
I just keep escaping and don't want to face it.
After facing it calmly, she looked at herself radiantly in the mirror.
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen myself so angry.
If she could give up her obsession earlier, she and Lu Jingxing wouldn't have been so painfully entangled for so long.
"I'll do it."
After cleaning up the kitchen, Nangong Jue walked over and took the eyebrow pencil from her.
"Will you?"
Cheng Jingshu chuckled.
Nangong Jue smiled without saying a word, lifted her chin, and helped her draw her eyebrows seriously and carefully.
In ancient times, matrimonial men would draw eyebrows for their wives.
Divorced, she will soon become his wife.
"good."
Nangong Jue's painting was really good, Cheng Jingshu kissed him on the lips as a reward.
He took the opportunity to ask for a good morning kiss.
The two lingered for half an hour before leaving Nangong Jue's apartment together.
Drove to the hospital.
…
Lu Jingxing was overstimulated yesterday and woke up in the middle of the night.
After Lu Jingyu woke up, he went back to rest, leaving the nurse to take care of him.
Before leaving, he specifically stated that Cheng Jingshu was not allowed to enter the ward.
When Nangong Jue appeared at the door of the ward with Cheng Jingshu in hand, the bodyguard immediately stopped them.
"The second young master told me that no one can enter the ward to disturb the eldest young master's rest without his permission."
Everyone knows that Cheng Jingshu has a bad temper and is difficult to deal with, so she bites the bullet and says it.
The two of them were already prepared to face Cheng Jingshu's crazy output, but they didn't expect that she would uncharacteristically smile gently at them.
"I'm not here to quarrel with him. I just want to say a few words to him, and then I'll leave."
She could have forced her way in, but she didn't.
The bodyguards looked at each other. When hesitant, Cheng Jingshu smiled softly and said, "Thank you."
Help them make decisions directly.
Nangong Jue had already stepped forward to help her open the door, and they walked into the ward together.
Lu Jingxing hasn't fallen asleep since he woke up in the middle of the night. He heard sounds outside.
There was not much sound outside, and he couldn't hear clearly what was being said.
But I can hear the door opening.
"roll!"
He didn't even bother to open his eyes, not wanting to see Cheng Jingshu, with disgust and disgust for her written all over his face.
Cheng Jingshu saw that her heart was still stabbed.
She has loved deeply, given deeply, and worked hard.
In the end, all he got was his rejection.
Nangong Jue noticed Cheng Jingshu's emotions and tightened their interlocked hands.
Cheng Jingshu noticed it and looked sideways at him.
He said silently, "I'm fine."
"I told you to get out!"
Lu Jingxing opened his eyes, turned his head, and looked at Cheng Jingshu with anger in his eyes.
When he saw Nangong Jue, he just glanced at him.
It was just a glance without any other emotions.
He didn't care about this man's existence.
His indifference used to hurt her heart. Now, looking at Lu Jingxing, Cheng Jingshu felt that she was really stupid.
Why bother clinging to a man who doesn't love you and torturing each other?
Facing his cold and disgusted gaze, Cheng Jingshu took a deep breath, stepped forward, and said firmly: "Lu Jingxing, let's get a divorce."