Gu Yanzhi, who understood what he wanted, slept deeply with warmth in his arms.
But there was no trace of sleepiness in the warmth of his arms.
She gently pulled Gu Yanzhi's arm away, stood up quietly, and went downstairs to the garden alone.
Sitting curled up on a chair, blowing the night breeze.
She was too depressed.
He took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Mu Chenxi: [Sister Chenxi, are you asleep?]
Mu Chenxi was still busy working in the study when she received the last video call.
"Nuan Nuan, what's wrong?"
Wen Nuan's eyes were red, and his voice was a little erratic as he told Mu Chenxi what happened today.
"Nuan Nuan, have you really decided to have a child at this time?"
Even newlyweds who fall in love and get married are not suitable to have children immediately before they get along well.
Not to mention, she and Gu Yanzhi.
If they want a child under these circumstances, the situation will only become worse.
Nuan Nuan was silent.
Just because she knew it was not suitable to ask for him, but at that moment, facing Yanzhi's impatience, she didn't know how to refuse him.
"Sister Chen Xi, I know Yanzhi wants to tie me up with a child."
"He feels that as long as I am pregnant with his child, there will be the deepest bond between me and him, and he can truly own me."
"But……"
Wen Nuan choked up.
Mu Chenxi felt heartbroken.
Nuan Nuan thought she had chosen the best path for herself and Ke Yan, but marriage involved too many things.
It is even more difficult to embark on this road.
"Sister Chen Xi, did I make the wrong choice again?"
Wen Nuan's eyes were red and he smiled bitterly.
She loves Lu Jingxing, but when faced with his approach, she is afraid that she will lose control of her emotions and become a mistress.
She wanted to use the constraints of marriage to control herself and protect her, so she chose to marry Yanzhi.
Can……
"After I got married, I tried very hard to forget Lu Jingxing, but I really couldn't."
She recognized the man at first sight, but she didn't know how to dig him out of her heart.
During the four years they were separated, she tried hard but failed.
Love has never been something you can fall in love with if you want to love it, or forget it if you want to forget it.
If feelings could be controlled by oneself at will, life would not be so tiring.
"I thought that even if there was no love between Yanzhi and I, as long as I worked hard and worked hard, we could still maintain a successful marriage."
"But when I got into marriage, I realized that it was really difficult to find a balance."
She thinks marriage is too simple.
She tried hard to forget Lu Jingxing.
But she couldn't forget it for a while.
She didn't even know when she would forget it.
And Yanzhi couldn't wait to win her heart, not giving her any room to breathe, pressing forward step by step, trying to squeeze Lu Jingxing away and replace him with him.
Now she can't advance for a while, nor can she retreat.
"Nuan Nuan, you are torturing yourself."
If she had been selfish and ignored her family's feelings, she wouldn't have made herself suffer like this.
Precisely because Gu Yanzhi and the Gu family were so good to her, she couldn't be the one to let down the Gu family.
"Sister Chen Xi, I choose the path myself. I will try to find a balance."
She will try her best to suppress Lu Jingxing to the deepest part of her heart.
I will also work hard to manage my marriage well.
Wen Nuan wiped the tears from his face, took a deep breath, and already made a decision in his heart.
"Sister Chen Xi, can you go somewhere with me tomorrow?"
Seeing the warm expression, Mu Chenxi felt uneasy in her heart.
Could Nuannuan be...
They have been together for four years. Mu Chenxi looked at Nuan Nuan and almost guessed what she was thinking in her heart.
"Nuan Nuan, have you thought about it? Do you really want to do this?"
This is a tightrope walk.
What to do if discovered?
"Sister Chen Xi, other than that, I have no other choice."
This is the only way she can maintain her balance!
This was the only solution she could think of to get the best of both worlds.
…
Cheng Jingshu found Lu Jingxing in the study. He didn't turn on the light and was smoking a cigarette in the dark.
When she opened the door, smoke came into her nose, choking her and causing her to cough violently.
It stung her eyes, which were red and swollen from crying, even redder.
He raised his hand to turn on the light and met a pair of cold eyes, "Get out."
The two have not spoken since he disagreed with the divorce.
She knew that Lu Jingxing hated her.
She also knew that there was little hope, but in order to avoid causing Jue so much pain and embarrassment, she still wanted to fight for it.
She really doesn't want to lose Jue.
"Lu Jingxing, can we get a divorce?"
Lu Jingxing still looked at her coldly.
Unmoved.
"I beg you, I kneel down and beg you to divorce me, is it okay?"
Cheng Jingshu slowly bent her knees and knelt in front of Lu Jingxing.
Put down your dignity and attitude.
She wanted to find a possibility with Nangong Jue, even if it was slim.
After having his cherished care, she really didn't want to lose it, she just wanted to hold on to it with all her strength.
But, even if she knelt down.
There was still no fluctuation on Lu Jingxing's face.
Except for the look he gave her when he first came in and the words telling her to get lost, he didn't even bother to give her a look.
Treat her as nothing.
Cheng Jingshu realized at this moment that even if she broke her head today, Lu Jingxing would not divorce her.
She got up from the ground in despair and walked out.
After walking alone for a long time, he finally stopped downstairs at Nangong Jue's residence.
Look at the light on the door, it was left for her.
Not long ago, he called her, but she didn't answer.
He sent a message telling her that his father came from abroad to take care of his mother in the hospital. He had returned home from the hospital and was waiting for her at home.
She was very cold now, as if there was a big hole in her heart, and the cold wind was blowing in. She wanted to go up and hug him to keep him warm.
But what qualifications does she have to go up again?
She didn't even have a chance to survive.
The marriage she had tried so hard to obtain turned out to be a roadblock to her happiness!
As Lu Jingyu said, she brought it upon herself and will not survive!
Cheng Jingshu's knees softened and she fell to the ground.
The dark night was like the mouth of an abyss drowning her.
My heart and eyes are full of despair.
Tears welled up in his eyes again and slid down his cheeks.
Divorcing Lu Jingxing became out of reach.
Since it was retribution, how could she let her have her way so easily?
She should have accepted her fate long ago.
You shouldn't try to fight with fate.
People really can't do bad things, there will really be retribution.
If she had known earlier, she would never have done anything that harmed others and was not beneficial to herself.
The phone rang again.
"Jue" flashes on the phone screen.
Cheng Jingshu took a deep breath, raised her hand to wipe away her tears, and swiped to answer.
"Shu'er, where have you been? Why don't you answer the phone? I will take care of my parents' side. Don't feel any psychological pressure. Trust me..."
"Jue, let's break up."
Cheng Jingshu pinched herself hard with one hand, using the pain to force herself to say what she had not finished speaking today.
A few simple words, but they exhausted all her remaining strength.
The sound fell, and I didn't dare to listen to Nangong Jue's voice anymore, so I directly cut off the call and turned off the phone.
…
A few days later, the airport
Nangong Jue was carrying simple luggage in his hands, but he lost weight rapidly in just a few days.
His father supported his mother as she walked in front, and he followed behind, turning back three times every step to look for Cheng Jingshu in the crowd.
In the past few days, he called her frantically and sent her messages.
But the stone disappeared into the sea, and there was no news from her.
"Jue'er, hurry up."
Mrs. Nangong had already passed the security check with the support of her husband. She turned around and called her son, who was still thinking about her.
"Coming."
Nangong Jue responded.
But he didn't move. He was stuck in the last moment and kept waiting.
But until the last time to remind passengers to go through security check and board the plane, she didn't show up.
She finally chose to give up on this relationship.
I don't know whether it's because I don't trust him to handle it well, or because I've never been as committed and unwavering to this relationship as he has been.
He has taken ninety-nine steps towards her. As long as she takes the initiative, no matter how many winds and rains lie ahead, he is willing to bear them with her.
But she didn't want to take a step forward.
Nangong Jue turned around with his heart full of exhaustion and sadness.
It wasn't until his figure disappeared at the security checkpoint that a figure walked out from behind a pillar not far away.
He was fully armed, only showing a pair of red and swollen eyes, with black and blue under his eyes.
In the past few days, she barely slept.
Listening to the aircraft announcement, she stood in front of the glass and watched the flight that Nangong Jue was on taxiing, taking off, and soaring into the sky.
He quickly disappeared from his sight.
The plane took away Nangong Jue, and also took away her heart, leaving only a heart full of pain and hurt.
it's over.
Her relationship is also over.
Lu Jingxing successfully dragged her into hell and suffered with him.
Then let's suffer together.
Without Nangong Jue, her life became gloomy again.
Tears, wet and then dry, dry and wet again.
When she finally turned around, Cheng Jingshu's face was filled with the calmness of a dead heart.
Some people may never have the chance to be happy in this life.
For example, Lu Jingxing.
Such as her.
If this is fate, she won't struggle anymore.
She accepts her fate!
You will reap the consequences of your own sins.
She bears it alone and is free.
He is such a good and warm person, she doesn't deserve it!