Chapter 39: Secretly tell you a secret, I actually like you [6,000-character chapter]
Li Bai, the immortal poet, can have such a high status in today's society.
The reason is because he has fulfilled the saying that Chinese people will not lie to Chinese people.
One sentence, cut off the water with a knife and the water will flow again, raise a cup to relieve the sorrow and the sorrow will become more sorrowful. It was perfectly performed on Xia Mu.
After drinking until two o'clock, Xia Mu cried bitterly.
In the end, she was so drunk that she fell to the ground.
Lin Yuan did not take advantage of others, and carried her to her room. After settling down, he returned to his room to rest.
He couldn't empathize with others, he only knew that the other person must be very sad and sad.
Think about it, if it were you, you wouldn't be much better off.
The sisters who came with me after being tortured for a long time, because of their different choices, rose to glory in just one or two months, while I was still struggling at the bottom.
At the end of the day, I was still worried about whether she would be hurt, but the other party didn't even show any affection and left without looking back, for fear that I would affect the other party.
In such a situation, whether it is out of feelings or jealousy, it will cause people to have various negative emotions.
regarding this phenomenon.
Lin Yuan was helpless. He was neither an educator nor a spiritual mentor.
All you can do is drink with the other person, wait for the other person to drink no more, and then send the other person back quietly, that's all.
After returning to the room, Lin Yuan sighed and leaned on the pillow and fell asleep early.
Wait until daybreak.
He got up immediately to check on Xia Mu's status. He was afraid that the other party would do something stupid because of his deep negative emotions.
Fortunately, after knocking on the door, Xia Mu who came out just swept away the quietness before, dressed herself up beautifully, and seemed to be going on a long-awaited date.
Looking at the worried Lin Yuan outside the door, Xia Mu asked with a chuckle: "Brother Lin, do you think I look good today?"
To be honest, Xia Mu is indeed much prettier today than before, at least not worse than Liu Yue.
Compared with Liu Yue, Xia Mu is more like a pure and cute little girl, while Liu Yue is a pure desire type, and both of them have their own styles.
If you have to compare yourself with others.
Younger people will prefer Liu Yue's type.
Anyone who is a little older will like the first love type like Xia Mu.
"nice!"
Looking around the whole body, Lin Yuan praised from the bottom of his heart.
"That's good~" Xia Mu replied with a smile, then turned around and asked again: "Do you want to go to the group performance square?"
"I've already joined a crew." Lin Yuan answered unabashedly.
"Okay, then I'll go first~" Xia Mu waved goodbye. She seemed to have changed her face overnight. Her courage was no longer the submissive and cautious one before, but she gave people a more relaxed attitude.
feel.
Seeing her change, Lin Yuan couldn't help but shake his head and sigh.
He knows.
Liu Yue's "success" affected Xia Mu.
I dressed up so beautifully today not because I was going on a date, but because I wanted to follow Liu Yue's path.
Obviously, she gave up her previous ideas and chose a new path.
Lin Yuan, who realized this, did not stop him or accuse him.
Because he doesn't want to interfere in other people's lives.
.......
Seven forty in the morning.
The exquisitely dressed Xia Mu stood in the performance square like a pleasant scenery, and the extras who came and went couldn't help but look at her.
Those who are timid will take a few sneak peeks, while those who are brave will just smoke a cigarette and look up and down with their eyes like a scanner, not missing a single second.
I also have to mention the horror of makeup here. When a woman dresses up carefully, it is really terrifying.
Of course, Xia Mu also has the foundation. If he didn't have the foundation, he wouldn't be able to look like this.
Also under the gaze of the stars and the moon.
Buses for the production crew were coming one after another.
For example, the shouts of people selling vegetables in the vegetable market sounded from buses one after another.
"For the Qing Dynasty palace drama, we need thirty eunuchs, guards, and maids, one hundred and thirty a day, and we will take 15%, whoever comes!"
"Anti-Japanese War drama, twenty corpses!!!"
"Spy drama, fifteen passers-by!"
"Suspense drama, more than a dozen villagers!"
...
The shouts one after another did not attract Xia Mu's attention at all.
It wasn't until a special scene that Xia Mu raised his hand.
"A costume drama needs a girl with good looks, who will be stripped off by the villain in the street, who will have a little intimate contact, who will show a little bit, and it will cost 1,500 yuan a day, and if there is an accident, add another 500."
As soon as the voice fell, Xia Mu rushed forward immediately, raising his hand with firm eyes.
When she raised her hand, the group leader just glanced at her and showed lustful eyes.
"Okay, it's you!!"
After choosing the person, Xia Mu walked onto the bus amidst countless pairs of joking eyes.
Sitting on the bus, the leader of the group just sat down directly next to her.
His eyes were full of desire, and he didn't know if it was because the weather was too hot in the morning. He licked his lips with a dry mouth, looked at Xia Mu with a squinting look, and said, "Little sister, is this your first time in Hengdian?"
Xia Mu was not used to this kind of scene. She shrank in and replied in an unusually cold tone: "It's been a long time."
"Oh? Have you been here for a long time? Why haven't I seen you before? Are you alone here? Do you need to find a concubine?" The leader of the group was of low quality and spoke bluntly.
"I'm here for filming. If you want to insult me verbally, I'll get off the car now!" The head of the group exuded a smell of sweat, and his greasy face and malicious eyes made her feel
Extremely disgusting.
"Made, you have to do this kind of scene, and you still pretend to be innocent!"
The leader of the group did not expect the other party to be so vehement, so he muttered a curse and left in disappointment.
When Xia Mu heard such insulting words, she clenched her fist tightly and let the sharp nails poke at the palm of her hand. She gritted her teeth and resisted the impulse, warning herself constantly in her heart.
"Don't be impulsive, don't be impulsive!!"
With this forbearance, the car arrived at the set more than half an hour later.
Because she didn't give the group leader face before, the group leader treated her very badly after getting off the bus.
Xia Mu did not dare to argue and endured all the way to the assistant director.
The assistant director looked at the role that the group leader found for him and nodded with satisfaction: "Not bad, looks pretty good."
After saying that, he asked someone to take Xia Mu to the clothing room to change clothes.
After changing clothes, the assistant director also began to talk to her about the scene.
The role is very simple.
Several dandy boys were looking for flowers and willows on the street, and they fell in love with a girl, Xia Mu.
Several people gathered around her and teased her. Because she resisted, she accidentally pushed the playboy. Some people got angry and immediately dragged her to the side of the street to have a live broadcast.
Several things will happen during this period.
First, the clothes will be torn, half of the shoulders will be exposed, and a little bit of the body may be exposed, but it won't be too serious.
Second, the man will come close to her cheek and kiss her, but not too much.
Third, if you take off your pants directly, your legs will definitely be exposed.
After these things were solved, the next step was to touch up her makeup, which was equivalent to how she had been insulted in the movie and TV series. In the end, she was wearing very thin clothes and was leaning in the corner shivering with her eyes blank.
After listening to the assistant director's play.
Xia Mu had already developed resistance in her heart. She wanted to refuse, but when the assistant director asked her if she had any questions, her answer was contrary to her wishes.
"No... no problem!"
"Okay, then get ready. Shooting will start in ten minutes!" The assistant director didn't think much and left without thinking.
Xia Mu was left standing alone in a daze.
In a daze, she kept advising herself in her heart.
"It's okay, it's okay, it's just acting!"
"What Liu Yue can do, you can do too!!"
"Come on, believe in yourself, if you want to succeed, you must succeed."
"Xia Mu, think about how much suffering you have suffered since you left home, this little thing is nothing!!"
.....
I comforted myself for ten minutes.
The assistant director walked up to her again and led her to the filming location, a long ancient street.
Standing next to a makeshift rouge vendor.
Everyone is also in place.
As the director shouted to start filming, a few dandy boys started walking around the street in a carefree manner.
From time to time, after teasing a few decent women, he would laugh out loud.
Within three minutes, several people focused their attention on Xia Mu.
Looking at Xia Mu, several people immediately surrounded him.
Xia Mu, who was surrounded by three or four people, immediately became nervous. This was a natural reaction of her body, not an act.
"Little lady, are you here alone?"
"My dear lady, can I get married?"
"Little lady, would you like to play with me?"
The four dandy boys began to recite their lines, their faces full of pig brother-like looks, half of them were fake and half of them were true.
Although Xia Mu was nervous, she still read out her lines. Her lines were only two sentences.
One sentence is that there are officials in the slave family, and the other sentence is to please let the slave family leave.
After reading his lines, Xia Mu was about to leave, but was surrounded by four people.
The next second, Xia Mu pushed one of them away.
The man fell to the ground and became furious immediately, and then came the most wonderful scene.
The four furious people dragged Xia Mu to a nearby alley in front of everyone.
The photography teacher quickly followed.
Xia Mu couldn't hold back as four men who looked like wolves and tigers had their hands on and off him.
The body subconsciously resisted, fists and feet intertwined.
One of the actors was accidentally hit on his calf and immediately screamed in pain.
"Click!!"
"Click!!"
The director was unhappy. Although he wanted to resist, he didn't really resist.
So he walked over and pointed at Xia Mu and said, "What are you doing? What are you doing? Why did you really do it when I asked you to resist?"
Faced with the director's accusation, Xia Mu realized that he was filming a movie and quickly stood up, bowed and apologized.
After all, she is a little girl, and the director is not easy to care about, so he can only leave a cruel message: "You must shoot carefully for me, if you don't get good results, get out!"
"start!"
After the first session, the shooting started again, this time directly at the entrance of the alley.
Four people surrounded her, raising and lowering their hands, with lewd smiles on their faces.
If it was just an act, Xia Mu could bear it, but these four people had bad intentions and directly touched her.
When the touching became more and more outrageous, Xia Mu couldn't help but take action.
"Click, click, click!!!"
The director got up in anger and rushed over and shouted: "What are you doing again? Can you film it??"
The director with a loud voice calmed Xia Mu.
He lowered his head and said with tears in his eyes: "They really touched me..."
She thought that when she said this, the director would understand her, but she knew that the director started to curse: "Why do I give you so much money if I don't touch you? Do you think I'm just going to stand there for a while if I pay you so much?"
Xia Mu, the director shouted to the assistant director behind him: "Li Ping, come here, where did you find the actor? Do you know the rules? Have you taught her?"
When the assistant director heard this, he apologized with embarrassment, then walked to Xia Mu, gritted his teeth and said with eyes on fire: "Auntie, can you film it? If you can't film it, I'm changing people now, there will be a new person soon!!
"
The threatening tone made Xia Mu dare not say anything. She gritted her teeth and nodded aggrievedly.
"I can... I can shoot!"
After receiving the reply, the assistant director walked up to the director and said flatteringly: "The last time, the last time!"
"Okay, one last time, if she doesn't get good at filming again, let her go!" The director also had a bad temper and gave her one last chance.
"start!"
The sound of shooting fell.
The drama begins again.
The four people experienced the same situation as the previous two times and became even more courageous.
This is not their first time filming this kind of scene, they are already veterans, and they are extremely skilled at eating tofu.
He reached out his hand and deliberately touched a private place, completely disregarding the girl's face and dignity.
After several operations, I saw that although the other person was shaking, he did not dare to resist. The actor in the kissing scene went even further and rubbed directly under the neck.
The moment she felt the opposite sex approaching her, Xia Mu finally exploded.
She couldn't bear it anymore.
He kicked the opponent away.
Before the director could curse, she stood up directly, pointed at these men and cursed like crazy.
"Are you sick?"
"You haven't touched it enough, you just rub it on my chest?"
"Are you really going to rape me next?"
After saying this, she seemed to collapse. She took off her top and exposed most of her shoulders. She rushed directly in front of the most disgusting man just now and roared like a thunderstorm.
"Touch, you touch, come and touch, touch!!!!!!"
"Why don't you dare????"
The four actors unexpectedly angered each other, and each of them stood there in embarrassment.
When the director saw this, he also knew that these actors had gone too far. He suppressed his anger just now, looked at the villain actors and cursed: "You have never seen a woman, have you?"
After scolding him, he gave the assistant director another look.
The assistant director knew exactly what it meant, and quickly walked to Xia Mu and whispered, "This way, I'll give you another five hundred yuan."
"I'll add your mom!"
"Every single bastard bastard!"
"I won't take pictures anymore!!"
The collapsed Xia Mu no longer cared about everything.
After what happened to Liu Yue, she had fallen into confusion. After a night of drunkenness, she wanted to change her appearance and succeed, so she chose to put aside all dignity and morality and prepare to follow the same path as Liu Yue.
But when it comes to real experience.
Only then did she suddenly wake up.
From beginning to end, she was not this kind of person.
It was just that after seeing others succeed, she suddenly made a wrong decision.
"What are you talking about?"
The assistant director didn't expect that the other party would dare to scold him, so he pointed at her face and cursed fiercely.
"Beast bastard!!!" Xia Mu, who was in a state of collapse, gritted his teeth and stared at the opponent, repeating these words again.
"Cao Nima!" The assistant director was also a ruthless person and slapped Xia Mu on the face. He knew that if the other party left after scolding him today, he would never want to work here again, so at this time he
Something must be done.
"Crack!"
A clear slap came from Xia Mu's cheek.
This slap drowned her out like a basin of cold water.
Seeing the ferocious assistant director, the evil-looking people around him, and the crowd watching the fun, Xia Mu gradually woke up from his rage.
Looking around blankly.
She didn't know why things happened like this.
I don't know why I am like this today.
There was a buzzing sound in her ears, and the assistant director spoke dirty words, but they could not reach her ears.
After waking up.
She lost her previous courage and became the obedient little girl again.
Shaking a little with fear.
Swallowing his saliva, he quickly bowed his head and apologized: "Yes... yes... I'm sorry..."
"Get out!!" The assistant director was used to seeing crazy people like this. When he heard the other party's apology, he knew he was fine. Not wanting to continue causing trouble, he pointed outside and shouted one word.
Xia Mu followed the other party's direction and left like a mouse amidst countless ridicules.
She was at a loss and wanted to leave without even changing her clothes.
The clothing staff rushed over immediately and said fiercely: "What are you doing? Change your clothes!"
"Oh..." Xia Mu replied dully, changing clothes like a zombie.
Her hair was disheveled due to the role in the drama, and her red left cheek was no longer as delicate as it was before she came here, and some looked embarrassed.
She didn't ride a bike on the way home, she walked back alone with her head lowered.
Passers-by along the road looked at this scene as usual, with smiles on their faces. This is another person whose dream of becoming an actor was shattered!
It's not surprising that Xia Mu has reached this point.
The path Liu Yue chose seemed wrong to her.
However, the ending slapped her so hard that her values collapsed.
Liu Yue, who used to boast that once she became famous in Haikou, she would definitely take her sisters with her, chose to treat her with indifference.
This made her feel betrayed.
It was her last struggle to put down the dignity she was proud of and compromise with this society.
The assistant director's slap was the straw that broke the camel's back.
Now that I have woken up from the dream, I have found myself and my so-called dignity, but the price I have paid is very heavy.
The incident of going crazy on the set will definitely spread throughout Hengdian, and she will never have a chance to fight in this place again.
The last hope is shattered.
As she walked home, she also made a decision.
She chose to give up.
3:14 pm.
Expressionless, Xia Mu packed up her things and left the room. She did not leave directly, but placed a handwritten letter at Lin Yuan's door.
Tears shed freely, and while crying, she pretended to laugh softly, and said to Lin Yuan from a distance: "Brother Lin, I'm leaving~"
There was no formal farewell and no announcement.
Facing the sunset and facing the sunset, Xia Mu stood on the platform wearing headphones and listening to music.
The roaring green train made a buzzing sound.
The wind blew through the corners of her skirt, as if trying to persuade her to stay.
She didn't know where she should go next, so she just bought a train ticket that said "Chengdu" was the fastest way out of the province.
The moment you step on the train.
Suddenly, she wanted to look back and look back at this place where her dream was broken.
But the crowds of people queuing up to get on the bus prevented her from even catching one last look.
Just like her life, it moves forward endlessly but never gives her a chance to stop.
The train rolls its wheels.
Before the dark night comes.
Xia Mu left.
.......
At half past seven in the evening.
Lin Yuan bought some vegetables and planned to cook for Xia Mu to have a good meal today, hoping to relieve her mood.
I walked into the house and called a few times, but found no one responded. When I passed by the other person's room, I found that they didn't lock it.
I couldn't help but feel a little thump in my heart, and when I opened the door, there was nothing in the room except a bed I had slept on.
There are only sticky notes stuck one after another on the wall.
All of the above are words of encouragement.
"July 16th, Xia Mu, believe in yourself, you can do it!"
"On July 17th, successful people often have to bear a lot!"
"On July 18th, if you haven't succeeded yet, it proves that you haven't done enough!"
The positive energy seems out of place in the empty room.
When he left the room and walked to his door, a letter was at his feet.
When I picked it up, the smell of ink still lingered on the paper.
Lin Yuan's heart became heavy as he read what Xia Mu said to him word for word.
Just like her character, all the above are words of thanks.
Thanks for taking care of her when she first arrived, and for having such a good friend like him. Just like her brother, Xia Mu, who had been subjected to gender discrimination since she was a child, has always envied other people's brothers who took care of her sister. Lin Yuan's appearance just filled her regret.
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I’ve read hundreds of words.
In the elegant handwriting, I left a sentence at the end.