I wanted to write about a dream story before, in which the child conceived by Su Yu and Mother Ye was essentially one of Su Yu's nine worldly lives.
Similar to Meng Hao's letter at the end of I Want to Seal the Heavens.
But later I learned that writing this way would lead to a dead end. Many people couldn’t accept it.
So gave up.
But too many book friends scolded me that those few chapters were meaningless. I actually wanted to write a complete story, but I stopped.
Now it seems that everything is too regrettable.
I've been complaining for the past two months.
Reality and ideals are separated.
The pain of having no money, house prices in county-level cities are more expensive than some urban areas in prefecture-level cities, and much higher than those in several surrounding counties.
The author is always cursing and simply venting.
I live in a county-level city where prices and house prices are under great pressure.
This is my personal sorrow.
I don't know why I have to bear this kind of pressure.
The employer does not provide housing, nor does it provide rental subsidies. Not to mention the poor quality of the housing rented here, which is much different from the previous county where the court was located.
I was also tricked by a local agency, which made me laugh to death.
Come ashore!
Oh, I got it.
Damn you beast, what did you hit?
In the end, everything is still as alive as a dog. The author has to admit that I am a dog, I am a waste, I am a cow and a horse.
The term "social animal" invented by Benzi is really very appropriate.
Treating colleagues with good intentions, but in the end being plotted against, I feel like a big fool.
The senior civil servants in the office told me that this is normal because you are in a competitive relationship.
I said that the position above has already been occupied and it is basically impossible to be promoted within fifteen years. Why compete?
Then I understood, it's not for promotion, it's just for judging the best, for the title.
Oh, that's right.
Colleague, enemy?
If this is the case, take the high school entrance examination, college entrance examination, postgraduate examination, public examination, and editing examination.
Young people are all enemies.
I don't understand whether I am wrong or the world is wrong.
Why are there more and more indifferent people in society?
I think I gradually became indifferent and vowed in my heart that I would never take the initiative to help others again.
But when faced with other people's requests for help, I subconsciously spoke up again, feeling like a fool.
Three views have been formed, and it is too difficult to distort them.
Maybe it's better that I'm full of anger right now. At least I can attack people who are hostile to me without being too cowardly.
Other related households bullied people in various ways and pretended to be different.
Before I went to work, my family members solemnly warned me that I should keep my tail between my legs and never talk about my family relationships.
Then my relatives also pushed me to make progress, hoping that I would improve myself and be selected for the job.
I still don't know why I'm under so much pressure.
Later, when I was bullied by my colleagues, they also asked me to endure it. They said that there was nothing I could do and some things were destined to be faced.
Xiaoye can understand his parents.
They are bullied more often in society, and sometimes they have no room to reason. But I am stubborn and have a bad temper.
When I encountered campus bullying in high school, it was so extreme that I swore that the other person would bully me again, so I stabbed him directly. I don’t know whether it was my luck or that person’s luck, but the two of them never faced each other again.
I was reading the comments a few days ago, and many people were scolding me, saying that the diva's plot was poisonous.
Xiaoye was so angry that he didn't sleep all night and was changing the plot.
Maybe I put too much pressure on myself during this time.
It might be better to admit that you are trash.
Next week I plan to go to court to sue the agency directly. The place I rented does not comply with the law and the rental contract is invalid.
I'm too angry now.
A few days ago, some people praised me and said that I have a good attitude. Today I talked with some people from Nanchang and they also said that I was very polite. (Currently, I am on ZFB and working for them)
Am I qualified?
I have no idea.
Yes, I earned nearly RMB 100,000 in two years of college. I paid for the tuition and living expenses for my junior and senior years, including taking the public entrance examination and writing and interview classes.
I should be considered a good son.
But I'm still in a lot of pain now.
Extreme pain.
I regret, regret very much, regret extremely.
I found my first female college classmate on my own, and the relationship was almost finalized at that time.
She didn't like my family relationship, so she would have followed me even if I didn't pass the entrance examination, but my family didn't agree. I took the pressure and asked her to come over, saying that she could solve her work problem.
But her parents thought it was too far away and didn't agree with the girl coming over. For various reasons, I didn't keep her and it ended like this. (The relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend hadn't been confirmed at the time, but the discussion was almost done.)
Looking back now, this is the thing I regret the most.
If I had stayed, maybe everything would be different.
After all, he found someone when he had nothing. Life is really ridiculous.
I'm afraid of finding a girlfriend.
I feel like opening my mouth to chat and please others is like killing me.
So when I found someone with a similar personality and similar personality, I was really happy and felt that a huge life problem had been solved.
Now it's back to the point where it's life-threatening.
I even feel that chatting on time every day is a kind of torture.
The person I am currently chatting with probably thinks the same way. He is just helpless due to the pressure from his family.
Frankly speaking, my conditions are indeed good. Especially now.
That female classmate in college probably didn’t tell her family what my family was like.
Maybe I should learn from others and be a bad person. Treat others with malice.
That kind of life is too simple.
I just can’t do it. I don’t know why I can’t do something that goes against my three views.
Like the niece from last year, I also like her very much. Her temperament and image far exceed my criteria for selecting a spouse.
Her family (more than a dozen family members) asked me to chase her, and I would definitely succeed. Girls should listen to their family members, and there will be no problem.
I had nothing at that time (when I was in my junior year of college), and I was really grateful to the woman’s elders for thinking so highly of me and treating me so kindly and enthusiastically.
And that girl was really outstanding. If my standard for selecting a spouse at that time was four, her level would be seven. Even adding in the bonus of temperament and relationship, it would be considered eight.
This chapter is not finished yet, please click on the next page to continue reading the exciting content! With the support of the woman’s parents, aunts, uncles, aunts, grandmothers, etc., a small betrothal gift is really equivalent to giving away a wife for free.
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Don’t be afraid of everyone’s jokes. During those few days last year, I was dreaming about that girl.
It's a pity that Xiaoye is not the protagonist after all, but just a clown.
Does the clown deserve such an adventure?
When I found out that the girl had a boyfriend at school, I asked her to stick to herself and not change her mind because of pressure from her family. What she likes is the best.
And I even deleted it on my own initiative afterwards, not wanting to be a stumbling block between boyfriend and girlfriend.
If I did that, I would look down on myself.
I have simple moral feelings.
When I was in court, I went to the prison for a hearing. A woman in her 20s, quite pretty, and her husband had been sentenced to several years. Someone outside was collecting debts and sued us.
Normally, many women would run away from marriage in this situation, but not this man.
When I met my husband in court, the two held hands. The shackled man was jealous, and the woman also cried. She comforted her and said not to be afraid, she and her mother-in-law would find a way to repay him, and everything would be fine when he came out.
My nose felt sore at that time, and I almost cried.
This is what I imagined, a correct marriage. I’m really envious of it.
After the court session, the woman wanted to stay with her husband for a while because prison visits were rare. The judge and I agreed, and so did the prison guard inside. But a few minutes later, the prison guard in his forties outside shouted,
Let's get that woman out.
Well, he does follow the rules.
On the way back, I told the judge more than once that that woman was a good woman, but she is rare nowadays...
Perhaps there will never be another kind leader like my judge in the future.
I really don't know where my future will go.
Sometimes I think, it would be better to die, then I would have no worries.
Studying, high school entrance examination, college entrance examination, postgraduate entrance examination, civil service entrance examination...
I feel that young people today are so pitiful.
When I got here, all that was left was a murmur in the night.
Silly Xiaoye, be a kind person.
Keep the pain to yourself and give the good side to your family.
It is better for a person to suffer alone than for his parents to suffer with him.
I originally wanted to give these two months' salary to my mother, but unfortunately the staffing department has not yet settled, so the office can only postpone the salary payment.
In the government building, this is the only place where I am satisfied.
As a farmer's son, I went to the court and then to the government. I finally met my parents' requirements.
Although... they didn't give me anything, I still want to continue to be a good son.
Because there are some things that they don’t want to give me, but they don’t have the ability to give them to me, and they don’t have the ability to support me.
Their love for me is pure.
I've always understood this.
The soliloquy of a fool in a small southern town.
22.25pm on October 20, 2023, Friday.
I have to work overtime this Sunday and can't go home.
I have already arranged to work overtime next weekend!
Just live on, even if the world is not beautiful, even if you have to bear a house price of 7,000 (4,000-5,000, or even 3,000 is a lot in the neighboring counties), even if you are asked by your family in various ways.
From childhood to adulthood, I remember every one of the people who were kind to me, because the number was too small, not many. Including Xiao Kong, Xiao Cheng, Bago in the group, and the Hanhan whose family owns a supermarket (although you don’t
You helped me, but you are kind, I can feel it)...