Guan Jiyu smiled lightly, but his eyes flickered slightly, and he didn't want to look at Jiang Yingnian.
She knew that he was waiting for her, waiting for her answer. Guan Jiyu knew without looking that the man in front of him was looking at her expectantly at this moment.
"I am a selfish person. I go to protect my family and my country. Who will protect me? For reputation? What is the use of reputation to me? Reputation is just an empty shell at critical moments. Can I save my life with it?
?It can't have any effect. I'm fighting, wandering between life and death, who cares about my life and death..." Guan Jiyu bit her lip hard, and the pain spread in her mouth along with the smell of blood. She was cruel,
Said: "I'm sorry, I choose to be alone."
After saying these words, she clearly felt Jiang Yingnian's body shake. When she raised her head to look at him again, the expectation in his eyes had quickly turned into shock.
Jiang Yingnian's eyes originally had stars.
She saw the brightest star in the world slowly dimming little by little, and all his expectations for her disappeared.
Jiang Yingnian seemed to have had his soul sucked out, leaving only an empty passenger standing in a state of despair.
Guan Jiyu saw him go from full of expectations to complete disappointment in just a moment.
Han Xu, who was not far away, seemed to have noticed something, and trotted over. Seeing that Jiang Yingnian's expression was not right, he asked cautiously: "Master, what's wrong?"
Seeing that Jiang Yingnian was silent, he turned to Guan Jiyu and asked: "Jiyu, what happened?"
Jiang Yingnian stretched out his stiff hand and grabbed Han Xu's arm. Han Xu looked at the slightly trembling hand. Even though Jiang Yingnian tried hard, Han Xu only frowned slightly and did not dodge at all.
.
"Han Xu." Jiang Yingnian's voice could no longer be loud. He almost whispered, "Let's go."
Han Xu obviously didn't understand what was going on between the two of them. They seemed to be getting along quite well just now. He looked at Guan Jiyu doubtfully, but Guan Jiyu still lowered his eyebrows and remained silent.
"Jiyu, won't you come with us?" Han Xu asked again.
Just this question made Jiang Yingnian radiate the anger in his heart from the inside out. He had a sullen face, and his eyes emitted waves of cold light and chills.
Jiang Yingnian said coldly: "Han Xu, why are you asking so many questions? We are not from the same road. No matter how hard you try, you can't walk together."
"Young Master..." Han Xu was still unwilling to give in and wanted to persuade him again.
Jiang Yingnian said, "If you're lucky, we'll see if we can run into each other during the New Year and holidays. If we don't have the chance, it's very likely that we won't run into each other again if we're not from the same route."
Han Xu kept silent and silently followed Jiang Yingnian to leave.
Jiang Yingnian didn't look back. He took long steps and turned around with all his strength. He didn't look back. There was only doubt and unwillingness in his eyes, as well as the anger he was holding back. That momentum
It seemed to make everyone around him feel uneasy.
It's not like Guan Jiyu has never seen Jiang Yingnian lose his temper. From his childhood to now, Jiang Yingnian has lost countless tempers, big and small. Especially when he was in Jiang Mansion, even though he was too often in the house on weekdays.
, in addition to learning riding and shooting in the capital, I also went out and wandered around all day when I returned to Nanqin, but people in the mansion and Qingziying also knew Jiang Yingnian's temper.
When he gets angry, he just yells and screams. Whatever is at hand will be smashed to pieces by him. No one will be spared. It's not that Jiang Qing hasn't punished him for this, but if it comes to the next time, what happens?
If he is dissatisfied again, he will definitely yell and curse regardless.
The only person in the Jiang Mansion who can control him is Jiang Qing, but if he really gets angry, he still has the courage to challenge Jiang Qing.
At that time, Jiang Yingnian left Jiang Mansion in anger because she had a shouting match with Jiang Qing.
It can be seen from this that he has a very selfish temper.
Based on Guan Jiyu's understanding of him, she didn't think about what kind of reaction he would have before answering his question.
He could yell at her and blame her for changing her mind.
It didn't matter whether he scolded her for being hopeless and fearful of death, or picking up a few rocks and throwing them on the ground to vent his anger, it didn't matter. She just didn't expect that he would be so calm.
It wasn't until Jiang Yingnian and Han Xu's figures completely disappeared around the corner in front that Guan Jiyu's nose felt sore. As soon as he squatted down, he found that he was already sobbing.
Why doesn't she miss the Border Camp? Everything there has long been deeply rooted in her heart.
What she said today was like pulling something that had taken root out of her heart. All that was left was an empty hole.
Jiang Yingnian's words are correct. We say goodbye now, and if we want to see each other again, I'm afraid there won't be much chance.
People who leave the same home will also end up in such a state of long-term separation.
Guan Jiyu squatted in place for a long time. When her legs were so numb that she had no feeling at all, she thought about standing up.
The numbness in his legs lingered for a long time. Guan Jiyu randomly picked up a wooden stick on the roadside and leaned on it, hunched over and walked forward slowly.
The road had to be walked slowly, and the tears had to flow slowly. She used all her strength to walk back to her new house. Guan Jiyu stood at the door. There were two horses and a carriage at the door, but now only the carriage was left.
They really left.
Guan Jiyu moved all the large and small medicine bags from the carriage back to the house. She finally had a house of her own, which was her wish since she was a child.
Guan Jiyu probably lived in competition and elimination when she was very young. Guan Jiyu was always worried that she would be kicked out of the capital because she fell behind. She still remembers that she worked harder than anyone else at that time and spent more time practicing than anyone else every day.
It took me a long time, but I fell ill at the last moment of selection.
People are very strange. Even a very young child who stays in a fixed environment for a long time will only grow up to cater to that environment. If the growing environment is round, then she will try her best to make herself round.
Yes, if the growing environment is square, then she will definitely find a way to become square.
Even though she tried so hard, she still couldn't stay in the Northern Capital City. Does a child without parents really have no home?
Guan Jiyu once thought that if one day she had her own house, would she also be considered a family?
The house in front of her was so big that she couldn't believe that it already belonged to her.
After she put away her medicine bag, she took some silver and ran to the market.
When she came across a stall selling pots and pans, Guan Jiyu saw that the items were pretty good, so she squatted down and carefully selected them in front of the stall. She picked two sets of dishes and teacups, and also bought a pot for cooking medicine.
Medicine jars, and two more pots.
Whenever she encountered something she needed along the way, whether it was bedding on the bed or items in the room, she would give her address and have the store deliver it to her home.
She asked for two sets of everything.
After finishing all these things, Guan Jiyu returned home alone. He fell asleep on the table before he could even take a bite of food.
She has never been so tired these days, but her heart is full of energy.
It was not until night that Guan Jiyu woke up from the cold. She was the only one in such a big house. No one asked her if she was hot or cold, and no one asked if she was hungry or full. Guan Jiyu thought about how many things she had ordered during the day.
They would be delivered one after another in the next two days, so I fetched a bucket of water and placed it in the yard, lit a lamp and started cleaning the house.
She paid close attention to every corner of each room. Since the two mansions were connected together, she finished cleaning her own mansion and then ran to the next door to continue cleaning.
Guan Jiyu knew that Jiang Yingnian would almost never come back. This time they parted ways and wanted to meet again, but he didn't know when it would be.
But she still wanted to clean his place, and wipe it clean bit by bit along with the guilt in her heart.
Guan Jiyu said to himself while twisting the handkerchief: "It's strange to say that I obviously don't owe you anything, but why do I still feel a sense of shame in my heart?"
She shook off the water on her hands, continued to wipe the table, and said, "What are you unhappy about? Are you blaming me for talking?
Don't keep your word, and don't keep your word? You haven't said this to me before. You never consider others when you speak. You once said this word, and I felt uncomfortable for a long time. "
Guan Jiyu brought the bucket in from outside, poured some on the ground, and continued to squat and wipe the floor. Sweat had already soaked her neck, but the more she worked, the stronger she became. She continued to whisper: "But who told you to be
As for the baby in the Jiang family, the first thing that the eldest son worries about the most is you, but you, a bastard, always make him worry... Not to mention him, even I am always worried because of you!"
"But I don't regret it. I don't regret doing this." Guan Jiyu had a natural expression. He slowly wiped the water on the ground clean, then stood up and looked at the fruits of his labor with pleasure, and said, "Although I couldn't accept it at first.
I look like this, but recently I
I found it seemed acceptable. I thought about it. If I hadn't agreed to King Ying's deal at that time, wouldn't you, a little bastard, have died on the spot? If I had to choose between death and injury, then I definitely couldn't just watch it.
I'll kill you!"
Guan Jiyu felt a heat in his nose, and in a blink of an eye, small red blood flowers bloomed on the floor.
She touched her nose, and her fingers were stained with fresh blood. Guan Jiyu covered her nose with her sleeves. After waiting for a while, she felt that the blood had stopped slightly. She soaked the handkerchief in water and wiped the blood on the ground.
clean.
"How sad would the eldest master be if you died?"
Blood poured out drop by drop again and fell on her hand. Guan Jiyu glanced at it lightly and blocked his nose and mouth with his blood-stained sleeve.
She muffled her voice and whispered: "I will be sad too, so you can't let me owe you Jiang family more."
The lights flickered on and off, and the wind blew in waves at night. In this secluded place, no one would come.
Guan Jiyu was lying on the floor, eyes open in confusion.
She didn't know how long it took before she felt the warm current in her nose stop. Everything was still, except for the sound of her heartbeat, which was trying to attract her attention.
