After people helped Xiang Ju'an sleep, Guan Jiyu relaxed and walked alone to the courtyard. The climate had warmed up unknowingly. Even in the middle of the night, with the gentle evening breeze blowing, she didn't feel cold.
Xiang Ju'an's words made her unable to sleep, so she sat on the stone bench in the courtyard and blew the wind quietly.
A man came over from behind and stood quietly beside her for a long time before saying, "He fell asleep?"
Guan Jiyu turned around and realized it was Xiang Lincheng.
The first reaction was naturally surprise, but then I thought about it, Xiang Juan settled in the capital, how could Xiang Lincheng not know?
It's not surprising that he came here.
Guan Jiyu said: "Well, I drank some wine and have fallen asleep now."
The events of the past two days were already disturbing enough, and when Guan Jiyu saw him again, his mood became even more complicated.
Xiang Lincheng wore thin clothes and rich sleeves. When he was away from Beizhong, his skin became whiter and his features became more picturesque.
Guan Jiyu's almond-shaped eyes flashed, he hesitated, and then said: "Don't you have anything to say to me?"
Xiang Lincheng sat on the stone bench opposite her, looking at the lights in the courtyard, and said, "I know, I still owe you an explanation."
"It's all up to you to explain or not." Guan Jiyu smiled self-deprecatingly and said, "But the only thing I want to know is, what is the relationship between us now? In your heart, what is our relationship?
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Xiang Lincheng was stunned and immediately said: "I love you, Ji Yu, don't you still understand my feelings for you?"
Guan Jiyu looked back at him quietly, stared at his face seriously for a long time, and then said: "Where is that girl Jin Chan?"
The moment she asked this question, her heart beat suddenly faster. While she was waiting for his answer, her heart beat like a drum, which made her panic.
"Jin Chan..." Xiang Lincheng recalled deeply for a moment and said slowly: "Both my parents died at the border. A few years later, my eldest brother went to the north to garrison, leaving me alone at home. Later, my brother arranged
When I went to study at Mo Yun Academy, I packed my bags and reported alone... It was actually very hard at that time."
Xiang Lincheng's brows were stained with a hint of bitterness, and he said: "Except for my brother, I don't have any relatives in this world. My eldest brother is busy with war planning and command, and rarely has the opportunity to visit me."
When Guan Jiyu heard this, he no longer wanted to hear any more.
In this long passage he said, not a single word was mentioned about Jin Chan, but every sentence paved the way for Jin Chan.
Xiang Lincheng continued: "Jin Channa's father is a medicine farmer in the suburbs of Beijing. At that time, they specially transported some medicinal materials for the academy. We met when we were young and we are more like relatives."
Every word he spoke was like beads. Guan Jiyu closed his eyes slightly, trying to string the beads together into a complete past.
Guan Jiyu bit his lip and did not dare to let go. He obviously did not dare to continue listening, but he was afraid of missing any word or part.
"One winter, I caught a cold and lay in my dormitory in the academy, shivering with fever. In my daze, someone put medicine into my mouth and put a wet handkerchief on my forehead." His voice became softer.
Rourou said: "It turns out that Jin Chan came with her father to deliver medicinal materials that day. She knew that I was alone in the capital and had no one to take care of me, so she volunteered to come over and prepare medicine for me."
"I still dare not forget those kindnesses. I want to repay her, but I am always struggling with how to repay her."
Guan Jiyu raised his eyes, faced him calmly, and said, "That's not kindness, it's the feelings of childhood sweethearts."
The bitter smile on Xiang Lincheng's face deepened, and he said: "That's right, but no matter what, she is married now."
Xiang Lincheng lowered his head, pondered for a moment, and said: "Her father was critically ill two years ago, and she was the one she couldn't let go of before he died. Fortunately, her husband is also an honest man, and there is no problem in trusting him for the rest of his life."
"Then are you sorry?" She whispered, her voice suddenly hoarse.
Xiang Lincheng just remained silent.
"Jiyu, I won't hide anything from you." His eyes were extremely sincere and he said, "I just want you to understand my past and what kind of person Jin Chan is."
Guan Jiyu suppressed the emotions in his heart, forced a smile and said: "It's okay to understand you, but what does it have to do with me if I understand others?"
"I don't know what to say, Jiyu, one day you will understand." There was a trace of sadness in his eyes.
Another person walked in from the direction of the gate and said, "Second Young Master, it seems that there is your friend outside the door. He has been standing waiting for you. Why don't you go and take a look?"
"Is it Jin Chan?" Guan Jiyu felt helpless and sad. After the last farewell, there was not a single day in which she was not tortured at the northern border. Her various imaginations and ten thousand guesses could not be justified.
Explain the existence of golden cicada.
"You also said that she is already married!" Guan Jiyu growled. This was the first time in her life that she could not control her emotions.
Xiang Lincheng had already stood up. Even though he heard her heartbreaking words, he could not stop his steps.
"Sorry, Yoshiha."
He hesitated for a moment, and finally walked out the door without looking back.
That night, Guan Jiyu did not return to his room, but sat blankly in the courtyard.
The stone bench was cold, and Guan Jiyu's legs, as well as his whole heart, gradually became cold and numb.
She has been very concerned about face since she was a child, so what else does she have? She has nothing, it seems like she only has this ridiculous amount of dignity left.
Guan Jiyu tried hard to pull up the corners of her mouth, but her lips were already chapped. She licked them, and her mouth was filled with a faint smell of blood.
"Guan Jiyu, Guan Jiyu, did you see that this time, you are still the one left behind."
She looked in the direction of the door and murmured: "Are you destined to be abandoned by others in this life?"
Early the next morning, Xiang Ju'an said it was time to go back, but Guan Jiyu could only pretend to be nonchalant. After saying goodbye to him, he returned to the north.
After a sleepless night and fatigue from the journey, she went straight back to her room and fell asleep after arriving at the main city of Yanjiang Corridor.
I don't know how long she slept for. When she woke up, Xiao Qingyuan was standing by her bed. When she opened her eyes, the worry on her childish face dissipated.
Xiao Qingyuan breathed a sigh of relief and said: "Master Guan, you are finally awake. Do you know how long you have been sleeping?!"
Guan Jiyu stood up and asked doubtfully: "Have I slept for a long time?"
Xiao Qingyuan did not answer the question, but sat down next to her and said with an ambiguous expression: "There's something wrong, Mr. Guan, it's not right."
Guan Jiyu said: "What's wrong? What's wrong?"
Xiao Qingyuan came closer, blinked and said: "I always feel that it is strange for you to come back this time. Mr. Guan, could it be that you had a quarrel with Mr. Jiang? Did he also go to the capital?"
What is this and what?!
Guan Jiyu smiled helplessly and said feebly: "What does this have to do with him? Xiao Qingyuan, let me tell you seriously, Mr. Guan and I are just colleagues in the army, not the relationship you think."
"Tsk, tsk, tsk, that's someone else. Your lover in Beijing must have had a conflict with you, that's why you slept so depressed all day and night!" Xiao Qingyuan said with certainty.
Guan Jiyu was told what was on his mind, so he lowered his head and remained silent.
Seeing this, Xiao Qingyuan was afraid that Guan Jiyu would be sad again, so he put his arms around her shoulders and said, "Okay, okay, don't be sad. He's just a stinky man. If he makes you unhappy, don't talk to him."
She paused and then said: "It's not as good as Mr. Jiang. I see that you are very happy with Mr. Jiang. Why don't you consider Mr. Jiang?"
"No, no, no." Guan Jiyu waved his hands repeatedly and said, "How can it be possible for me and him? We are naturally incompatible and cannot be together!"
"Are they incompatible with each other?" Xiao Qingyuan was very confused and said: "He ran such a long way just to see you. What is the conflict with him?"
Guan Jiyu was stopped for a moment and was speechless in a panic. He had to change the topic and asked Xiao Qingyuan, "What about you? I haven't been here these two days. How are you and your brother Lanlan?"
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It's okay not to say it. When he mentioned He Lanlan, Xiao Qingyuan curled his lips and stared, and said angrily: "He? I don't even want to say it. I don't ask for anything else now, as long as I can make that Feng Yan hurry up."
Once you leave here, I will burn incense!"
Despite her young age, Xiao Qingyuan always talks in the same way. She said in an old-fashioned way: "If the man didn't chase me, there would be a lot of trouble. I'm really looking for trouble for myself here!"
Guan Jiyu also found himself in trouble, saying: "But let me tell you, you are too young, right? If you were two years older, you would still be about the same. If He Lan really wants to have something with you, he will look worse than a beast."
When Xiao Qingyuan heard Guan Jiyu say that she was young, she quickly puffed up her chest and said, "Can you please stop treating me like a child? In Hechiliu, there are many girls about my age who have already gotten married.
Okay? Do I have to grow up to be an old girl and no one wants me anymore before I start to worry?"
An old girl no one wants... Guan Jiyu couldn't help but fall silent again.
Seeing that she was interested, Xiao Qingyuan explained: "Don't think too much about it, I didn't mean it that way."
Guan Jiyu said that she was not unhappy because of this sentence. She thought about it and said, "Actually, you have a sentence that is quite right."
"If he makes me unhappy, then don't talk to him!"
On the way back to the north, Guan Jiyu made up his mind that if he couldn't move forward on one road, he might as well retreat to where he was.
She doesn't want to fight with others. If she needs to fight for something, don't take it!
Xiao Qingyuan's words solidified her idea. Guan Jiyu suddenly felt brighter and asked, "Is there food? I'm hungry."
Xiao Qingyuan said: "Yes, yes! I'll get it for you!"
Guan Jiyu did not stay in the room anymore. The spring breeze had already blown to the northern border. She moved the table outside the house and ate her meal in the sun.
"Guan Xiaomei?" He Lanlan clasped his hands behind his back, wandered to her side, and said, "Are you lovelorn?"
"Pfft~" Guan Jiyu choked suddenly and said unnaturally: "What kind of love are you missing? Stop talking nonsense, who am I in love with?"
He raised the corners of his lips, pointed at his eyes, smiled and said: "My eyes cannot see anything else accurately, but they are best at seeing things like men and women."
Guan Jiyu stuffed a big mouthful of rice into his mouth and pretended to be calm: "It doesn't happen."
"Oops." He Lanlan sighed and said regretfully: "Some people really have no vision. We Jiyu are so outstanding, but there are others who are blind and don't know how to cherish them."
"Alas! This certain Lincheng has no vision!"
"Pfft~" Guan Jiyu choked again. This time she was caught off guard and coughed violently, causing her face to turn red.
She patted her chest vigorously and stammered: "You...you also know?"
He Lanlan looked proud and said: "I have known it for a long time. It seems that there are not many people in the concentration camp who don't know about you two?"
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Guan Jiyu felt a chill running down her spine. She asked herself how she could be known to everyone because she was usually very low-key.
