Any time I look back, what I see and feel will never be the same as what I saw and felt at the beginning.
Xu Yishan in the snowy fields of the past and Xu Yishan in the thatched cottage by the lake today are separated not only by time and experience, but also by a huge gap in cultivation level.
Therefore, looking back at the beginning, at this moment, what Xu Yishan saw and felt was actually much more than before.
However, something is still like a seed buried deep in the ground, lacking certain conditions and unable to break out of the ground.
Xu Yishan was not depressed at all. As a heavenly disciple, his teacher taught him not only cultivation, but also life.
After recovering from an indescribable tranquility, Xu Yishan started writing again and wrote these words on the paper:
"The teacher is the Tao. Without a teacher, there is no Tao."
"Practitioners, the first priority is the Dharma. Master, it is the Dharma, it is the Dharma, and it is also the Tao."
This is Xu Yishan’s understanding of “teacher’s dignity”.
This understanding comes from personal experience.
He and many of his peers inside and outside the family have similar origins, similar talents, and other similarities. The only difference is that he was accepted as a disciple by the teacher, while the others followed the normal direction and moved forward in the family inheritance.
We walked, slowly, until we were far away from each other.
When condensing Qi, he was several years ahead of them.
When it came to Tongmai, they were ahead of him for decades, and they were also condescending to him for decades.
But at that time, neither they nor Xu Yishan knew that although they were practicing together, they were not actually climbing the same mountain.
So the comparison between high and low actually doesn't mean much.
On the other hand, it becomes more and more difficult the further you go.
The state of Tongmai may be the smoothest path in their entire cultivation process.
On Xu Yishan's side, Tongmai Realm is laying the foundation, developing and expanding the foundation.
Under the guidance of his teacher, he took a path that his teacher never had the chance to take.
After decades of ups and downs, ups and downs, ups and downs, all Xu Yishan's dignity and spirit have been worn away.
The experiences and the various back and forths in my state of mind during this period are really difficult to describe in words.
Experiences like this, in the torture, will either turn into dross, or be refined into steel.
What we look at is not only whether we have survived, but also whether we have gained some kind of improvement in the process of suffering.
Only by constantly rising and rising can we turn suffering into melting. Otherwise, suffering will always be suffering. Even if we grit our teeth and fight for our lives, most of it will be wasted.
A few decades can definitely be considered a "long" time, especially the next twenty or thirty years.
Affection.
Friendly negative.
Even Xu Yishan himself felt a little let down.
But his practice did not fail him.
In other words, the guidance given by the teacher did not fail him.
Xu Yishan was carrying heavier and heavier burdens on his back, bending his waist that was getting harder and harder to straighten up. He staggered up step by step with difficulty and indifference, his head lowered.
Until that night, without knowing it, he actually reached the top of the mountain.
In the endless darkness, the sudden light awakened his eyes that had been closed, and also awakened his heart that had been closed.
When he raised his head in a state of indifference and confusion.
That moment.
The stars are bright and the moon is bright.
The boundless and beautiful sky seemed to be created just for him.
Xu Yishan stood on the top of the mountain and stared blankly.
Also unconsciously, his waist, which had been bent for who knows how long, straightened up little by little, and the baggage he had been carrying on his back had already been integrated into his body unconsciously.
in life.
Once upon a time, it was an unbearable burden.
But now, it has become the backbone and strength that supports him.
At that moment, whether he was sad or happy, crying or laughing, Xu Yishan can no longer recall it.
It's not that I really can't recall it.
But at that time, he didn't know.
Perhaps, there is sadness, joy, crying, and laughter.
Sad, happy, crying, smiling, confused, sober, crazy, calm...
And when all those emotions gradually subsided, standing on the top of the mountain was a monk who had just achieved enlightenment.
It was at that moment that Xu Yishan truly understood what it meant to be a monk.
To use some expressions in storybooks, after entering the enlightenment realm, Xu Yishan seemed to have had an adventure.
In fact, there were no adventures, all he had were the previous encounters.
It was those encounters that made Xu Yishan advance by leaps and bounds in the state of enlightenment, like driving a small boat down the rolling Nu River.
All he has to do is steer the ship.
Cultivation, practice, for others it becomes more difficult and slower as they practice.
But after he got through the journey of unblocking the meridians, it suddenly changed from difficult to easy, slow to fast, and at a speed that was so fast that he could hardly believe it, he reached the level of success, and then even more.
It rushed past without stopping at all.
He rushed directly into the ground.
Turn around and look down.
Within the family and outside the family, those peers or elders who once walked in front of him with a proud attitude have now been left behind by him.
There was no one else in front of me.
Xu Yishan didn't look down for too long, or rather, he just turned around and glanced casually?
After one glance, everything disappeared.
Xu Yishan turned around again. Before he could ponder for a long time, his teacher carried him to the spiritual realm.
Dayao Mountain Spiritual Realm.
What is it like to be accepted as a disciple by a heaven-level monk?
It's a pity that there is no Zhihu in this world, otherwise Xu Yishan would probably be able to stand up and answer.
The answer is:
Give you the most brilliant teaching.
Give you the most profound inheritance.
In addition, give you the best external conditions.
A place rich in spiritual energy is a spiritual land.
Wherever mountains and rivers gather, there are countless spiritual places.
The spiritual realm is essentially a spiritual land, but it goes beyond the spiritual realm. In the spiritual realm, "spiritual energy gathers and flows by itself."
The entire Southern Continent spans countless thousands of miles and countless countries. It is nothing more than the five spiritual realms and the five holy lands.
The spiritual energy in the spiritual land is divergent.
Therefore, although the vegetation in the spiritual land is beautiful, in fact, people do not benefit much from it.
Of course, this is relative to the spiritual realm.
In the spiritual realm of Dayao Mountain, Xu Yishan is neither the host nor the guest, but simply lives in a sojourn way, living in seclusion and not leaving easily, or even only living in seclusion without leaving easily.
In twenty years of living in the spiritual realm, he has not known more than two people from Dayao Mountain.
That is true hidden cultivation.
In the spiritual realm, Xu Yishan's practice is like a fish in water.
And it was a fish that had been thirsty for a long time and jumped into the boundless water.
Drink plenty.
Travel freely.
Most monks in the world feel like they are stuck in a quagmire when they enter the earthly realm, and it is difficult to move forward even a step. But for Xu Yishan, after entering the spiritual realm, he completed the first and second stages of the earthly realm in a smoother way than the previous enlightenment realm.
middle section.
"The dignity of a teacher."
"The earth is as virtuous as the sea."
"God's grace is mighty."
Xu Yishan has already understood the first two.
And the last one has yet to be experienced by him.
On this day, Xu Yishan slowly wrote these words in the thatched cottage, slowly wrote, slowly recalled, and slowly thought.
He had been slow before.
Once upon a time, he also had a fast time.
But now, whether it's fast or slow, it's all practice and life.
Xu Yishan no longer cares about speed.
A highly accomplished monk is only one step away from a true "great monk".
At this step, Xu Yishan believed in both the teacher and himself.
From the beginning of his practice to the present, the teacher has arranged everything for him, from condensing Qi to opening meridians, from unblocking meridians to opening his orifices, and from human level to earth level.
"From the earthly steps to the heavenly steps, you completely need to cross this step by yourself. Yishan, can you cross it?" The teacher said to him that day.
Xu Yishan's answer that day was, "Teacher, I can!"
And today, at the end of the day, before leaving the study house and thatched cottage, the last words Xu Yishan wrote were:
There are flat beaches and dangerous shoals along the way, water and mountains all the way.
If there were no mountains and rivers, how could we enjoy leisurely viewing and laughing?