Chapter Fifty-Three Lamentation Has Nowhere to Appeal
Prince Xia's Mansion, lunch
"Sir, what's wrong? But the food doesn't taste good?" Xia Jingsheng asked when he saw that Zhou Ran had only taken a few bites after a long time.
Only then did Zhou Ranzhuo come to his senses and hurriedly responded: "How could it be? The palace is full of delicacies, but I don't know why today, I am always in a restless mood, always feeling that something will happen." Zhou Ranzhuo covered his heart.
"What are you talking about, sir? Is it sad... or happy?" Lu Chaoya interrupted, looking at Zhou Ranzhuo and Xia Jingyan with "meaningful" eyes.
Of course, everyone knows what Lu Chaoya means.
Naturally, Xia Jingyan would not suffer such a depressing situation. This is what good sisters use to trick her! So she said without blushing, "Second brother has passed the crown, so he is married, right?"
Xia Jingxuan spurted out a mouthful of rice.
What a good sister!
"Okay, there are no such things as sad and happy events. The palace is peaceful. What can happen? Sir, I'm afraid you are tired from the past few days, so I will take more rest today. Tomorrow I will hunt, and you will have to show off your magic skills." Xia Jingsheng shook his head helplessly.
Normally, Xia Jingsheng would have laughed at it, but Zhou Ran's mention of his death anniversary this morning ruined his good mood for several days.
Seeing Xia Jingsheng's displeasure, the other people stopped talking and just quietly picked up the food in their hands. After eating, they all went about their own business.
It rained today. It was drizzling outside the courtyard, with gusty cold wind and occasional thunder. After lunch, the three members of the Xia family went back to their pavilions to sleep. Xia Jingyan didn't know where he was hiding.
Seeing no one around, Zhou Ranzhuo had no choice but to go back to his small courtyard and look out the window. Even the servants who usually cleaned the house had returned to the house. It was really cold, desolate and deserted.
"Cousin, don't catch a cold." Gu Yun put some clothes on Zhou Ranzhuo.
Zhou Ranzhuo looked back at him, feeling even more lonely. He was also like this in the Zhou Palace, with only Gu Yun by his side. But luckily, no matter where he went, he would always have Gu Yun with him.
"What's wrong, cousin?" Gu Yun asked.
Zhou Ranzhuo sighed, "It's nothing, it's just that it's rare to have such a lonely day after arriving. Normally, it's lively and bustling, but now it's suddenly quiet. It's like I suddenly returned to the Zhou Palace again." Zhou Ranzhuo sighed.
Ranzhuo smiled bitterly.
"The days are still long. Cousin, you have to get used to it. People who want to ascend the throne are lonely." Gu Yun said softly.
The word "royal" is really harsh.
Zhou Ranzhuo looked back at Gu Yun. He wanted to tell Gu Yun everything he knew today. He wanted to tell Gu Yun that even the flesh and blood of the Xia family hated Xia Jingzhi. He wanted to tell Gu Yun that Xia Jingyan also had the same feelings when Yihe was killed.
Regret that she couldn't stop him! A few children couldn't stop Xia Jingzhi's cavalry from crossing the Yi River. He wanted to tell Gu Yun that they didn't want to either... He wanted to say that he didn't seem to hate the Xia family so much... because of them
There is no way...
That was Xia Jingzhi's fault alone...why should others have to bear it?
In the past, Zhou Ranzhuo felt that father's debt to son was a natural thing. When the Xia army attacked Yihe, he saw Xia Jingsheng and Xia Jingxuan sitting majestically on their horses. But now, Zhou Ranzhuo doesn't know what to do...
Prince Xia's Mansion is the happiest place Zhou Ranzhuo has ever stayed in. He doesn't want to destroy this place. Besides, there are people he loves most here...
However, his clan members were dead and the Zhou Kingdom was destroyed, so Zhou Ranzhuo was afraid that the dead souls would poke his spine.
Just like Xia Jingyan said, the blood in her body destined that she would never be able to break up with Xia Jingzhi in this life. The same goes for Xia Jingsheng and the others. They could not change the fact that they were Xia Jingzhi's children. No matter how much they hated him, they could only call him
A word from father...
"Cousin? Cousin?" Gu Yun raised his hand and waved it in front of Zhou Ranzhuo, "Are you crying?"
"Ah..." Zhou Ranzhuo finally realized what he was doing and wiped his eyes with his hand, "No, there is sand in his eyes."
"Oh." Gu Yun agreed and turned to leave.
Zhou Ranzhuo grabbed him again. He wanted to tell Gu Yun, but Gu Yun turned around in confusion.
"Gu Yun, let me tell you something! I..." The words came to his lips, but Zhou Ranzhuo couldn't say them out.
"Huh?" Gu Yun was still confused, but Zhou Ranzhuo still hesitated for a long time and couldn't say anything.
"I..." Zhou Ranzhuo still gave up, "I'm tired, you should go back and rest." Zhou Ranzhuo let go of Gu Yun's hand.
"Okay, cousin, let's rest. I'm going back." Although Gu Yun still didn't know, he didn't ask any more questions and left.
Zhou Ranzhuo watched Gu Yun leave.
Back then, Gu Yun's family also died in Yihe. If he had told him that he no longer hated the Xia family, Gu Yun would have hated him to death. But if he didn't tell him, Zhou Ranzuo was feeling aggrieved, so Li and Yuan Gong should meet each other.
The day was getting closer day by day, and Zhou Ranzhuo was afraid that he would not be able to do it then.
After a long time, Zhou Ranzhuo decided to tell Gu Yun about the matter. If he couldn't tell it in person, he would write a letter.
Zhou Ranzhuo thought about it for a long time and wrote five full pages. He didn't dare to send it, so he asked the book boy to send it to him. He waited for Gu Yun in the room, and when Gu Yun came, he scolded him like crazy.
But Gu Yun didn't come.
An hour, two hours, until it got dark, Gu Yun didn't come. Zhou Ranzhuo was impatient to wait, so he put on his clothes and tiptoed out of the door, and lay down in the gap by Gu Yun's window to take a look.
Gu Yun sat on the couch, staring blankly at the pieces of paper over and over again. Although Zhou Ranzhuo wrote a lot, it was not enough for him to read it for a whole day. Zhou Ranzhuo knew that Gu Yun, he might...
Disappointed.
Zhou Ranzhuo wanted to explain to him when he entered, but the moment he entered, Gu Yun immediately turned off the lights and got into bed, as if he had seen a ghost, and took the papers with him.
Got in.
"I'm already asleep! Hehe hehe..." Gu Yun deliberately pretended to smile, but Zhou Ranzhuo could hear the cry in his voice.
"Gu Yun, you go ahead and scold me. Even if you scold me... you can hit me a few times or kill me." Zhou Ranzhuo stood at the door, not daring to go in and face Gu Yun.
"What are you talking about, cousin? I...why am I beating you..." Gu Yun lowered his head, crying and laughing.
"Have you read the letter?"
"I saw..."
Zhou Ranzhuo's heart sank.
"I understand..." Gu Yun's weak words came from the darkness.
Zhou Ranzhuo raised his head in disbelief.
"Cousin is tired, cousin is tired..."
"Gu Yun..."
"Go back, don't worry about me, I'm tired too, so sleepy..."
"Ayun, I really..."
"Shut up!" Gu Yun couldn't help shouting, and he revealed a pair of red eyes from under the quilt, "Zhou Ranzhuo, we have come here, so many people have sacrificed their lives for you, you now
Tell me you want to give up? I know you are suffering, I know you are tired, am I not tired? Those who died in Yihe were also my parents and brothers! My whole family is gone too! You said you want revenge, okay, I
I'm still following you. No matter how dangerous the court is now and how unfavorable it is for us, I will accompany you through it. But what about you? A Zheng is still in Xijiang, his life or death is uncertain, and Yuan Yu is still in Beijiang. The people who passed by are neither human nor ghosts, and who are we?
You're not tired, who among us doesn't have feelings? I just think that you are tired and want to take a rest, we still have room, but do you have to say nothing!"
"I'm sorry..." Zhou Ranzhuo lowered his head.
"I'm sorry, can you spare my family's life?"
Zhou Ranzhuo looked at Gu Yun secretly. Gu Yun bit his lip and was trying his best to endure it.
"Don't take my words seriously." Gu Yun wiped his tears.
"No……"
"there is nothing?"
"It's not serious." Zhou Ranzhuo lowered his head, knowing that he had committed a heinous crime.
"I read the letter, and I know what happened to the Xia family in the past few years. I believe you, and I also believe they can't do anything, but... I'm sorry, I don't know what kind of reply I should give you now. I don't know what I should do.
What to do, let me think about it..."
Gu Yun made no more noise and covered his head with another quilt. Zhou Ranzhuo stayed for a while, but Gu Yun still didn't say a word. Zhou Ranzhuo had no choice but to leave first.
Why didn't it stop raining today? It had been raining for a whole day. Zhou Ranzhuo walked into the rain and let the heavy rain wash over him and wake him up.
But what about Gu Yun? What should he do...
He has always been very sober, so he can protect himself from all dangers. He can tolerate so-called emotions, whether they are good or bad, without saying a word. But now... is it necessary?
Has he become confused...?
Zhou Ranzhuo really wants to forget all this, or... commit suicide directly! Never have to face all this again!
But, no.
…
In the evening, Gu Yun still came out. His eyes were red and swollen, and there was still a slight pain when he opened them. However, General Gu, who usually wanted to save face and suffer, didn't care anymore - anyway, in his small courtyard, he usually
No one will come except Zhou Ranzhuo.
The night wind evoked a chill in his heart. He raised his hand to catch the peach blossoms that had been blown down by the cool breeze after the rain. The water on the flowers slid down his wrists and into his sleeves...
Twenty years passed, unforgettable yet still like a dream. The years slipped through the fingers unknowingly. When Gu Yun thought about it now, he suddenly realized that he could not remember anything meaningful he had done in these years. He said
Revenge without revenge, meritorious deeds without deeds, this life, this life, seems to have no meaning...
Perhaps, it is somewhat meaningful for Zhou Ranzhuo to love someone with all his strength.
Gu Yun smiled bitterly. He really couldn't tell the difference. He wanted to follow Zhou Ranzhuo forever, but he really couldn't let go of the endless memorial tablets in the ancestral hall. He even remembered his brother's blood splashing on his face.
temperature.
Gu Yun sighed, what was originally the silence was filled with misery, until... a strange "little deer" popped out of the courtyard, probing its head.
No, it’s not a deer! It’s a little girl carrying a bamboo basket!
"Who!" Gu Yun exclaimed while hiding behind a tree, hurriedly covering up his face which was red from crying.
The little girl also seemed to be frightened and hid behind the round door, but after a while she poked her head out again and walked forward. Gu Yun was sweating behind her.
"Don't come here... this... it's this late at night, what kind of girl are you from? Men and women are not allowed to have sex. I don't want to ruin your reputation. If you have anything to say, just say it there. Don't...
Don't come here..."
Suddenly there was silence again. Gu Yungang thought that the girl was gone, so he looked back, but found that she was still there, and hurriedly hid again. However, this look seemed to wake the girl up, and she remembered to speak.
"Oh! I'm sorry to disturb Mr. Gu. I am Miss Yanyu's personal maid. I came into the house a few days ago to accompany the girl and serve the prince together. I dare not come to see Mr. Gu during the day for fear that someone will gossip. Tonight
It’s because no one came here after asking around clearly…”
The girl's voice was as sweet as a silver bell, but it frightened Gu Yun even more.
No one is here! No one is asking specifically! What do you mean... what is this going on!
"Girl, what do you mean you're here for? In fact, if you have something to do, you can just write a note and hand it in instead of risking it at night."
"Mr. Gu, don't be afraid, I'm not here to do bad things... I won't go there, but I can always see you in the house on weekdays. I really didn't see you today, so I asked the princess after hearing that you
I seemed to be in a bad mood, and I didn’t eat much for lunch or dinner. I was afraid that you would be hungry at night, so I made some cakes and sent them to you. I didn’t have any bad intentions! When you were suppressing bandits earlier, you had
I just wanted to thank you for helping an aunt in my family..."
Gu Yun quietly poked his head out. He never thought that someone would care about him so carefully. He had done a lot of good deeds, but this was the first time he repaid his kindness.
"This...it's late today after all. I have to go on errands tomorrow, so I'll go back first. I put the food box here..."
The girl put down her things and ran away in small steps. Gu Yun could only see her light blue back. He walked forward slowly. There was a food box where the girl was just now, and next to the food box, the girl's purse was dropped.
, with two very delicate and beautiful words embroidered on it:
"Shen'er..."
Gu Yun raised his head and smiled, something seemed to have changed in his heart, and he looked towards the distance where she left...