Chapter 377 It’s hard to restrain the malice in my heart
After dinner, it was getting dark outside.
The banquet was moved away, but everyone was still talking. There were many people in the hall, but it didn't feel noisy.
People were already going out one after another to watch the moon in the square.
The Lin sisters socialized for a while. Lin Zhifang came back, pulling her two sisters and whispering: "Let's go outside to get some air?! There are some things I want to tell you."
Lin Zhixiu smiled, "Okay! Speaking of which, I have never enjoyed the moonlight with my two sisters!"
There are also benches on the square, and there are already many people sitting here to watch the moon. Under the main hall, there is also a music pool, where music craftsmen play and sing.
Lin Zhifang said, "Hey, there are a lot of people there, it's really lively. Sisters, let's go to the high platform over there. It's quieter and the view is better."
Lin Zhixiu looked at it and nodded, "Okay, sister is really thoughtful. It's high and hidden there, and it's the best place to watch the moon. You are so good at choosing a place!"
Lin Zhifang's voice was a little harsh, "Let's go! The light is darker here, so be careful where you step."
As the three sisters walked that way, the number of people around them gradually became less and less.
Lin Zhirong walked a few steps, turned his head inadvertently, and saw a red figure under the lamp over there in the distance, who seemed to be that person...
She immediately stopped and said, "I, I saw an acquaintance and I have something important to say to him. You go first. I will look for you later."
Lin Zhifang nodded, this is better, "Then go back quickly!"
Now, there were only two people, Lin Zhifang and Lin Zhixiu. Under the high platform, there were only two elderly palace maids guarding them. When they saw them coming, they bent down and saluted without saying a word.
Palace lanterns were also sparsely lit around the high platform and on the steps. Coupled with the clear night sky, the light was not too dark.
Two people came up carrying skirts.
Unexpectedly, there is also a table on the high platform with some snacks and wine, probably for the convenience of people who come here to admire the moon. "This banquet is really thoughtful, and every detail is well arranged."
"Well, yes! The Queen, you are really a thoughtful person." Lin Zhixiu spoke and walked around on the high platform.
The moon has just risen from the east. It is big and round, with a yellow halo.
The capital city shrouded in moonlight looks like a dream.
After admiring the moon for a while, they returned to the bench in front of the desk. The two of them sat down and looked at the sky together.
"It's so beautiful!" Lin Zhixiu exclaimed.
"Well, yes! Third sister, there is wine here, let's have another drink!?"
"Sister, you drank a lot today. I wonder if you still have this hobby when you are in the boudoir? Is it because you are not comfortable in the Shen family and want to drink to relieve your sorrow?" Lin Zhixiu winked again.
Laugh at her.
"..." Lin Zhifang looked at her, trying hard to hide the coldness in her heart. "Third sister, do you know that these words could really be a stab at my sister's heart..."
"Ah?! I'm sorry, I was joking with my sister!" Lin Zhixiu apologized.
"You, you really don't know how to be funny!" Lin Zhifang laughed at her angrily.
But she stopped smiling and spoke softly: "The Shen family, the two generations of mothers-in-law, are very polite people. Now, all the daily housework in the house is handed over to me. The two of them have never interfered. For a long time,
I can make my own decisions on major procedures."
Lin Zhifang straightened her back. Although it was not difficult to get the housekeeper's power, it was not easy to do everything so well.
"Your brother-in-law, he works steadily, respects me, and never lets me worry or get angry. No matter who looks at me, apart from not having a son, everything else is going smoothly."
She stood up, poured a glass of wine, drank it, and turned to look at the sky, "Me! When I was in the boudoir, my grandmother valued me and my mother loved me. Among all the children of the Lin family, I am the most favored."
He picked up the wine flask and poured two more glasses of wine.
"Ordinarily, I should be as confident and arrogant as my eldest aunt! I shouldn't care about common people and things! But I have a very petty temper. When I look at people and things, I am willing to speculate, analyze the pros and cons, and weigh them.
Gains and losses. I see clearly the problems of my grandmother and mother, and even my aunt’s problems. And I know what they should do best to make themselves live a better life.”
At this moment, she didn't know what she was feeling. She picked up two glasses of wine and walked to Lin Zhixiu, "How about a drink with my sister!?"
Both wine glasses were raised in front of Lin Zhixiu...
Lin Zhixiu picked up a glass at random.
Lin Zhifang raised the glass, gave a slight toast, and drank it casually. Regardless of whether Lin Zhixiu drank or not, she walked over and poured another glass.
Holding the wine glass, she looked back at Lin Zhixiu, "Third sister, although I haven't been able to give birth to a son yet, my mother-in-law and husband are neither in a hurry nor in a hurry... So, not only others, but myself also feel that I am doing well.
!”
Walking over, she sat next to Lin Zhixiu, looking up at the sky, with a hint of confusion in her expression: "It's just that in my heart, I don't know why, but sometimes it's so uncomfortable. Because...many things are...
Not my intention."
"I don't understand?" Lin Zhixiu took a sip of wine.
"For example, I have to do a lot of things I don't like and say a lot of things that I don't want to say. If I want to lose my temper, I have to not only restrain myself but also laugh! My mind has to keep spinning, spinning and spinning, which makes me tired...
…Sometimes, after laughing for a day, my face freezes.”
Lin Zhixiu seemed to be fascinated by what she heard, looking at her with some pity, and drank the wine unknowingly.
Lin Zhifang added: "Lin Zhixuan, I hate her very much! I hate her so much... But every time, I have to coax her and find a way to prevent her from embarrassing herself. Also, Lin Zhirong... Haha, since she was a child, she has
She is jealous of me as the eldest daughter, and thinks that her looks and talents are ten times better than mine. Her clothes are also beyond my comparison... Haha, I really can't compete with her!"
She suddenly stood up, walked to the edge of the stage, and said loudly: "Every time, I act like an eldest sister, tolerate her, accommodate her, and praise her... But in fact... I have never looked down on her!
"At the last sentence, the voice suddenly became louder.
He waved his hand in the air, seeming to exude the depression suppressed in his chest.
"Sister, where am I?" Lin Zhixiu asked softly with misty eyes.
"You?!" Lin Zhifang turned around and looked deeply at the beauty under the moon.
Then she turned back and looked at the bright moon in the sky, "Third sister, you are so beautiful! Just like the moon in the sky right now!"
Lin Zhixiu did not answer the call.
"To tell you the truth, the one I envy the most, admire the most, and cannot understand the most is you..."
"Me?!" Lin Zhixiu asked.
"Yes, you! You are free and can do whatever you want! No hard work, no hard work, no compromise. When you are happy, you can please everyone. When you are unhappy, even your grandparents dare to contradict and threaten you. For those you like, do it for them
I do a lot of people I don’t like, but they have power and are not afraid. Hehehehe..."
She smiled a little madly.
"You can treat your husband so wantonly! But he treats you like a treasure... isn't it just that you are beautiful? This is a huge advantage, right?!"
Her body was swaying a little and she was drunk. "Even people who don't know you, even people you don't care about at all! You... never do anything for them... But! As long as they see you, they will treat you.
Much appreciation and tolerance. You..."
Lin Zhixiu's voice was a little weak, "I... have no father and many mothers, my grandfather and uncle plotted against each other, my grandmother didn't like it, and the head aunt was mean. Some people didn't kill me because... they wanted me to die more miserably.
.Are you envious? Jealous...ah..."
He didn't say any more. From the sound, he seemed to have fallen to the ground.
Lin Zhifang was not surprised, nor did she look back, "Oh, yes! Yes... you have nothing but a face, and you have come to this day. And I study hard and take care of myself carefully. Before going to bed every night
, I have to go through the whole day's events in my mind twice. I always feel like... one wrong step and everything is lost..."
The scene was silent. In the distance, there seemed to be the sound of silk and bamboo, and the shouts of people...
"The only thing I can't do in my life is you! Even if it is, let me relax for a while and let the malice in my heart go away! Otherwise, I won't be able to pretend anymore..."
She didn't look back and was about to go down the steps...
But after walking a few steps, I felt a pain on the back of my neck, my vision went dark, and I fell unconscious.
I have an erectile dysfunction. Today is the third day. I feel uncomfortable, but it’s not that terrible...