After Shen Xing finished the phone call, he walked out of the bathroom and looked at the bed.
Su Yan still maintained the same posture as before she left, with her hands gently folded on her abdomen, her face calm, her eyes slightly closed, and she didn't know whether she had fallen asleep or was still awake.
If it weren't for the fact that the young man hadn't eaten anything these past few days and had lost nearly a circle of weight, so that his pretty face was extremely pale and the rise and fall of his chest was very weak, this would definitely be a very peaceful scene.
Shen Xing raised his feet and walked gently to the bed, then looked down at Su Yan's weak and haggard face, the look in his eyes was full of struggle and reluctance.
But thinking of Su Yan's hunger strike to resist his behavior, Shen Xing finally closed his eyes tightly, his lips trembling a little, and said this sentence: "Yan'er, wake up, I will let you go.
.”
"I asked you... to go home."
She compromised.
Hearing this, the young man lying on the bed suddenly opened his eyes, with a look of disbelief in his eyes.
As if he didn't expect the surprise to come so suddenly, Shen Xing actually agreed to let him leave.
But soon, the shocked look in Su Yan's eyes subsided a lot, showing doubts and hesitations. It was obvious that he didn't believe what Shen Xing said.
Shen Xing opened her eyes and looked at Su Yan. What she saw was eyes like this. The emotions in them were like sharp swords, piercing her chest and hurting her heart.
Her heart was suddenly overflowing with sadness, and the corners of her mouth twitched involuntarily, making an expression that looked like a smile but not a smile, or a cry but not a cry.
Yan'er...doesn't he even believe his own words?
She could only look at Su Yan, let him see the look in her eyes, and then repeated these words again.
"I let you go, I let you go home."
Every time she said this sentence, her heart seemed to be stabbed with a knife.
However, it didn't hurt much anymore.
It's like being numb...
Moreover, this kind of pain is insignificant and not worth mentioning compared with the fear and panic of watching the boy gradually become thinner, weaker, and finally die directly.
Su Yan looked at the compromise in Shen Xing's eyes, with a look of helplessness, and hearing her words in his ears finally made his eyes shine with the light that he hadn't seen in a long time.
The young man finally realized that Shen Xing didn't seem to lie to him again this time, and she really planned to let him leave.
Are you worried that you might die because of the hunger strike?
Does this mean that she still loves him?
When Su Yan thought of this, his eyes suddenly dimmed again, and the look on his face turned expressionless again.
Seeing this, Shen Xing suddenly panicked.
She had obviously agreed to let him leave, so why was the young man still looking ashen?
She opened her mouth and was about to ask when Su Yan spoke first, her tone calm and indifferent.
"I don't want to leave."
"Why?" Shen Xing asked, his words trembling.
Because Su Yan's reaction was completely beyond her expectation.
She never imagined that the young man could finally get the freedom he wanted by going on a hunger strike, but in the end he didn't want it anymore.
Su Yan rolled his eyes slightly, looked at her, and said calmly: "Because, even if I leave, after my body recovers, you will find a way to threaten Sister Xu Bing and then take me away, right?
Let me leave now because I have no choice.
Since in the end, I still have to come back to you. So even if I leave now, what's the point?"
Shen Xing was silent for a moment and said hoarsely: "I don't have this idea... I really intend to... let you go..."
Hearing this, Su Yan laughed softly, and the curve of the corners of his mouth seemed to be sarcastic and mocking.
He said: "I will never believe you again.
Why are you suddenly willing to let me go?
You must not want me to die, right?
It must be because you love me, right?
But your love is too domineering and tough, it is robbery and possession.
After all, you are such a person, if you want something, you will do whatever it takes to get it.
I would rather not have this kind of love.
I also hope that you will stop loving me.
Because I am already tired..."
Shen Xing looked at the young man blankly. She originally thought that her heart had been numbed by pain and she would no longer feel any pain.
But only now did she realize that the heart in her chest could hurt even more...
Deep down, I can be even more desperate...
The young man who longed for her tenderness in the past finally said to her: Don't love me anymore, I'm tired.
For Su Yan, her love is no longer something he dreams of, but a burden, which can even be called...
torture.
And she has never hated herself as much as she does now.
I hate myself for my past ruthlessness, my past coldness, and my past pride.
She wished she could kill her former self!
Tan Yunmeng even said to her in front of her, "You will regret it."
At that time, she just smiled coldly.
But now, she completely regrets it...
Even though she was in so much pain that she couldn't breathe, Shen Xing still didn't leave. She closed her eyes slightly, swallowed a mouthful of blood that came out of her throat, and then showed her best expression after adjustment.
She said softly: "I really didn't lie to you. I will let Xu Bing come to take you back, and I will not go to her home again to take you away."
It's a pity that Su Yan will no longer believe anything she says.
Once trust is lost, all gentle words are deceptive lies.
Seeing Su Yan's indifferent expression, Shen Xing suddenly felt the urge to cry. She quickly raised her head and took a deep breath to stop her tears, without even turning her eyes red.
She felt that she might collapse, but she couldn't cry, vent, or complain.
Because this is the punishment she deserves.
She should stay calm at all times and feel the heart-wrenching pain soberly.
Shen Xing lowered her head and took a deep look at Su Yan. This look was extremely serious, as if she wanted to completely engrave the boy's appearance in her heart so that she would never forget him again.
This is the last look.
Then, she withdrew her gaze and wanted to turn around and leave.
Suddenly, Su Yan lifted his upper body and hit the sharp corner of the bedside table hard!
This scene made Shen Xing's eyes split with rage, and the fear of losing her young boy filled her whole body!
She rushed towards the boy, and then made the most correct move. She raised her hand to cover the sharp corner of the bedside table, causing Su Yan's head to hit her hand.
But even so, the boy's forehead was still rubbed to the corner, and blood flowed out instantly.
Shen Xing didn't care about his pricked palm at all, but held Su Yan tightly in his arms to prevent him from doing such crazy behavior again.
Su Yan struggled desperately, but after finding that she couldn't get out, she let Shen Xing hold her and rested his bleeding head on her chest.
"Actually, the hunger strike is really uncomfortable.
Therefore, I don’t want to go on hunger strike and die.
There is nothing wrong with being more decisive and killing yourself directly.
Anyway, you won’t let me go..."
As Su Yan spoke, a bright smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.
It was as if he didn't care at all about the failed suicide. As long as he was given another chance, he would continue to seek death...
Shen Xing's lips trembled, trying to say something, but nothing came out.
She was wrong, she actually couldn't stay calm all the time.
For example, now, she is close to collapse...
Shen Xing closed his eyes in despair.
Blood dripped down her fingers and fell on Su Yan's clothes drop by drop. She moved her lips and let out a suppressed sound of extreme pain.
"I don't love you anymore, give me...
roll."
In order for the young man to survive, she had no choice but to give up her qualifications and rights to love him.
[Shen Xing’s regret value +500, 2580/1000.]
After Shen Xing said this, he called the doctor over and left here immediately.
While the doctor was bandaging Su Yan's forehead, the young man was quiet and didn't try to commit suicide again. He was so well-behaved.
[System: Host, what are you doing?
Didn’t Shen Xing already plan to let you go?
Why do you want to commit suicide?】
[Su Yan: Since we are leaving soon, why not do some big shopping before leaving? 】
【system:......】
But with this big move of yours, Shen Xing was completely destroyed.