But Jiang Meng knew clearly that she could not go crazy, nor did she have the qualifications to go crazy.
Everything now is her own fault. She must stay awake at all times and bear the pain that comes from her heart and is engraved in her bones.
This is punishment and atonement.
And Jiang Meng now understood what Su Yan's thinking mode was.
No matter what he said, no matter what he did, in a big circle, the final goal was always to get the pills.
For today's teenagers, only pills are the most important thing he needs.
Apart from this, no other person or thing could cause any disturbance in his heart.
The boy who once had emotions of joy, anger, sorrow, and joy because of family affection and love, and was always simple and smiling...
Already dead.
[Is Jiang Meng’s regret worth it? Maybe he’s not dead yet.
And even if he died, she would still find a way to bring him back.
Thinking of this, Jiang Mengsheng swallowed all the pain and wanted to free Su Yan's hand that was tightly grasping her sleeve.
But the boy just thought that she wanted to 'pay a debt', and the hand suddenly became harder, and the joints of the fingers became more distinct and slender.
But in the end, Jiang Meng was still gentle. She gently opened Su Yan's fingers one by one, and then stuffed them into the bed quilt with some toughness: "Put your hands inside carefully to avoid catching cold."
Su Yan ignored him, but quickly stretched out his hand again and grabbed the corner of Jiang Meng's clothes, fearing that she would leave here.
"Don't even think about running away. If you don't give me the pills, don't even think about running away!" Su Yan stared at Jiang Meng with his eyes wide open.
"Okay, I won't leave, I will stay here with you."
Jiang Meng did not break off Su Yan's hand, but let him continue to hold the corner of her clothes, and slowly sat on the seat.
Then, she wrapped her two warm hands around the boy's cold hand and asked, "Would this be better?"
Su Yan was stunned, as if he didn't expect Jiang Meng would have such a reaction. There was no anger, no pain, but infinite tolerance.
But he quickly reacted, and there was a trace of ferocity in his words: "You are not Sister Jiang Meng. If you were Sister Jiang Meng, she would not give me the pills. Who are you? Who are you?!
Give me my real sister Jiang Meng, give me back!"
"Yanyan, I am your sister Jiang Meng.
Whatever you want, I will try my best to find it for you, but this is absolutely not enough." Jiang Meng shook her head, her words were soft, but her expression was extremely firm.
"Anything? Then I..."
The young man's words suddenly stopped.
Because an indescribable feeling filled his body at this moment.
This was not a painful feeling, but Su Yan knew that later on, it would turn into unbearable severe pain.
His heart suddenly panicked, and he suddenly pulled his hand out from under Jiang Meng's palm, searching into her pocket, trying to find what he wanted most.
Jiang Meng realized something, and her pretended calm expression showed some signs of fragmentation.
"Yanyan, you have to hold on, I will always be by your side."
After Su Yan rummaged through Jiang Meng's pocket to no avail, his ferocious expression softened and turned into one that was extremely pitiful.
There was a hint of crying in his words, "Sister Jiang Meng, I beg you, please give me a piece of medicine, otherwise I will really die..."
It will hurt, it will really hurt..."
Such a pitiful appearance and sobbing words would make anyone feel soft-hearted after seeing him.
Even Jiang Meng is no exception.
But as soon as she thought that the boy's request was actually asking for something that would make him even more depraved, she forced herself to calm down and slowly shook her head.
It was at this moment that severe pain suddenly erupted in Su Yan's body, instantly depriving him of his ability to think.
Su Yan's body twitched. He hadn't felt it for a long time, but the pain was more intense than before, completely burying him at this moment.
He was like a leaf on the sea. When a wave of waves hit him, he was crushed to pieces without any possibility of resistance.
Seeing this, Jiang Meng quickly hugged Su Yan, fearing that he would not be able to control himself and injure his arm even more.
"Ah!!!" Su Yan screamed.
With just one sound, his voice became hoarse.
But the boy had no intention of stopping, because only shouting loudly could relieve one thousandth of the pain in his body.
Even if you shout until your voice is hoarse and your throat hurts, you still have to shout.
"Yan Yan, hold on, you must hold on."
There was no other time than at this moment when Jiang Meng hated herself more for making Su Yan addicted to drugs.
If she could, she really wanted to go back to the past and kill the person who watched Elena approach Su Yan, and kill the person who gave him a new pill when he was about to rely on willpower to quit his drug addiction.
Own.
Or, it would be nice to bear the pain for Su Yan.
Even if the pain she has to endure will be increased a thousand times.
But it's all just 'if'.
The reality is that she can't do anything now. She can only watch the boy being tortured in pain again and offer some useless comfort.
Su Yan was in pain so much that his body was convulsing, and he wished he could self-mutilate his body in order to reduce the pain in his body.
But he was held tightly by Jiang Meng and couldn't move at all.
The boy seemed to realize something, and his meaningless screams and cries suddenly turned into:
"Then go to hell! If you don't give me pills...go to hell!"
"You just want to torture me and see me in such... pain! Why don't you die!!!" Su Yan screamed hysterically.
These words were like a sharp knife, mercilessly piercing Jiang Meng's heart.
But she didn't have any anger or resentment. She just slowly turned red, raised her hand and stroked Su Yan's black hair, and said softly: "Well, when you get better, I will die."
But, your injuries haven't healed yet, how can I die?
Only when I see you recover with my own eyes can I die with peace of mind.
As for now, let me stay with you with regret and pain...
[After dozens of minutes of Jiang Meng’s Regret Level, Su Yan finally got through the withdrawal reaction and couldn’t hold on anymore and passed out.
Jiang Meng placed the young man safely on the bed, carefully wiped the sweat off his face, then got up and walked out, asking Ling's father and Ling Xiao to take care of him.
Thanks to the excellent soundproofing of this ward, which was built at a great cost, people outside could not hear any sounds inside.
Otherwise, if the Ling family found out that she made Su Yan addicted to drugs, they would probably send her to jail directly.
But she is naturally not worried about this, but after going to jail, she will no longer be able to take care of Yanyan.