He stood up slowly and with difficulty, leaning his back against the head of the bed.
The lights outside the window were bright and the stars were dazzling. Su Yan turned his head and looked there, feeling inexplicably calm inside.
He thought he wouldn't be able to bear it and would collapse because of it.
Because, he could not resist the painful torture, but still succumbed to it and did such a thing.
Abandoning dignity, losing self, and even more shameless.
The most important thing is that the person who saw his despicable appearance was not Jiang Meng, but Ning Yu...
That deskmate who was cold on the outside and hot on the inside, the second light that shone into his heart when he was at his darkest.
Although the two of them had misunderstandings because of Jiang Meng, they can be resolved.
Not long ago, the boy had been thinking like this...
As a result, although the misunderstanding was resolved, is it possible for their relationship to return to its previous state?
Classmate? Friend?
She must think that she is such a dirty man...
Su Yan's mind recalled Ning Yu's shocked expression and that instinctive push.
Look, how much I hate him, how much I hate him.
Su Yan showed a sad smile.
In fact, even he hated himself at that moment...
He lost the only person who truly loved him...
What to do?
Su Yan lowered his head slightly, with a strand of hair falling in front of his face. He closed his eyes and looked like he was thinking seriously.
It seems... I can really die...
He got the answer.
There is nothing left to miss.
After death, there will be no more pain.
Thinking of this, the corners of the young man's lips curved slightly, and he turned his head to look out the window again.
I haven’t seen the north of the city at night for a long time...
Jiang Meng pushed the door open and came in, and what she saw was this scene.
There was a gentle smile on the young man's face that he hadn't seen for a long time. Under the illumination of the yellow street lights with a strong smell of fireworks, his eyes looked deep and peaceful. The lower half of his pretty face was still in the darkness, and the shadows made him look lonely.
.
It's inexplicably beautiful, inexplicably touching, and even more inexplicably makes Jiang Meng's heart tremble.
It was as if Su Yan was still in the room, still sitting on the bed, but no longer in the same world as her.
Raise your eyes, raise your hands...
Out of reach.
"Yanyan." Jiang Meng suppressed her fear and called out.
It was as if the boy would really disappear if he didn't call out.
Su Yan looked at Jiang Meng after hearing this. His smile did not shrink, but his eyes softened even more.
Jiang Meng felt increasingly unreal.
"Yanyan?"
She walked into the room and slowly approached the boy.
It wasn't until she reached the bed that Su Yan spoke: "Sister Jiang Meng..."
The words were hoarse, so Jiang Meng listened carefully to understand them.
"Yes." She nodded and breathed a deep sigh of relief.
The young man responded to her, and he was still alive and existing.
"Why...you would do this to me..." Su Yan smiled lightly and said softly.
Jiang Meng was stunned for a moment, as if she didn't expect that the young man would treat her so tenderly, and then she struggled and hesitated in her heart.
She knew what the boy was asking.
Is it the reason why she wants to harm him, or the reason why her attitude towards him is inconsistent, or...
He wants the complete truth.
Should you tell him?
Do you want to repeat everything that happened to you, word for word, to him?
This might even be her chance to gain forgiveness from the boy.
If you tell him all this...
As if Jiang Meng had made some important decision, she took a deep breath and said word by word: "Because, I love you."
After the words fell, a look of doubt appeared in Su Yan's eyes.
Is this the reason?
Do you do all this to him because you love him?
Su Yan nodded and said, "I...get it..."
When Jiang Meng saw his appearance, she knew that the young man must not believe her words.
But she did tell the truth.
As for why not tell Su Yan the 'truth' about rebirth or dreams?
Because Jiang Mengmeng thought about it, she was not qualified to be forgiven by Su Yan, not even begging.
He just needs to know that he loves him.
Even if you sneer at this love, dismiss it, and don't accept it at all.
That doesn't make any difference either.
Just knowing is good, just hearing is...enough.
Jiang Meng's eyes showed deep piety and said: "I know you won't believe it, but I will prove it all with actions. From now on, I will not let you be hurt in any way.
I love you."
As she spoke, she took one of Su Yan's hands and placed a gentle kiss on the back of it, like a believer treating her faith.
Su Yan's eyes widened, finally feeling shocked.
Seeing this, Jiang Meng was satisfied and smiled softly.
She put the boy's hand back into the bed quilt, carefully laid him down, then carefully covered the corner of the bed, and whispered: "Go to sleep."
Su Yan finally recovered from the shock, but his eyes were still wide open and bright.
"I see......"
Jiang Meng turned around and was about to leave the bedroom when she heard Su Yan say another sentence.
She didn't hear clearly and turned around and walked back: "Yanyan, what did you say?"
The boy repeated slowly: "I want to... go out... and take a look..."
Su Yan wants to go out?
Jiang Meng was a little surprised, but it was already very late now and it was obviously not possible.
She nodded and said, "Yeah. But not tonight. I'll take you out tomorrow."
The young man nodded, his eyes seemed to light up a little bit when Jiang Meng agreed to his request.
She hadn't seen Su Yan in such high spirits for a long time.
Jiang Meng's heart felt so soft.
As long as it was a condition proposed by the young man, she would find a way to satisfy him no matter what.
She left the bedroom.
[Su Yan: Will the fragrance of this dream force people into a dream? 】
[System: Yes, but if someone is forced into a dream, the dreaming time will be shortened. 】
[Su Yan: It doesn’t matter if it’s shorter, as long as it can induce people to dream. 】
[The system detects a hint of conspiracy: What do you want to do?]
[Su Yan: I plan to let Xu Bing and Shen Xing dream again at noon tomorrow. They will just take a nap.
In this case, they should be able to arrive at night.】
[The system is puzzled: Why does it have to be at night?]
[The system suddenly realized: Oh, I understand. You must want to 'die' at night. This will make Jiang Meng misunderstand that you have become a ghost, and the regret value will be filled up in an instant! 】
[Su Yan has an expressionless face: No, I simply think that if I die at night, I will feel better. It will also make it more difficult for them to save me.]
【system:......】
Sorry, I've been watching too many ghost movies lately.