Su Yan sat there blankly, holding a headless baby model in his arms, motionless.
In his eyes, the pupils seemed to be trembling slightly, and his eyes lost their brightness and became dim and gray.
Tang Xin stared into Su Yan's eyes, and for the first time she felt the words "heart as gray as death" so intuitively.
Su Yan's heart died.
It was as if what she destroyed was not a baby model, but a real child.
Even the head of the baby model in her hand suddenly became hot, burning Tang Xin's palm, causing her arm to shake slightly, and she couldn't control herself.
No, this is just a fake, this is not a living life, nor is it their child!
Tang Xin broke free from the inexplicable feeling of guilt, her chest rose and fell, and she gasped deeply.
She has served as a soldier and has killed many people. She considers herself not a cold-blooded or ruthless person, but at least she will not hesitate at all when she makes up her mind and does what she thinks is right.
But now, she actually felt a strong pressure in her heart, and she felt a strong sense of guilt and guilt for the matter of "pregnant with the baby model"!
Could it be that even she, under Su Yan's words and deeds, subconsciously regarded this thing as a living child?
Even she felt such tremendous pressure, so what would it be like for Su Yan to treat this baby model as a real child?
Thinking of this, Tang Xin suddenly realized what a cruel and stupid thing she had done.
But she gritted her teeth and gripped the baby model's head tighter, as if she wanted to crush it directly.
It is precisely because of this that she should let Su Yan understand the truth.
"Yanyan!" Tang Xin shouted and said in a deep voice: "It's not our child, have you seen it? It didn't bleed, and it didn't cry when we were fighting for it. It was just a lifeless child.
model, it’s fake!”
Su Yan still sat there in shock, as if he hadn't heard a word.
"Yanyan!" Tang Xin shouted again anxiously, fearing that Su Yan had taken the baby model seriously and would not be able to bear the excitement of 'losing a child'.
She took a step forward and wanted to snatch the remaining half of the baby model from Su Yan's arms, but he suddenly made a move, looked up at Tang Xin, and let out a harsh scream: "That's enough!!!"
Tang Xin paused in her steps, looked at Su Yan, and her breathing suddenly stopped.
Because Su Yan's eyes turned red at some point, water mist accumulated in his eyes, and then a drop of reddish blood tears slowly slipped down!
Tang Xin's heart seemed to be clenched tightly by a big hand, and her heart was also dripping with blood.
If she had known that the truth would cause Su Yan to suffer such a degree of stimulation, she would rather let him immerse himself in her fantasy!
despair.
A drop of blood tears gently dripped on the baby model.
Then came the second drop and the third drop
In just a moment, Su Yan burst into tears, and blood seemed to be flowing continuously from his eyes.
"Baby," Su Yan murmured, holding the baby model in her arms tighter.
His blood and tears fell on its hollow and broken parts, as if real blood was flowing from its body.
Su Yan's lips trembled slightly, and with a weak, crying voice, she whispered softly: "Baby, daddy, I'm sorry for you. I gave you life and brought you into this world, but I didn't let you live well.
I'm sorry, I became your father.
Sorry, I didn't protect you well.
I'm not a responsible father, and I haven't found you a mother who loves you. I'm sorry."
Snapped.
The head of the baby model in Tang Xin's hand fell to the ground, and she could no longer catch it.
Until this moment, she didn't know what she had broken about Su Yan.
It's not just his beautiful fantasy, it's his complete devotion to his father, and it's also his hope to live!
He put all his love for Wei Shui, and possibly his love for her, into this 'child'.
He probably knew that the child was just a model and that it was fake.
But if he doesn't deceive himself and others, he has no hope of living.
An unprecedented fear suddenly arose in Tang Xin's heart. She seemed to have thought of something, and her face gradually lost color.
"Yanyan, you don't want to die," Tang Xin said in a panic.
Su Yan raised his head when he heard this, and finally looked at Tang Xin.
There was no hatred, no anger, no despair in his eyes, just blood and moist tears, and his expression was extremely calm.
But just this look made Tang Xin's heart tremble, and her whole body seemed to freeze bit by bit, completely frozen.
In Tang Xin's panic-filled eyes, Su Yan shook his head.
Does he mean that he will not die?
Tang Xin just wanted to be happy, but for some reason she couldn't be happy at all.
She always felt that Su Yan had something more to say.
But Su Yan just lowered his head again without saying a word, looking at the baby model tenderly, painfully, and desperately, and raised his slender fingers to gently touch the clothes it was wearing.
Those were clothes he had sewn with his own hands. They were a father's deep love for his children.
But, it can no longer be felt
Su Yan suddenly smiled and said: "I won't die."
Because, I know you won't let me die.
From the beginning to the end, your purpose was not to deceive you into getting pregnant or getting married, but to completely control me.
You think everything you do is for my good.
In fact, it is just to find some legitimate and reasonable reasons for what you do.
Is this love?
never mind.
It’s okay if it’s not, it’s the best if it is
Su Yan suddenly took out a slender silver needle from the quilt, then pointed it at his chest, and without any hesitation, he pierced it hard!
Tang Xin had been observing Su Yan, and after noticing his actions, she immediately reached out and grabbed his wrist to stop him from committing suicide.
Even though she had expected it, Tang Xin still broke into a cold sweat.
Just a little bit, Su Yan is going to
She opened her lips, wanting to say something, but she swallowed the words back and slowly closed her eyes.
After a moment, Tang Xin opened her eyes and calmly took the money out of Su Yan's hand.
Su Yan had no intention of resisting.
"I won't let you die." Tang Xin endured the pain and shook her head.
"I know." Su Yan opened his lips softly, with a quiet curve at the corner of his lips, and said with a smile: "You still like me, right? That's why you won't let me die.
But if a person wants to die, you can't stop him at all. I can't commit suicide, and I won't die simply like that. Instead, I will lose my vitality little by little, just like before.
I feel the pain and despair of losing my child, and you have to feel it all too."
As soon as he finished speaking, the smile on Su Yan's face suddenly turned ferocious!