"A few days after you gave birth to Lin Nian at night, I heard someone talking in my ear in a trance, but I couldn't hear exactly what was said. When I opened my eyes, I found that there was no one else except myself.
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Lin Qi moved a little, stretched out his hand to pull Chen Xiaonian into his arms, and the unsteady feeling in his heart as if he was in the clouds was reduced.
"That's when my uncle started to take action. I thought he might have sent someone to sneak in and attack you and the children, but I forgot that I carefully checked the doors and windows every day and locked them with my own hands."
Thinking of the days when he was tortured and couldn't sleep at night, when he could hear someone talking in his ears when he closed his eyes, Lin Qi's eyes were smeared with indelible bitterness.
Chen Xiaonian moved closer, "You don't suffer from postpartum depression, do you?"
Lin Qi scraped her nose punitively, causing the man in his arms to frown and glare at him.
"What nonsense are you talking about? I'm a serious man, how could I get that kind of mental illness?"
After Chen Xiaonian became pregnant, Lin Qi read a lot of information about the pregnancy and childbirth period, and had a thorough understanding of the physical and mental health of pregnant women before and after delivery.
"And we lived separately at that time, plus we had to deal with my brother-in-law who might do tricks at any time, so it was really tiring mentally and physically. Sometimes when I was doing something, I would suddenly think about whether the world I was in was illusory.
My mood this whole day was like falling from the top of the mountain to the bottom of the valley, as low as I felt."
"Later I thought that it was impossible to continue like this, so I went back to my old house to find you and stay with you. At that time, it didn't matter even if I didn't have any verbal or eye contact with you, as long as I could see you
When you smell the milky fragrance on your body, you will feel at ease."
In Lin Qi's original plan to deal with Lin Pengyuan, in order not to draw the blame on his family, he planned not to have too much contact with his family before the end, and even deliberately created conflicts to create the illusion of discord with his family.
"But I didn't expect that he would dare to do that. Fortunately, the rules of the Lin family are quite strict. Every Lin family member who is separated will have someone to guard them, so his desperate attempt was solved in time.
I finally resisted, and at that time I was glad that I returned to you early. Although I had full confidence and certainty that I would not let you and your parents get hurt, that kind of strong worry always lingered in my heart."
"After this incident was over, I found that I seemed to be back to my old self. I didn't have any worries and just lived with you and my children. But since I found out that you were going to study abroad, the inexplicable fear during that time took hold of me again, so I
My control is gradually losing control, and I always want to do some extreme things to confirm that you are real and that the environment I live in is real."
Lin Qi's voice was so trembling at the end that it was almost impossible to distinguish the syllables. Chen Xiaonian was stunned when he heard it, and he kept the same posture for a long time without changing.
"Nian Nian, I'm sorry."
After a short moment of silence, Lin Qi lowered his head and apologized sincerely, for the negative impact he had caused on her by almost losing control several times, and for his failure to fulfill his vow to protect her throughout his life. Several pictures suddenly appeared in his mind, and he clearly understood
I remember a scene in a dream I had a long time ago, in which I actually did it myself.
Chen Xiaonian, who was feeling sentimental, noticed that his man began to tremble. He stood up and checked and found that he was staring at his hands. His dark pupils were dilated, filled with guilt, regret and pain.
"Husband! Husband!"
Chen Xiaonian called out to Lin Qi in confusion, but he himself seemed to be in a state of madness, mumbling a few words over and over again.
"I'm sorry, Nian Nian! I'm sorry, Nian Nian! I didn't mean it. Please don't die. Can you talk to me?"
These incompatible words made Chen Xiaonian confused, but now was not the time to worry about why he said such words. He pinched Lin Qi's body hard with his fingertips. Not only did this move fail to wake up the man,
The purpose only aggravated the fear in his heart. He pushed the person in front of him away vigorously and stumbled towards the door. Chen Xiaonian was pushed and rolled a few times on the bed and fell to the ground. He chased after him regardless of the pain on his body.
"Husband! Lin Qi!"
The dark first floor was silent, and the night light on the wall could only barely let people see the road in front of them. Chen Xiaonian shouted Lin Qi's name in a panic, and didn't move towards the dark until he heard the sound of items falling from the direction of the kitchen.
Go.
"husband!"
The moment he opened it, Chen Xiaonian was frightened by the sight in front of him. He saw Lin Qi cutting off his wrist with a boning knife.
"Lin Qi!"
Chen Xiaonian shouted, and Lin Qi, who was unconscious, stopped and tilted his head to look over and smiled at her. The next moment, he cut his wrist again, mumbling to himself.
"Don't be afraid, Nian Nian. I'm here to accompany you. We will never be separated in the future."
The sharp boning knife left a shallow mark on Lin Qi's wrist, and a line of blood dripped down the wound onto the floor. At this time, Lin Qi had lost consciousness, and his strong body was being thrown to the ground.
At the same time, there was a "clang" sound as the knife in his hand fell to the ground. Chen Xiaonian froze on the spot with a wooden stick and a look of horror on his face. He actually knocked him out. Then he felt lucky again, it was okay.
Nothing serious happened.
Although Chen Xiaonian listened to Lin Qi's story, she still didn't understand the reason why he was like this. Her subconscious told her that there must be some things she didn't know about. She tried her best to half drag and half carry the man.
He went back to the second floor, took out the medicine box and carefully bandaged the wound. Although the wound was not deep, it still made Chen Xiaonian extremely distressed.
"You guys, what should people do to you?"
Worried that something would happen again after he fell asleep, Chen Xiaonian poured himself coffee all night long. He looked at the tablet in his hand and slid on it mechanically. He originally wanted to draw a few design drawings, but his brain
The scene was full of scenes where her men were about to slit their wrists. She suddenly felt a little funny. Although she didn't know why, she just wanted to laugh.
Chen Xiaonian leaned on the cushions of the sofa and laughed so hard that his body trembled. This scene was seen by Lin Qi who woke up. He touched the back of his neck, which was still a little sore. He couldn't remember what happened last night at all. He just
I remember taking Nian Nian to the racecourse to ride horses, and he seemed to have a good time. He propped himself up and wanted to walk over, but the slight pain from his wrist made him frown. How did he get injured?
"Nian Nian."
When Chen Xiaonian heard someone calling her, she turned around and saw that her man had taken off the bandage and stretched his wrist in front of her. He looked at her with a cute expression full of doubts.
"You cut it yourself yesterday."
Lin Qi blinked and rubbed his messy hair.
"pain!"
Chen Xiaonian:???
Why did he become childish after sleeping this time? Although this man was quite childish in front of me before, but today's tone and voice made me suddenly burst with maternal love.
"I still need to blow it."
The unsatisfied Lin child continued, but was kicked to the ground by Chen Xiaonian. Being locked in the arms of the man who was not letting go, Chen Xiaonian felt a burst of sadness in his heart. How could his brother Lin Qi be like this?
"Husband, after breakfast we go to the hospital."
Although the wound does not appear to be serious, for the sake of safety, it is best to go to the hospital and have it checked by a doctor.
"Need not."
Because there was a servant around, Lin Qi returned to his previous iceberg mode.
"Be good and be obedient."
Lin Qi's eyelashes trembled slightly. This kind of coddling and pampering made him feel happy, but he still didn't show it on his face as before.
"Since it's Madam who begged me, then I'll reluctantly go there."
Chen Xiaonian:
Servants:
But on the way to the hospital, Lin Qi held Chen Xiaonian's hand and refused to let go, even when he was in front of the doctor.
"The wound is not deep, it's nothing serious. Just don't touch the water for three days after you go back."
Xu Shi couldn't stand it anymore, so the doctor quickly re-bandaged the wound and urged the two of them to leave.
"Honey, I want to drink water."
"Honey, can you help me absorb it? The doctor said I'm not allowed to touch the water."
"Honey, I'm so hungry."
When Chen Xiaonian returned home, she was frequently ordered around. She was already grumpy after not sleeping all night. She wanted to lose her temper but couldn't bear Lin Qi's pitiful and humble request.
"Honey, my hands hurt so much, can you put me to sleep?"
Lin Qi once again looked pitifully at Chen Xiaonian, who was drawing emotionlessly on the sofa. There was a faint glimmer of water in his eyes. He held his injured left wrist with his right hand and raised it slightly.
"Lin Qi! You only suffered a slight injury to your left wrist, not hemiplegia."
Unable to bear it, Chen Xiaonian threw away the drawing board, sat up and gritted her teeth at the man.
"oh."
Lin Qi obeyed and lay down obediently. The defeated Chen Xiaonian dragged his exhausted body to the bed and lay down, not forgetting to tuck his man's right arm under his neck, but his body was stubbornly turned away.
A certain man was so proud that his plan succeeded. He pressed his body tightly against her and fell asleep contentedly smelling the familiar body fragrance.
Oddly enough, Chen Xiaonian, who had been feeling sleepy just now because she drank too much coffee, felt her eyelids become heavy not long after she lay down. As expected, all she wanted to do was sleep when next to this man. It was like a very effective sleeping pill.
Arya reluctantly stayed at home for one night at the request of her parents. Her exclusive room was still as decorated as before. All the dolls she loved when she was a child were neatly visited, including a four-piece pink silk suit.
It was rolled with soft white lace, and even the books and picture albums on the table were still there when he left home, and even their positions seemed to have never changed.
"Arya, these are all made by mother. You must miss them very much after not eating them for many years, right?"
Arya's mother looked at her daughter expectantly, but unfortunately she did not see the joy on Arya's face as she expected.
"Now I am no longer the ignorant child I used to be, and my taste has naturally changed."
These words seemed to mean something to Arya's mother, but her daughter didn't say it directly and she couldn't ask.
Arya's mother tried to find topics to liven up the atmosphere several times during the meal, but she was extinguished by her daughter's indifference. Arya's father finally couldn't bear it anymore and became angry and complained.
"Arya, she is your mother, how can you be less enthusiastic about her than an outsider!"
It turned out that when Arya arrived home, they saw their daughter helping a gray-haired old man repair the mailbox in front of their door. Her smile as bright as a rose deeply hurt their bodies and minds.
"They won't do anything to deceive or hurt me."
Arya lazily picked up a piece of steak and put it into her mouth. It was still as juicy and soft as before, with just the right amount of salt and pepper.
"We already know how serious the damage we caused to you by the mistakes we made back then, and now we want to make up for it, so why don't you just give us a chance? Besides, Ander has come back, hasn't he?"
Arya looked directly into her father's eyes, "So? I should just forgive him? Can you understand how I felt when I didn't dare to have contact with anyone in those years? There were so many things in my heart but I couldn't say them anyway.
Can you understand how sad it is to not speak out?"
Suddenly, Arya laughed at herself: "This world is really ridiculous. People who are hurt will always be arrogantly asked to forgive by the person who hurt them."
The dinner, which was supposed to be a warm family reunion, ended unhappily. Arya was lying on the bed, but she didn't feel like she was a child. It was late at night and she didn't feel sleepy at all. The starry sky outside the window was reflected in the pool in the courtyard, teasing the flowers inside.