After night falls, the sound of silk and bamboo can still be heard in the courtyard. The courtyard where Wang Xuanji lives is blocked by houses on several sides; the bedroom is separated from the outside by two doors, so the sound is not really loud.
But Xuan Ji has always disliked the sound of musical instruments and singing. Upon closer reflection, she may just be resisting a certain image brought by the kabuki dancer, a feeling of instability.
As Grandma Bai said, even though today's servants are well fed, well clothed, and don't have to work, once they get a little older, they will be sold or given away by their owners, and their lives will get worse and worse. In the future, they will be sold or given away by their owners.
There will be no elegance at all, and you will only be fighting for scraps, which is ugly and contented. My mother has said this many times, but she is not lying to Xuanji.
Xuan Ji also pitied them, but there was nothing she could do. In the past, her mother threatened Xuan Ji and sent her to be a singer. All she thought about was that she might as well die to save the trouble! She would not have to worry about her life in danger all day long.
Tonight, Grandma Bai came to Wang Xuanji's room again.
In my impression, when Mrs. Bai came to Xuanji's room to talk, Xuanji would often lie on the bed without energy. Sometimes she didn't want to listen, and her mother would lift her quilt and force her to listen. It was so annoying.
, as if seeing Xuan Ji in a better mood would make my mother feel uncomfortable all over!
However, Xuanji was not on the couch this time, and was kneeling in front of the small dressing table. Grandma also sat over.
Aunt Bai brought up the matter of the He family again, saying that He Jun had brought her a message again, and she had to give her a reply. She tried her best to persuade Qin Zhongming to go to Huainan for who knows how many years. Xuanji missed her good family.
There may not be a chance in the future.
The Bai family has not yet rejected the He family! She is still concerned about this matter, and it seems that she has not given up yet.
The reputation of He Yan and his son for being lecherous and promiscuous was known to many people in Luoyang, but Bai only valued their family status. She put it very directly, saying that being the first wife of the He family was much better than being Qin Liang's concubine.
Xuanji had no choice but to threaten Bai again. She said that the last time her mother mentioned the marriage of the He family, she did not refute it and wanted to tell Wang Gongyuan the secret directly! Because she had made it clear before that as long as she was forced to marry, she would tell the secret.
go out.
As expected, Mrs. Bai was so frightened that she froze there. Finally, she let Xuan Ji go, left the room, and cursed vaguely when she walked out of the door.
Xuanji could only sigh "Alas", feeling uncomfortable.
Mother and daughter have been dependent on each other for so many years. No matter what purpose Bai had in raising her, Xuanji sometimes feels sad and even distressed when she thinks of her. She hopes that her mother will be better. But Xuanji is unwilling to be with her.
Whenever she sees her mother, she feels particularly uncomfortable, full of anger and depression, and even wants to give up on herself, feeling that life is meaningless.
Xuanji's feelings for Bai are really complicated and entangled. She wants to hate her but can't. She wants to treat her well but can't.
It was easier to be with Zhong Ming. Although it was just good feelings and thoughts at first, Xuan Ji had already given up when Lingjun got married, and later she got confused with Zhong Ming. But after they were together, she was almost only happy.
Sometimes she would have strange thoughts. If she could live happily with Zhong Ming for two years, escape all worries, then die.
Xuan Ji lay down on the couch in a depressed mood. She reached out and touched two slips under the cushion, and then she slowly breathed a sigh of relief. One was for the Wang family, explaining that she wanted to meditate for two years. The other was for two years.
One is a letter threatening Mrs. Bai.
There was only the last night left. Thinking of this, Xuanji's mood gradually rose. In addition to the anticipation, she even started to feel a little anxious. It was simply difficult to endure the moment.
Zhongming is already in Luoyang now and must be waiting for her in the courtyard of Lejinli. Even if they haven't met, as long as they are closer, Xuanji will feel completely different in her heart; just like when he lived in the Wang family mansion before, or moved to
Back in Lejin, Xuanji's mood was different.
Various details of her time with Qin Zhongming emerged, and Xuan Ji hugged the quilt and began tossing and turning, pressing her legs tightly against the quilt, turning over from time to time, making a mess on the couch.
More than half a month has passed, but one night seemed to be particularly difficult.
She slept fitfully at night and had several dreams. At dawn, Xuan Ji got up and packed up. She walked around the room and thought about the aftermath.
She said in her letter that she asked Wang Gongyuan to send the two maids who served her to her husband, who would then send someone to her place of retreat to take care of her.
Although they were just maids, Xuanji didn't want to ignore them, because after getting along for a long time, there was always some affection and memories. When Xuanji was first taken back to the Wang family's mansion, they were both less than ten years old, so they had been serving Xuanji.
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Xuanji still remembered the first time she saw them. Their skin was a little tanned, their hands were covered with frostbite, and they looked stupid and didn't understand anything. Now they have grown up with fine skin and tender flesh. If they were ignored, most of them would be dead.
She would be sent to be a prostitute. Guessing that the inner door was about to open, Xuan Ji leaned over the window and looked up at the sky. She took very few things with her, so she walked out of the room quietly.
When walking along the corridor to the gatehouse, Xuanji couldn't help but look back at the courtyard. She had lived here for many years and really didn't know when she would be able to come back.
But there was no Zhongming here, not even your close friend Lingjun. Xuanji really didn't have much nostalgia and walked out of the gate without looking back.
All she had left now was full of expectation. Perhaps she was too impatient and didn't want to be seen, so her uncoordinated pace was a bit strange. She walked behind the corner door of the mansion, and the concierge opened the door for her and just bowed.
He said hello and glanced at her quietly. As expected, he didn't say much.
As soon as Xuan Ji went out, she immediately covered her face with a gauze scarf, put on a curtain hat, and walked quickly towards the inner gate with her head buried.
Just after leaving the inner gate, someone suddenly whistled on the right side. There were not many people on the road, so Xuan Ji was a little nervous and disgusted at the same time.
She wore thick and large rough linen clothes, and her head was covered tightly to prevent others from noticing her. Xuanji also knew that she was beautiful and would always attract attention whenever she showed up. But she didn't know that the disciples over there
Why would she pay attention to her?
There was another whistle, and Xuanji frowned and turned her head to look.
I saw a man sitting in front of a carriage. He stretched out his hand and lifted the bamboo hat on his head, revealing a handsome and friendly face. Xuan Ji suddenly smiled, surprised and pleasantly surprised.
We obviously agreed to meet in Lejin, but I didn't expect that he had already arrived here early and was waiting!
Xuan Ji hurriedly turned around and ran over there. Suddenly a carriage came and the coachman shouted: "You are looking for death, get out of the way!"
The impatient Xuanji quickly stood still, waited for the carriage to pass, and then ran to the opposite alley.
"Zhong Ming!" Xuan Ji almost cried and called out softly.
Qin Liang also breathed a long sigh of relief and said in a deep voice: "I'll talk to you later."
Xuan Ji nodded vigorously, walked to the back of the carriage, opened the tailgate and stepped in. She immediately moved to the front of the carriage, opened the bamboo curtain in front, looked at Zhong Ming's back through the gap between the wooden boards, and felt comfortable. She even
You can already smell the sweat on Zhong Ming's body and the familiar scent.