More slips and slips were moved into the attic, but Qin Liang didn't look at them anymore. The four windows had been closed, and cool breezes poured in through the cracks in the windows. The flame of the oil lamp flickered, and the light in the attic flickered. Maybe there was only Only when you go downstairs can the light be stable.
Qin Liang looked at the oil lamp and was silent for a long time. It was a celadon lamp, with a slightly larger base underneath and a ceramic pillar in the middle, which supported the small oil tray above. A wick was placed in the oil tray. The firelight was flickering on the wick.
Wang Kang, who was moving the slips, was busy in vain. Qin Liang glanced at him and said, "When was the most difficult day that you have ever encountered?"
Wang Kang said without thinking: "It was when you came to visit your servant at home, and he was lying on the bed for a few months."
Qin Liang suddenly nodded, "Yes, you may have been a little difficult at that time."
Wang Kang raised his head and faced the top of the oil lamp, as if he was looking at something, or as if he was simply looking, as if what he saw was just the scene in his memory.
After a while, he said: "I am conscious and can't move. The house has been empty for a long time, and I am basically waiting to die. Time passes extremely slowly and is very painful. I feel that I have not been lying down for several months, but I’ve been lying there for half my life.”
He spoke in a straightforward tone, as if he was just recounting something that had nothing to do with him. Qin Liang did not say a word, but just listened.
Wang Kang paused for a while, looked at Qin Liang, and then said, "At first, I would think about all kinds of things all day long. I had nothing to do but think. I just tasted it in the long silence. It’s just all kinds of suffering. I will think that my mother has not lived a good life for many years. Her withered hands and feet can only be covered with patched linen cloth. When winter comes, she will shiver with cold. After I pass away, she will be even more It’s tragic and I’m afraid it won’t end well.”
"Alas!" Qin Liang couldn't help but sigh.
But the strange thing is that while he felt sad and sympathized with Wang Kang, he seemed to get a twisted sense of comfort. After all, Qin Liang felt a little uncomfortable now. When he heard that someone was worse off than himself, it made him feel sad. That bit of pain seems to have become lighter?
It seemed a bit excessive to think so, but what Wang Kang was talking about was in the past. Qin Liang realized this and felt a lot more at ease.
Wang Kang was silent for a while, and his voice continued: "After thinking about these things too many times, I gradually became numb, and began to understand that there was really nothing I could do. At that time, I had completely given up. All that was left was fear. Inexplicable fear without any reason."
Qin Liang said with emotion: "Many people have heard of the Buddhist saying about hell, but some people don't know that hell actually has eighteen levels."
He glanced at Wang Kang, then patted Wang Kang's shoulder gently and said kindly: "It's over."
Wang Kang usually talks less and is more taciturn than Rao Dashan. After spending so many days together, Wang Kang talked the most tonight.
Qin Liang thought that he had also experienced serious illness that could not be cured, but the experience was not as miserable as Wang Kang's. The biggest difference was not the medical conditions, which were not curable anyway. Qin Liang thought for a while and felt that it was concern.
He was not as obsessed with his family in his previous life as Wang Kang. After all, he left half a house and a lot of savings before his death. Moreover, his wife secretly hoped that he would die early and spend less money, and his daughter rarely came to the hospital to see him. The girl was very rebellious and ignorant. Due to her age, her biological father might not be as important as a certain young star in her heart. Although he was still a little worried about his family, that was all.
Worry makes people weaker. However, according to Wang Kang's description, in fact, at the end of time, fear is pure. There is no big difference. Survival is just a biological instinct. Some things can only be faced by one person in the end.
There is another way.
Wang Kang looked at Qin Liang and said: "I don't want to express my loyalty and am grateful to you for your help. I just don't want to listen to people talking about Confucian principles and etiquette and shame anymore."
Qin Liang thought to himself: Don't encourage others to do good unless they have suffered.
Fortunately, Confucianism was not regarded as a guide at all to Qin Liang, and he never advised Wang Kang on any big principles.
Qin Liang said: "I think you should not think about that little favor. I was just a little help, and it is not worth repaying at all. Just like our Governor Sun, he gave away all his family's property to others in order to repay his kindness. This is Governor Sun
If you are willing to give up, if it were someone else who is reluctant to give up, wouldn’t you just want to kill your benefactor?”
Wang Kang showed a smile, shook his head and said: "I will never think that way. I have nothing, so I can't use the things that Lord Qin rewarded me to repay Lord Qin. What's more, I can rely on Lord Qin to turn over."
I will never use my body as the humblest commoner again. After many experiences, I finally understand that in this world, people who work as cows or horses in the fields will not end well."
He was silent for a while and then said, "There are some things that I don't care about. After all, I'm not an outsider. You don't have to suspect that I have any complaints."
Qin Liang pretended to smile casually and said: "The place is so big, what can you hide? I treat you well, why do you blame me?" After saying that, he stopped smiling and added, "I don't want to be an outsider, I'm quite good at it."
good."
Wang Kang looked sincere and said seriously: "Even if something happens in the future, I will never blame you or anyone."
Qin Liang shook his head and said: "The torture of livelihood can indeed completely change a person."
His clan brother Qin Lang's father, Qin Yilu, may have suffered a tragedy because the torture of life was not severe enough and he was not distorted enough. Zhang Fei said, Cao Cao took your wife as a concubine, don't you feel ashamed that you still work hard for Cao Cao?
?Qin Yilu was persuaded and was about to follow Zhang Fei to join Liu Bei. But he soon regretted it and wanted to return to Duke Cao. As a result, he was killed by Zhang Fei with a knife. What an unjust death.
"It's getting late, let's go back." Qin Liang got up from the floor, took the lamp with his left hand, and held a pile of bamboo slips in his right hand.
Wang Kang packed up the remaining bamboo slips, put them all into sacks, hugged them with both hands and followed...
After discussing with Sun Li the next day, Qin Liang discovered that the spies lurking in the Wei Dynasty in Wu and Shu might not have any contact with the governors stationed there. Several years ago, the Wei court sent a spy named
Yinfan, Yinfan pretended to surrender to the state of Wu. Wang Ling probably did not know about it at the time and had no contact with Yinfan.
It wasn't until the state of Wu also sent people to pretend to surrender that they wanted to ambush the Wei army when Wang Ling led his troops to meet him. Yinfan knew what had happened, so he hurriedly launched a rebellion to warn Wang Ling. Wang Ling noticed something was wrong and escaped, but Yinfan was captured.
Killed by Sun Quan.
If these spies had smooth contact with the officials in Huainan's feudal territory, Yinfan could pass the message to Wang Ling quietly without making such a big noise, and the Wei State would not have to lose an important spy.
However, Qin Liang also thought that there were many nobles in Soochow who fled from the north. There were probably various manors and farms in various places, and the transportation lines were difficult to hide. Just like before at the Qin family manor in Pingyuan County, a stranger in Tsing Yi came nearby.
It is easy for someone to notice and try to find out the identity of the person coming. It is difficult to operate.
Kuang Qinliang is only a soldier, so it will be more difficult to intervene in these confidential affairs. For now, we can probably only wait for the development of the situation.