Zhao Shiyan and the others tacitly did not dismantle Qu Xiaoling. After all, if she were to suddenly come from fantasy to reality, she might not be able to accept it for a while.
I'll find a suitable time to tell her later, and maybe Chu Pingfei will wake up and contact her proactively?
The night passed quietly like this. Zhao Shiyan and Mu Yunxi were thinking about how to get along with Qu Xiaoling in the future. Huang Shuai was still worried about what Qu Xiaoling said to him during the day. As for Qu Xiaoling herself, she tossed and turned for a long time.
I couldn't sleep, I didn't know what I was thinking about.
Early the next morning, Mu Yunxi and Zhao Shiyan woke up almost at the same time. Seeing that no one else had woken up, they got out of bed and started dressing up.
"Just stick to yesterday's plan, right?"
"Well, don't worry, Shi Yan, leave it to me and Huang Shuai. You can just go to work without any worries."
"Then I'll trouble you!"
After the two whispered, Zhao Shiyan took the first step. After Mu Yunxi finished washing, he turned on the computer and started reading the paper, with no intention of going out.
After a while, Huang Shuai and Qu Xiaoling woke up one after another and got off the bed one after another.
Although Huang Shuai got out of bed first, she did not use the sink first. Instead, she sat quietly on her seat and waited for Qu Xiaoling to finish washing first, even though the sink was big enough for two people to use it side by side.
After Qu Xiaoling finished washing, she sat in her seat for a while and waited until 8 o'clock before she picked up her bag and prepared to go out.
"where did you go?"
Mu Yunxi asked pretending to be casual.
"Leave me alone!"
After saying that, Qu Xiaoling slammed the door and walked out.
Mu Yunxi and Huang Shuai winked, and after nodding to each other, they left the dormitory together, quietly following Qu Xiaoling.
Qu Xiaoling went to the cafeteria for breakfast first. Because she always felt nauseous recently, she ate very little breakfast, just a bowl of white porridge and an egg.
After eating, she came to the Baihe Lake on campus and started circling aimlessly.
I don’t know how long she walked around, but Qu Xiaoling felt a little tired. She looked around for a while, then walked to a bench by the lake not far away. After sitting down, she began to be alone in a daze.
At this time, Mu Yunxi and Huang Shuai hid behind a big tree, secretly looking at Qu Xiaoling's back, silent for a long time.
The cold wind drifted through the cracks in the trees, bringing with it a "whining" sound. Together with the lonely figure in the distance, it seemed that someone had turned thousands of melancholy into chaotic lines and smeared them on the oil painting in front of me.
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After a while, Mu Yunxi couldn't stand it any longer. She took the lead in starting a conversation and whispered to Huang Shuai:
"I'll sit next to her and chat with her, and slowly tell her about Ping Fei. Just wait for me here, Xiaomei. If we go together, I'm afraid I'll irritate her."
After saying that, Mu Yunxi was about to step forward and go to Qu Xiaoling's side.
However, at this moment, Huang Shuai gently pulled Mu Yunxi's arm. She seemed to be hesitant and did not immediately say what she wanted to say.
Mu Yunxi thought she was worried about her quarrel with Qu Xiaoling, so he patted her shoulders with both hands and said with a smile:
"Don't worry, I will be measured."
However, just when she wanted to leave again, Huang Shuai's hand still held her arm and did not let go.
Mu Yunxi turned around and looked at Huang Shuai doubtfully. This time, she did not rush to ask, but waited for Huang Shuai to prepare his words.
Mu Yunxi knew that the classmate he called "little beauty" was introverted and not good at words, so he had to be patient enough to talk to her.
I still remember that when school first started, Zhao Shiyan and Qu Xiaoling often talked together, and Mu Yunxi chose to hang out with Huang Shuai.
At that time, Mu Yunxi would pull Huang Shuai to follow Zhao Shiyan and Qu Xiaoling no matter what she did. She didn't want to be too proactive and flamboyant, and wanted to maintain her image as a lady.
It was only later that she discovered that her introversion was fake, while Huang Shuai's introversion was truly introverted!
Later, Mu Yunxi fell in love with Chen Feng and accidentally exposed his true nature in front of Zhao Shiyan. From then on, he no longer kept it in mind.
After a few seconds, Huang Shuai finally said what he wanted to say:
"Yunxi, can you let me go and talk to her?"
Mu Yunxi was a little surprised:
"You go? Xiaomei, don't you care about what Xiaoling told you yesterday?"
Huang Shuai shook his head:
"I'm still a little concerned. It's precisely because of this that I feel the need to make things clear to her, because I vaguely feel that I am the same type of person as Xiaoling to a certain extent."
"Actually, what Xiaoling said is not entirely wrong. I have always been hiding behind you. I will do whatever you ask me to do."
"But today, I think I can help!"
"At least, I want to convey what I want to say to Xiaoling. I don't want to be so unclear anymore!"
Hearing what Huang Shuai said, Mu Yunxi felt a little relieved.
She and Zhao Shiyan have always acted as the parents in the dormitory. Now when she heard Huang Shuai say this, she suddenly had the illusion that her children had grown up.
Mu Yunxi shook his head, throwing away the distracting thoughts in his mind, touched Huang Shuai's head, and smiled at her:
"My little girl has grown up! Go, go, I'll wait for you here. Don't be afraid, if she bullies you, I will save you!"
Huang Shuai felt a little embarrassed. She blushed and nodded to Mu Yunxi, then took a deep breath, walked out from behind the big tree, slowly walked to Qu Xiaoling and sat down.
She was a little nervous and did not dare to look directly at Qu Xiaoling. She just looked at the sparkling lake not far away, and for a moment she forgot what she wanted to say.
Qu Xiaoling turned to glance at her, spat on the ground, and said contemptuously:
"You are following me? Where is Mu Yunxi? Why didn't she follow me?"
As she said that, Qu Xiaoling looked behind her for a while, but she did not find Mu Yunxi's figure. She turned back and looked at Huang Shuai, her face full of confusion.
Huang Shuai hesitated for a while, and finally said boldly:
"Yes, I came here alone. I happened to meet you when I was eating in the cafeteria. Then, I was a little worried about you, so I followed you here alone."
"Huh? Are you worried about me? Did I hear you correctly? Are you sure you didn't come to see my joke?"
"Absolutely not!"
"It's not a ghost! I'm sitting here alone. Isn't the situation already clear? I haven't found Ping Fei, not yesterday, not today! I won't answer calls and won't reply to messages! Yes, that's what I do
Embarrassing!"
"Now you know it. If you know it, go and report it to your Yunxi family! Hurry and disappear from my eyes and let me be quiet! Okay! No! Okay!"
Qu Xiaoling almost slapped the bench when she said the last few words, which really scared Huang Shuai.
But Huang Shuai still forced herself to calm down and not let herself be affected by Qu Xiaoling's words. She sorted out the original words in her mind, mustered up the courage, and said loudly to Qu Xiaoling:
"That's not the case! I don't want to hear what you say! I want to tell you that I am not a broken shoe. I can find a boyfriend. I am not as bad as you say!"
Qu Xiaoling was stunned. She was used to Huang Shuai being submissive in front of others. When Huang Shuai shouted like this, she was really not used to it.
Fortunately, there are no people nearby. It is winter now, and today is Sunday. No one has nothing to do and comes to the lake to suffer from the cold.
Huang Shuai continued:
"I know, I usually don't talk much and follow you all the time during meals and classes. It really seems like I don't have any opinions!"
"But, I don't want to be like before anymore. At least, after hearing what you said to me yesterday, I don't want to be indifferent anymore!"
"I have always felt very lucky to be roommates with you, because no one, including my parents, has ever valued me so much since I was a child!"
"But you are different. In front of you, I feel that I can tell my past very calmly, and I am not worried at all that you will laugh at me!"
"So the same goes for you, Xiaoling! If you have any troubles or difficulties, you have to tell them! Don't keep them in your heart alone!"
"Not to mention what will happen to Shi Yan and Yun Xi, but I can guarantee that I will listen carefully to the end. Even if I can't give you any advice, it would be nice to have one more person to talk to!"
"Xiaoling, I know you have been unhappy recently, but it doesn't matter. We are all by your side. Please stop living in your own world and stop being in so much pain, okay?"
"Don't you hate me? In fact, you are right. Sometimes I hate myself. You can hate me, but don't hate yourself. Your conditions are much better than mine. There is no need for you to hate yourself.
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"People like me have really low self-esteem. How can you be like me! How can you be like me!"
As he spoke, Huang Shuai couldn't help but shed tears.
She felt very embarrassed. She obviously came on her own initiative, but she started crying after she finished speaking. It was really useless!
The reason why Huang Shuai knew that Qu Xiaoling had low self-esteem was naturally conveyed to her secretly by Zhao Shiyan last night. She had never thought that Qu Xiaoling, who was so lively in front of others, would have low self-esteem!
She desperately wiped the tears on her face, as if she didn't want her embarrassment to last too long. But at this moment, she saw a piece of toilet paper appearing in front of her. She turned around and saw that Qu Xiaoling just handed the paper over.
He came over, but his eyes were facing the direction of the lake, without even looking at himself.
Huang Shuai took the toilet paper, wiped his tears, and said "thank you" in a low voice, but Qu Xiaoling did not become more polite because of this "thank you":
"I don't know who taught you to say that. Who told you that I have low self-esteem? Who told you that I hate myself? Don't believe those nonsense! I'm very good! I'm very happy!"
Qu Xiaoling pretended to be open-minded and started talking to herself. Huang Shuai listened silently and felt very uncomfortable in his heart.
After finishing speaking, there was another long silence, and Qu Xiaoling suddenly said in a mosquito-like voice:
"sorry."
"Ah? What?"
"Nothing! Just pretend you didn't hear it!"
After saying that, Qu Xiaoling ran towards the dormitory, while Huang Shuai stayed there, not knowing what to do.
After a while, Mu Yunxi came to Huang Shuai, patted her shoulder gently, and said with a smile:
"Okay, Xiaomei, you can actually say those words at the top of your lungs. I'm impressed by you!"
Huang Shuai smiled awkwardly:
"I, I was a little excited just now, which made you laugh, Yunxi. But, after saying so much, Xiaoling still seems unwilling to face her true self and refuse to tell her innermost thoughts. I think, I still
Failed."
"That's not the case, Xiaomei."
Mu Yunxi comforted her.
"Actually, you have done a good job. This is enough. If you want Xiaoling to truly face the reality, she actually has to figure it out on her own, and we only need to plant a seed in her heart.