On the way back, Yunjing kept his head lowered, feeling quite complicated.
Although the gazes of the surrounding villagers were neither mocking nor sarcastic, he just felt that his face was agitated for no reason.
Although my idea of not wanting to join the sect remains unchanged, I am not even qualified to join, which is a bit embarrassing...
"Xiao Jing is fine. Your brother Douzi is not qualified either. You will live the same life in the future."
"That's right, martial arts training is not something we farmers should be exposed to. Don't take it to heart."
"Brother Jing, are you going to herd the cows together in the afternoon?"
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Wherever Yunjing passed, the villagers nearby did not mock him because he was not qualified, but instead offered words of comfort.
Originally, Yunjing tried hard to adjust his mood, telling himself that he was just unqualified, that he would not be unable to practice martial arts in the future, that his great achievements would be limited, and that it would be fine. However, although the villagers' comfort was out of good intentions, it also made him feel uncomfortable.
My mood is more complicated...
"Grandpa, Dad, I failed." When he returned to his family, Yunjing looked up at them and spread his hands and said. He wanted to smile to show that he didn't care, but he just couldn't.
Yun Lin touched his head and said, "It's okay. If you don't pass the test, you're not qualified. Our lives are still the same. Our ancestors have lived this way for generations. We don't care about martial arts training."
It would be false to say that he does not expect Yunjing to be suitable for practicing martial arts and change his destiny, but the fact is that Yunjing is not qualified, what else can he do besides accepting the reality?
It's not a huge disappointment, but based on his life experience, it's more real that Yun Jing is not up to standard.
My ancestors have been farmers for generations, and I can only dream about a golden phoenix flying out of my family.
"It's okay, Xiao Jing. Our family has no worries about food now. We have a new house to live in and cattle. Life is already prosperous. So why don't we just practice martial arts?" Yunshan also patted his shoulder and comforted him.
Although he had said to Yun Jing before, 'If you want to go to hell, others will want you,' but at this moment, instead of laughing at his son, he actually comforted him with words.
After all, he is his own cub. He must be in a bad mood if he fails to pass the test. The father cannot change his fate, nor can he rub salt into the wound.
"When I get back, my mother will steam some egg custard for you," Jiang Susu said, touching Yun Jing's head.
She was uneducated and didn't know how to comfort her son. She thought that if she ate delicious food, her son would feel better.
Xiao Yundong stretched out his little hand towards Yun Jing in Jiang Susu's arms and said: "Brother, hug..."
Looking at his family, Yunjing felt like crying inexplicably.
Their caring words flowed into Yunjing's heart, and Yunjing felt warm all over, and the disappointment of not being qualified was much diluted.
Taking a deep breath, he held Xiao Yundong in his arms, nodded to his mother and said, "Well, let's go home and eat egg custard."
A test of martial arts seedlings that shocked the whole village ended like this. Some families were happy and others were sad. Some were disappointed that they were not selected, but they were not to the point of beating their chests and feet. They were accustomed to living a hard life, even though they lost a chance to turn over.
, life is still going on. As for the selected family, they are definitely happy, but they can't say how excited and show off they are. After all, martial arts training, this kind of thing used to be just a legend to them, but now there is a martial arts practitioner in the family.
, more of a loss.
Mr. Wang and others went to discuss follow-up matters with the families of the qualified children. After the excitement, the villagers gradually dispersed.
Yunjing took one last look at the qualified children from the same village, then turned and left with his family.
Their fate will become different from today...
"Tsk, I used to be someone else's child in the eyes of adults, but now I'm just a foil. With this huge gap, I realize that this feeling is not pleasant. After all, my psychological quality is not up to par.
I used to feel that my mentality was very stable, but now it seems that I actually still have a sense of superiority about reincarnation in my heart, but I didn't realize it myself. Now that this sense of superiority has been broken, I realize that I am just an ordinary person. Once upon a time
I feel that I have decades of life experience in my previous life, and the edges of my mind have been smoothed away. This idea is just a joke, and it is just self-conception based on the superiority of reincarnation..."
On the way back, Yunjing remained relatively silent, carefully examining his heart.
In the end, he realized how ridiculous he was. Although he didn't want to admit it, now that he thought about it, he actually had a mentality that he was different from ordinary people because he was reincarnated with memories. He didn't feel that he was superior to others, but his subconscious sense of superiority was still there.
Some people always feel that what they do is a matter of whether they want to do something, not whether they can do it.
Now that he has experienced the "unqualified" experience, he has discovered that he is no different from others. He is just like most people, just like an ordinary person.
After this incident and self-reflection, Yunjing stood from the perspective of a bystander and discovered some mental problems that he had subconsciously ignored.
This can be regarded as getting to know myself again.
Then he felt that experiencing the disqualification incident this time was actually not a bad thing for him. At least it woke him up. After being "knocked off the mortal world", he would not have one more hand or one more foot than others.
After getting to know herself again, Yunjing's previous bad mood of becoming someone else's child and becoming a foil has calmed down a lot.
Days still have to go on, and my life has just begun.
After returning home, Jiang Susu really steamed egg custard for him, and even cooked a table of meals that were considered sumptuous for an ordinary farm family.
Although Jiang Susu did not use too many words to comfort her, she used the simplest way to comfort her son's heart.
Feeling his mother's good intentions, the slight sense of disparity in Yunjing's heart also mostly dissipated.
In this world, family and affection are the best medicine to heal the soul...
Subsequently, Yunjing learned from the villagers that the three qualified children Wang Captou and the others did not take away the three qualified children on the same day, leaving enough time for the children to spend time with their families. After all, they were so young that they would not be able to go away.
I know how long it will take before I can be reunited with my family again.
Although Yunjing re-recognized his inner feelings after this incident, and gradually let go of the incident with the care of his family, he still underestimated the impact of this incident on himself.
In the next few days, he couldn't get motivated to do anything, and he often wandered into a daze. This kind of daze was not as happy and relaxed as before, and he was really upset.
The family is worried in their eyes. Yunjing has been well-behaved since he was a child and is more sensible than his peers. Nowadays, he often stays in a daze for a long time and doesn't know how to answer his call. It's so abnormal. They are afraid that Yunjing will suffer from this incident.
What kind of psychological problem did she have, so she tried every possible way to make him happy? Even Xiao Yundong was influenced by his family not to pester Yunjing so much.
On the tenth day after that test, Wang Captou and the others came to Xiaoxi Village again to pick up the qualified children.
Because those three children were the first to change their destiny, the whole village sent them off that day. It can be said that these three children had unlimited glory.
However, after all, it was the first time for those three children to leave home. Facing the unknown future, they naturally staged a tearful scene in which they were inseparable from their families.
That day, Yunjing was also in the crowd seeing off each other. He watched the three crying children walking away. He watched from a distance without saying a word, and his mood that had almost calmed down became depressed again.
He knew that this kind of mentality was wrong, but he just couldn't control himself. He couldn't help but sigh. He was no different from most people in the world. He should be envious or envious, and should be bitter or bitter.
I don't want to join the so-called sect. I thought so before, and I still haven't changed my mind now. However, whether I want to or not is the same thing. If I don't have the qualifications, it's really a bit disappointing.
After the hustle and bustle, the days remain the same.
For a period of time after that, Yunjing's will became somewhat depressed. Those children who had failed the test together had already heartlessly gotten over their sadness, but he still hadn't gotten over it yet.
Therefore, the troubles in life are often caused by thinking too much.
It's not that he can't withstand the blow. In fact, he can see the impact of this incident on his mentality better than anyone else. But it is precisely because he sees it so clearly that he has always been worried about it.
Until one day, when Yunjing was grazing cattle, he was in a daze by the stream, looking at the gurgling water, but his mood was still not very beautiful.
He looked at the stream, his eyes unfocused, and he kept looking like that.
He didn't know how long he had been in a daze like this. At a certain moment, a drop of water splashed on his face. He subconsciously stretched out his hand to wipe it, and then stared at the stream in front of him, looking downstream. His eyes gradually became brighter, like
It is like a blessing to the soul, and all the haze in the heart is suddenly swept away.
"Haha, why am I competing with myself? This life is like a stream that keeps flowing. No one knows what obstacles and obstacles lie ahead. I don't know how many blows and difficulties I will face in the future. But it's just
Your martial arts qualifications are just not as good as others, so why bother about such a trivial matter?"
"Besides, it's just that I failed the test once. It doesn't mean that I can't practice martial arts. My future achievements will be limited, but this is not absolute. There are always more ways than difficulties. I just have to find a way to overcome this problem of limited achievements. It's nothing.
The big deal is that a living person can be choked to death by urinating, right?"
"Just like the stream in front of us, it comes from the mountains. There are so many obstacles in the river. Who dares to say that if it keeps flowing, it can't converge into a river or even an ocean?"
After thinking about this, Yun Jing felt his whole body relaxed. The joyful feeling after breaking through the obstacles in the mind was simply too wonderful to be described in words.
Even looking at the world with him seems different.
"Um?"
After solving the mentality problem, Yunjing found that he had unexpected gains...