Which woman has never imagined that when she encounters a problem, a man can help her and share the burden with her?
It's not that you have to ask the other person to help you solve any problems, but that you have another person who can be by your side when you encounter difficulties.
Tell her that those problems don't matter and will be solved in the end.
The important thing is the word companionship.
It was not like Gao Xue had never had fantasies in the past. After witnessing the love between Fang Yin and Shen Yan, she yearned for love even more.
But when it was her turn to be with Song Nan, she was always trembling.
It was as if she was a completely different person before falling in love with her, and she was worried that she wasn't good enough.
Is her character not soft enough and not worthy of Song Nan's liking?
And now she began to worry about whether Song Nan would be annoyed by her foresight and foresight.
"I, I don't know how to tell you, you have to wait for me.
A long time ago, I thought that when I was in love, I would also have the character of a grown-up woman.
Before being with you, I thought I would be like this.
But after we got together, I found that I couldn't do it at all.
Every time I encounter any difficulties, I always think of you and want to talk to you.
Whenever I'm in front of you, I seem to shed tears easily.
I feel that I have become completely different from myself. I am afraid that you may also feel that I am too different and lose the love and appreciation you once had for me.
I'm afraid, I'm afraid that because of me we..."
At this point, Gao Xue could no longer speak. She lowered her head to cover up the tears already appearing in her eyes.
Just like now, she couldn't stop her tears.
She didn't know why she became so crying.
Although her reason told her not to shed tears, her body couldn't control it.
How chic Gao Xue must have been in the past!
During the period when her relationship with Song Nan was not confirmed, she also felt that she could withdraw from the relationship whenever she wanted.
She will always leave Song Nan with such a chic back!
But after they actually got together, she found that she was sinking every day.
One more minute with Song Nan will only make her love him more.
She couldn't imagine what she would become like when the two of them really got to the point of separation in the future.
At least now, it's completely impossible for her to accept that result.
Song Nan also frowned. He had never thought that Gao Xue would feel depressed because of himself.
But to him, whether it was the former Gao Xue or the current Gao Xue, they were both a complete Gao Xue, and they were not clearly separated from each other.
It is because the real Gao Xue is a complete and multi-faceted person that Song Nan fell in love with her.
And after being with her, he felt the difference in Gao Xue every time.
It turns out that she also has a soft side of herself, and when she faces the stray dogs downstairs, she will always look at them with wet eyes.
And they are very active in finding adoptable families for them.
Song Nan once asked her why she didn't keep a pet, but Gao Xue hesitated and refused.
"I'm still renting an apartment, and my job is not particularly stable.
I don’t want to leave a life beside me easily.”
"I know everyone will say that keeping a pet is a companion for oneself, but for me, it means more responsibility.
A little life comes to you, and how much happiness and companionship they bring you.
But to them, I am their whole world, and I have too little time to stay at home after work and get off work.
I also don’t want them to stay in the rental house every day, just waiting for me to come back alone.”
Gao Xue was obviously rationally analyzing the reasons why he didn't have pets, but his eyes were lingering on those cute puppies.
Song Nan was almost certain that he must like small animals.
If possible, Gao Xue would definitely raise them.
Only later did he learn from Shen Yan the real reason why Gao Xue didn't keep pets.
"Dog? Or cat?
My sister had both of them when she was little, and the Labrador stayed with us throughout our childhood.
Because it is too old and is still sick in its old age.
My sister saw him in so much pain every day. Later, people at the hospital also suggested that we euthanize him because he was in too much pain.
Although the advice was given by the medical staff, my sister felt that she had ended the dog’s life, so the dog always blamed herself.”
Song Nan couldn't help but feel heartbroken when she heard this. Why would such a small Gao Xue blame all such problems on herself?
But after thinking about it, I can figure out that she has always been strong and subconsciously takes care of everyone around her.
Even I am no exception.
He is obviously a few months older than Gao Xue?
But when he was around Gao Xue, he could always feel the care he had never experienced in a family.
Sometimes even he himself would get used to the sole care from Gao Xue.
Perhaps it was for this reason that she felt that the old Labrador had to endure a painful old age because she had not taken good care of it.
"I knew what I was thinking, so I slept at their house during that time.
But the doctor told me that it was not like that. It was because Xiao O himself was sick, so he was in such pain.
I also explained it to my sister, but she agreed on the surface, but in her heart she still insisted that it was her fault."
Shen Yan sighed involuntarily.
Unexpectedly, it has been so long since they experienced this incident when they were children, but Gao Xue still has not been able to get over what happened.
"What about Cat?"
At the mention of Maomao, Shen Yan even put down the drink in his hand.
"Mao Mao is a stray cat that my sister and I picked up together.
But we were both very young at the time, so the stray cat we picked up might be a newborn kitten abandoned by someone else——
Next to the trash can.
It was because I was soft-hearted and afraid that they would crawl onto the road and be crushed to death by a car, so I picked them up and took them home."
Song Nan didn't need to ask anymore.
It is difficult to take care of a newborn kitten, let alone half-grown children like Shen Yan and Gao Xue.
"You can probably imagine what kind of war and chaos we went through, right?
But no matter how little time we slept, the last two kittens still left me without using them."
Seeing Shen Yan shrinking into a ball unconsciously, Fang Yin couldn't help but hold her in his arms.
"...it turns out that kittens are very difficult to feed when they are just born. I can't blame you two for that."
"I know, but sometimes I can't help but fall into that kind of logical cycle.
I don't know if it's worth it for me to pick them up and extend their life for a few days.
Maybe if I didn’t move them, they would have lived longer if they stayed where they were?”
Shen Yan recalled that rainy day, and she knew in her heart that she had picked up the kittens to help them live longer.
But when faced with the fact that they left, it couldn't help but wonder, had it been something wrong?
Whenever Shen Yan thinks like this, she will sneak into Gao Xue's room and sleep with her.
Gao Xue took the trouble to tell her over and over again that they had done the right thing.
“I feel like I don’t know how to describe my sister, but she obviously knows that in her heart.
But she still wants to put all the problems on herself."
But now Gao Xue has someone accompanying her, and Shen Yan places her hopes on Song Nan.
I hope that with his company, Gao Xue can become a person who can rely on others and act coquettishly to others.
No need to bear all the problems on your own thin shoulders.
…
Now Song Nan couldn't understand Gao Xue's sudden low self-esteem at all, but he was able to hurt her.
"When did you start thinking this way?
Why do you think so?"
Song Nan asked her in a seductive manner.
"Have you never thought that I am completely different from the person you knew before?"
Gao Xue raised his head and looked at Song Nan timidly.
It was as if he was afraid of hearing a definite answer from his mouth.
"Of course you are different from the one I knew at the beginning."
She immediately bit her lower lip, "Yes, I know that when I first met you, I was very ruthless and could let go of anything.
But that's because I haven't fallen in love with you yet!
After falling in love with you, I found that I couldn't do it anymore...
I really can't do it anymore. I have become greedy and lustful. I hope you can stay by my side forever.
My love is extremely selfish. I don’t hope that you will meet a better woman than me in the future. I hope that I will be your last woman.”
Song Nan didn't expect to hear Gao Xue's unexpected confession during this process.
"If I laugh because of your confession at this time, won't I look particularly ungrateful?"
"……What?"
Before Gao Xue could react, Song Nan said something and he couldn't help but kiss her on the mouth.
"I love you so much, I don't know how to prove it to you?
I don’t know how to describe my love for you, but I want to tell you, whether it’s you before we got together or you after we got together, that’s you——
It's the part of you I love.
You are who you are, Gao Xue is Gao Xue. Don't let me stop loving you as a whole person because of a certain part of your character. Do you understand?
I know it's too much to say now, but please give me a chance.
Let us stay together well, and I will prove all this to you when we grow old."
As soon as he finished speaking, Gao Xue couldn't help but throw herself into his arms.
In fact, Gao Xue didn't want much, just someone who could give her a hug at this time.
"Well, I asked for the opportunity to be with you in the first place.
Now I ask you for another chance.
Please don't let go of my hand easily.
You don't have to worry about anything else, I will take care of it.
I just need you to stay by my side with peace of mind and wait for me to handle everything."
For Song Nan, he was not afraid of anything except that Gao Xue would choose to let go of his hand because of his family.
He knew that he was indeed not in a particularly good mood after dealing with those messy relatives.
When he was young, he would go to Fang Yin's house to hide, or else he would go to Wang Qing.
These were his close friends for many years, but in the end they were not his home.
When Song Nan was young, what she envied most were other people's parents.
There will not be any etiquette issues or the sound of accidentally touching the bowl with the chopsticks while eating, causing him to stare at the wall in the study and think about it.
When he was very young, he had been looking forward to growing up. When he grew up, he wouldn't have to face this anymore.
But I didn’t expect that when I grow up, I will have to face more things, and the endless problems are like a mountain.
But now that he is older, he finally has a place where he can go.
Whenever he is around Gao Xue, it is the most relaxed and peaceful moment for him.
He had also thought about this series of questions. He didn't know whether he should run to her if something happened.
Otherwise, he can only go to the company.
Now that he already has a girlfriend, he has someone he truly admires, so why should I go to the cold office by myself?
To face those emotionless numbers, what he wants is a living Gao Xue.
"I also know that you have experienced a lot of unhappy things after being with me.
But just think of me as selfish and ask you to stay, okay?"
Gao Xue shook her head while listening to his confession. She had never thought about it.
Song Nan actually thought so much about family matters.
It seems like what Shen Yan said, face-to-face communication is really important.
If she hadn't mustered up the courage to tell Song Nan her true thoughts, she wouldn't have thought that he had hidden so many things in his heart.
He was also worried that he would leave because of family reasons.
"I've told you before.
At least until the day you talk about separation, I will always be by your side.
Your family is your family and you are you, so how could I choose to let go of your hand because of those irrelevant people?"
Gao Xue's eyes were very gentle, and Song Nan felt like she was soaking in a hot spring.
"You also know that I will feel a certain amount of pressure when facing those people.
But as long as I think that those are your family members, I think it doesn't matter.
Because I want to be with you, and I want to go to the end with you. These are all problems that the two of us need to work together to solve.
I have to confess, every time I see you unhappy, I feel very depressed.
Because I feel like I don’t have the ability to help you, and I can’t eliminate those people’s prejudices with my own abilities.
My family background was decided the day I was born, and it was impossible for me to suddenly become rich like in the novel.
Plus, I love my parents very much, and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being born into a family built by them.”
Seeing Gao Xue talking so openly about his love for his parents, Song Nan actually felt a hint of envy.
It seems difficult for him to say whether he loves his parents or not.