After all, he might not be able to let go of Lin Han's death for the rest of his life.
"Whenever I see them acting like a family, I always think of Lin Han, but Lin Han's last words were to tell me to let go. I can't do it..."
Fang Yin's eyelashes were lowered, but the loss and confusion could not be concealed from his tone.
Shen Yan hugged his neck with great distress.
Her fingers were stroking back and forth on his neck, as if giving him strength.
"It doesn't matter. Those are Ms. Lin's expectations for you. She hopes you can go out, but it doesn't mean that you are ashamed of her if you don't go out."
"Is that so? But every time I force myself to forget that family, every time I can't do it, I will... hate myself. Why can't I do it? Why, that group of people are obviously the ones who are... The most disgusting person is alive and well, why is my mother the one who died?"
Fang Yin raised his head and looked at the roof. Over the years, he had never been able to let go. He just wanted to ask why.
His mother was obviously such a gentle woman, why did she suffer such an unreasonable disaster?
If she hadn't met this man because of Fang Zhengting, she wouldn't have had to go through all the pain she would have suffered in the rest of her life.
There is no need to wait in that small courtyard, a man will never look back for the rest of his life.
Not to mention that when I was weak, I had to be provoked by a mistress until I was sent to the ICU.
If it weren't for Fang Zhengting, none of this would have happened, but why is Fang Zhengting still living so freely in this world?
Why is this all so unfair?
Even though he wanted to avenge Lin Han, but he thought of what Lin Han said before his death. He knew what Lin Han meant, and he didn't want to let himself be trapped in endless revenge.
She was afraid that she would hurt him, and that after she attacked her father, he would be ruined here for the rest of his life.
What Lin Han said was all for his own consideration, but if he didn't take revenge, would he really love Lin Han? Just for the rest of his life, he would not go back to take revenge when he saw those enemies who killed his mother. ?
Are we just going to let them live happily?
Seeing such a fragile Fang Yin, Chenyan hugged him even more tightly.
Shen Yan could not imagine how Fang Yin managed to survive on his own for so many years.
Every day when Fang Yin sees that group of people, his heart is extremely complicated. He wants to take action, but he can't.
How much he missed the days when Lin Han was still around.
Shen Yan lowered her voice extremely gently and said in Fang Yin's ear, "Why don't you tell me about Ms. Lin? When I checked the information of the Fang Group on the Internet, I learned that Ms. Lin is a special person. Great woman, this is when I was looking for more information but couldn’t find it.”
"Oh, mom took the initiative to delete a lot of information about herself on the Internet just because of Fang Zhengting."
Because Fang Zhengting couldn't help but feel jealous after seeing those reports, so he didn't want to go home even more?
Lin Han, out of consideration for Fang Zhengting, never thought of exposing himself to people from the beginning.
It's just out of love, or you've never discovered him, and you've never understood what Lin Han did for him.
Fang Zhengting just fell into the endless depression of his own ambition.
In short, all this is because other people took his opportunity and deprived him of the opportunity to show his abilities.
Shen Yan didn't expect that there was such a hidden secret in it, and she felt more and more that Fang Zhengting was really not a man.
"My mother..."
Fang Yin recalled the impression of Lin Han in his mind. This was the first time he mentioned his mother to others.
"Actually, in recent years, I have to think of her very hard every time. I am so afraid of forgetting things about her. If I forget about him, then it will really be like she has never been here in this world."
Shen Yan lay on Fang Yin's chest and told him, "It doesn't matter. From now on, I will accompany you to remember it."
Fang Yin unconsciously hugged Shen Yan harder.
It seems that with Shen Yan, Shen Yan always promises him something, but Shen Yan never takes the initiative to ask for anything from him.
For the first time, Fang Yin tasted the unrestricted love given to him by someone other than his mother.
"Actually, I can't remember those memories clearly when I was little. I remember that when I was very young, the Fang Group was not on the right track yet, and my mother was very busy every day.
Compared to her, Fang Zhengting is much more relaxed, so I spend more time with Fang Zhengting.
You also know that children usually get closer to someone they spend more time with, so at first I missed my mother very much, but I didn’t spend much time with her, so I seemed to like Fang Zhengting more."
Fang Yin was very ashamed to admit the feelings he had for Fang Zhengting, even when he was a very young child.
When he realized this when he grew up, it seemed like he had betrayed Lin Han, and he hated himself at that time.
"It doesn't matter, these are the nature of children. Besides, you were still young at that time, so what did you know?
You can't hate your old self because of what happened in the future."
Fang Yin's hand touched Shen Yan's earlobe again. Shen Yan leaned half of her body on Fang Yin's body. He followed it and touched Shen Yan's belly.
"Will this happen to our baby too?"
Shen Yan nodded and rubbed his chin into Fang Yin's neck.
"Of course, so if you are still so busy in the future, the babies may feel like a stranger when they see you.
So you should always accompany them, you know?"
Fang Yin felt the emotion of his child in Shen Yan's belly and responded seriously.
"But even though my mother was always very busy when I was young, she would always be with me whenever she was free. Whether it was doing homework with me or taking me to the park to play, she did it personally every time.
Ms. Lin doesn't like to occupy all my time with TV and toys.
In this regard, she is very different from other adults. Even when Fang Zhengting is with me, she doesn't always play with me.
After all, he still finds children annoying, and I could feel this even when I was very young."
In Fang Yin's description, Lin Han's image gradually became fuller and clearer. Shen Yan originally thought that she was a strong woman, and Fang Yin's love for her mother made her so perfect.
But Shen Yan had never thought before that there really was such a woman who had such a perfect balance between family and career. It was also because of her love and companionship that Fang Yin loved her so deeply.
Lin Han has been making sacrifices for his family all his life, first for his husband, and later for his son.
But later on, she no longer had that love for Fang Zhengting.
Sometimes, Lin Han just hopes that he can take on the responsibilities that every father should have.
Instead of letting him send messages from various places every day that he is flirting with women everywhere.
If Lin Han can hear such news, then her son can also hear it.
This is very detrimental to Fang Yin's growth.
Lin Han wanted Fang Zhengting to focus on his family for this reason.
It's a pity that in Fang Zhengting's opinion, it was Lin Han who used the child as a threat to force him to do things he didn't want to do.
He had a big fight with Lin Han at that time.
"I don't understand. I've left the company's affairs to you, so what else do you ask me to do? Do I have to do everything you want for me to be the best?"
Can't you let me go?"
Lin Han never thought that Fang Zhengting would think of him like this. Has his misunderstanding of himself been so deep?
But at that time, the two of them were already strangers. After waiting endlessly for a man who would not come home, she had already exhausted her love for Fang Zhengting.
"When I was ignorant, I once asked my mother why she didn't divorce Fang Zhengting. If she divorced, I would be willing to follow her."
This is something Shen Yan can't figure out.
But that was a long time ago, and Lin Han must not have been like that, so he could do whatever he wanted.
"She stayed here to protect my rights and interests. At that time, she already knew that Fang Zhengting had a family outside."
After the Fang Group got on the right track, Lin Han had no shortage of people around her, not to mention those who couldn't wait to send all kinds of news to her ears.
So she also knew that Fang Zhengting had a family outside and had children.
It wasn't that he wasn't disappointed, but when this happened again and again, Lin Han found that his mood could be said to be calm?
Her first reaction was that she could not divorce Fang Zhengting.
Now the Fang Group belongs to Fang Zhengting's name. If she gets divorced, she will probably not get anything.
Lin Han didn't think she was that generous if she was asked to hand over her hard-earned career to that family.
Lin Han also felt sad when she heard Fang Yin ask that question. If she hadn't been blinded by Fang Zhengting, she wouldn't have been so confused and signed everything with Fang Zhengting's name.
Now, it is the original love for Fang Zhengting that has trapped him and even his children.
Lin Han felt very sorry for his son.
But after seeing the sadness in her mother's eyes, Fang Yin never asked that question again.
Fang Zhengting had already made Lin Han sad enough, and Fang Yin didn't want to make his mother so sad.
"Ms. Lin is really a great woman."
Shen Yan sighed.
In the first half of his life, he pursued love, and in the second half of his life, he sacrificed everything to protect his children.
As a mother who is about to become a mother, Shen Yan is very able to understand Lin Han's unspoken love.