After listening to Gao Xue's words, Shen Yan still felt heavy in her heart.
Even when she was resting in the past few days, the scene of the car accident was always circulating in her mind.
Fang Yinyi protected her without hesitation, but his body was covered with blood.
Even after knowing that Fang Yin had lost his memory, Shen Yan stopped worrying about the matter after a short period of sadness.
It's just a matter of doing everything over again.
And she believed that they had already had such a relationship before, and it would be easy to bring back Fang Yin's memory.
After all, this problem happened to save her.
But after hearing that Fang Yin woke up, she still felt a headache from the memories, and she couldn't help but feel distressed.
Whether Shen Yan told Fang Yin not to recall such words again, could she be willing to accept that Fang Yin had forgotten her?
How hard did they work to get to where they are now?
But no matter how beautiful their memories were before, he is the only one who remembers them now.
If there were no friends around her and Fang Yin, she would occasionally wonder if everything was just a particularly wonderful dream, and now she woke up from it.
"Don't think so much. We are in Fang Yin's hospital now. Why won't he be in pain anymore?
You have to take good care of your body.
You still have two babies."
Gao Xue's reminder reminded her of her two children. Gao Xue and Aunt Song have been helping to take care of them these days.
Thinking of the two babies, Shen Yan couldn't sleep even more.
Looking at Shen Yan who was tossing and turning, Gao Xue took the initiative and asked, "What's wrong?
Weren't you still very sleepy before? Why don't you want to sleep now?"
Shen Yan shook his head and hesitated for a long time, and finally said, "Sister, do you think I am a particularly strange person?"
Hearing what she said, Gao Xue unconsciously put down his job and spoke to her seriously.
"Of course, you are the strangest person I have ever met."
Shen Yan's heart was shocked, is this really the case?
It seems that all this is her problem.
There was an obvious expression of disappointment on her face, and Gao Xue's voice sounded.
"You are the most beautiful and well-behaved person I know.
It's obviously not your fault, but you always blame yourself for the problem. Do you think you are the strangest person?"
Shen Yan raised her head and breathed a sigh of relief.
"elder sister……"
Gao Xue stroked her hair, his eyes full of care.
"I don't know what you are thinking about, but you have just given birth, so your heart may be full of messy emotions now.
Fang Yin, who was supposed to bear part of the burden for you, has forgotten you at this time. You must feel very uncomfortable, right?
None of us are, and you don't know what kind of emotional storm you are going through right now.
But Yanyan, I want to tell you, don’t deny your existence easily, and don’t deny your meaning.
You don't know that among all the people I know, you are the most beautiful one.
To this day, I am still glad that I stood up and became friends with you.
Making such a choice so early was really a sign of foresight on my part.”
After finishing speaking, Gao Xue winked, which was very playful.
Shen Yan's eyes turned red quickly, "Sister, this is the luckiest thing for me to meet you."
"Okay, tell me what you have been struggling with in your heart. Maybe speaking out will make you feel better."
Shen Yan nodded lightly, "I feel that when those two babies were not born, Fang Yin and I both placed a lot of love on them.
Because it is the fruit of our love, and the growth of the two of them is actually accompanied by the growth of my relationship with Fang Yin.
But now after they were born, I feel strange,
I don't know how to face them, obviously they are our children...
I don't know if this has anything to do with Fang Yin's amnesia.
But I feel really confused now, I can’t seem to realize my love for them.”
Shen Yan's face showed panic, and she felt that it was wrong for her to be like this.
But when she saw the two children, she didn't even feel much ups and downs.
Except for the night she saw them born, she seemed to be a particularly cold mother.
“Are you afraid you’ll never love them again?
Are you afraid that you can't be like other mothers? Are you afraid that you will become an outlier among the crowd?"
After hearing Gao Xue's words, Shen Yan was also confused. Is she really afraid of this?
"I don't know, I just know that my feelings for them now are not as strong as they were before they were born.
I don't know why this is happening, I just think it's unfair to them.
They were given all the love before they were born, but after they were born, my love for them seemed to have disappeared. All this is my problem, but I don’t know how to solve it..."
Shen Yan doesn't even know how to face his two children now.
So leaving everything to Aunt Song and Gao Xue these days is also her way of escaping.
"This is not surprising at all.
There are many mothers like you. Don't worry. Let's find a psychiatrist later and ask. I'm not a professional. All I can give you is companionship.
Don’t be afraid, I am with you in everything.”
Hearing Gao Xue say this, Shen Yan could finally breathe a sigh of relief.
"It's just sister. I think it's unfair to them."
Seeing that Shen Yan was still struggling with this matter, Gao Xue sighed.
"You know what?
I think your love for your children is mainly based on your love for Fang Yin.
But now Fang Yin has forgotten you, which will more or less affect the child's position in your heart.
But don't worry, Fang Yin is also trying to find a solution. The most important thing for you now is to take good care of yourself so that you can have the mood to face these messy things."
The two of them talked for a while, and by the time Shen Yan fell asleep, Gao Xue's rice was already cold.
Looking at Shen Yan, who was always frowning even when he fell asleep, Gao Xue sighed helplessly.
She didn't know how long this state would last, but subconsciously she felt that as long as Fang Yin recovered, Shen Yan's problems would be solved.
When she went out, she saw a man standing outside the door for who knows how long.
Song Nan held a meal in his hand, "Are you eating cold food again?"
Seeing him ask this, Gao Xue shook his head.
"No, it got cold after eating half of it, so I didn't continue eating."
Last time, Song Nan discovered that after taking care of Shen Yan, Gao Xue's food had gone cold.
When he met her, she was eating cold rice bite by bite. How could Song Nan endure it?
Later, if he had to go to the hospital, he would bring a meal cooked by the chef at home, and it was not always possible to meet Gao Xue.
"Do you eat?
It was originally made for Fang Yin, but after he ate the box lunch brought by Wang Qing, no one ate it.
I came here after eating at home."
Song Nan shook the meal in his hand.
How could Gao Xue not see where his food came from? And why?
But now she was a little irritable because of Shen Yan's matter, so she nodded and sat downstairs in the shade of a tree with Song Nan.
"What's wrong? I just saw you looking in a bad mood.
Is it because of Fang Yin and Shen Yan?"
Gao Xue had almost brought her chopsticks to her mouth, but when she mentioned this matter, she put her chopsticks down again.
"What happened to Fang Yin? Is his amnesia caused by the car accident?
Did the doctor say anything? Why did you forget about Shen Yan alone? "
She frowned slightly, as if she felt that fate was unfair to Shen Yan.
But Song Nan could only sigh.
“Based on the doctor’s current examination, it is indeed an accident.
Because so far, they haven't found anything that can make Fang Yin forget about Shen Yan alone.
Fang Yin has had headaches recently, and the frequency of attacks has become higher and higher. It happens every time he tries to recall or fragments of memories appear in his mind."
Gao Xue saw Fang Yin suffering from a headache that day. It was unbearable for a grown man like him. The pain was so intense that he was sweating all over. You can imagine how painful it was.
"Even the doctors are helpless?
Then do we have to watch Fang Yin continue to be in pain like this?"
Gao Xue's brows furrowed tightly. This was the first time she felt such a sense of powerlessness.
"how so?
Could it be that the brain department of the hospital is not very good? Have you contacted those abroad?"
Gao Xue didn't know what kind of way there was, she was just asking based on her own intuition.
In front of Song Nan, she never had to worry about whether she would be embarrassed.
"I am in contact with Wang Qing, and I am also investigating the matter of their car accident.
But currently, all situations are not ideal.
After receiving our information, the brain experts there also said that there has been no similar situation so far, but they will continue to look for information for us."
"Then how did they get into the car accident?
I don't think either of them would be the type to go out there in the middle of the night.
Moreover, her belly was already so big, and it was absolutely impossible for Fang Yin to take her out in the middle of the night!
Even if there is a last resort, he will definitely be surrounded by a large number of bodyguards."
There was nothing wrong with Gao Xue's guess, but they couldn't find out something so obvious.
"We also knew something was wrong, but we couldn't find any evidence.
We also asked Shen Yan, and she said she didn't know why she passed out at that time.
When she woke up, she and Fang Yin were already at that place.
Not to mention Fang Yin, he has forgotten the memories of the car accident. He only remembers that he was in a car accident.
This means that we cannot obtain effective information from the two parties involved."
Hearing this, Gao Xue's heart sank. If they couldn't find any clues here, let alone find any evidence from the scene.
Seeing that Gao Xue was only talking to herself about the things between them and didn't even eat, Song Nan reminded him.
"Eat quickly, before the food gets cold again."
After listening to what he said, Gao Xue moved her chopsticks a few times, but she didn't eat much. She was not in the mood to eat now.
"How can you do this? You still have to take care of Shen Yan.
You know how to let her eat more and rest more, why can't you do it yourself?"
Song Nan frowned and disagreed very much.
He only had to take a look at Gao Xue's current wrist to know how much weight she had lost over this period of time.
It's just that Shen Yan can't leave her now, so she can only hold on.
"It doesn't matter to me, as long as Shen Yan can be fine."
After saying this, Gao Xue still ate the food Song Nan brought over.
The portions prepared by Song Nan were just right. After eating, her stomach immediately felt warm and her whole body felt warm.
Much more comfortable than before.
Neither of them spoke while he was eating. Song Nan just looked at her and ate everything she prepared.
This feeling of satisfaction is indescribable.
"Okay, my mood has improved a lot after eating. If you have any news, remember to contact me."
Gao Xue stood up and prepared to go back to Shen Yan's ward, while Song Nan also needed to visit Fang Yin.
After all, there are so many people who want to visit Fang Yin now, and the little nurses at the door don't have the ability to stop them.