After hearing what Shen Yan said, Bai Yuqing became angry from embarrassment.
He laughed out loud, "Yeah, I just can't let it go.
If it weren't for the fact that I couldn't let it go, how could I have flown all the way from the UK?
If it wasn't because I couldn't let go, how could I have the shamelessness to come to the hospital to see him?
But what’s the use if I can’t let go?
In this man's eyes, once it's over, it's gone forever.
Don't worry, Shen Yan, you will end up like me one day."
After saying this, she turned around and left, slamming the door.
Shen Yan didn't expect that she would just say a harsh word and then leave. This was not in line with her character.
Therefore, no words were spoken for a while, and the two of them were quiet for a long time.
"Do you think I am a cold-hearted person like him?"
Fang Yin turned around.
He lowered his head, so Shen Yan couldn't guess what his mood was when he said this.
"What do you want to ask me? Do you want me to agree with Bai Yuqing's words?"
Fang Yin shook his head, there was even a trace of confusion in his eyes.
"Don't you feel sad that I still can't remember my memories and feelings for you?
Don’t you think I’m a cold-blooded person?
If it weren't for me forgetting you, then why would you be working so hard now?
Mainly because you always shed tears when you are around me, don't you?"
Shen Yan took two steps back and asked Fang Yin hesitantly, "What did you say? I never shed tears.
Besides, isn't everything going in a good direction now?
If you are not even willing to work hard with me, then I will be sad!"
Fang Yin sighed softly.
"Do you think I'm blind?
Although I look a little cold-blooded, I'm not an idiot.
Your eyes are red because you cried. How can I not tell the difference?
Now I really don't understand why you are so sad and still want to accompany me to retrieve the memories of the past.
Would you be happier if you left me?"
Shen Yan looked at Fang Yin like this and didn't know what to say to refute him.
In such an atmosphere, Fang Yin became increasingly silent.
He thought his questions were Shen Yan's true feelings.
But if you can live a better life without him, then maybe this is a better choice for both of you.
Fang Yin also silently persuaded himself to accept this choice.
Although he has had an unusual feeling towards Shen Yan these days.
But after all, considering the suffering Shen Yan had suffered by his side, letting her go might be a better choice for Shen Yan.
He had made so many decisions in the mall and analyzed so many pros and cons, but now that it was about himself, he didn't want Shen Yan to make the choice that was best for him.
He knows how selfish he is, but...
But he couldn't let go of Shen Yan.
Fang Yin was even a little curious. Is it abnormal that he had developed a crush on Shen Yan in such a short time together?
Or maybe he misunderstood this dependence as another kind of emotion.
But when facing Shen Yan's trusting eyes, the questions in his heart were always swallowed silently.
"Why do you think so?"
Shen Yan asked softly.
"If I could gain happiness after leaving you, I would have left you long ago."
After saying that, Shen Yan even laughed, as if he really thought Fang Yin's question was silly.
"Do you think I'm a fool?
If it's just that simple to gain happiness, why don't I just leave you?
Just because I can't live without you, all my happiness is with you.
That’s why I stay here.”
When Shen Yan raised his head, his eyes were red again.
Fang Yin stretched out his hand and stopped when he almost touched Shen Yan's eyes.
He clenched his fists, knowing that he didn't have any identity to do such a thing to him now.
His happiness goes hand in hand with him. Because these words were so shocking, he didn't even react for a while.
"Why is this happening?"
"What exactly do you want to ask?"
Shen Yan only knew that every question Fang Yin asked was a stab in her heart.
If it was Fang Yin who still remembered everything before, he would never ask this question.
The two of them often can connect with each other just by looking at each other.
She doesn't need to explain to Fang Yin why her happiness is closely related to him.
Fang Yin doesn't need to ask such questions, because Fang Yin is the same.
But now Fang Yin has completely forgotten everything about her.
The familiarity with her these days comes from her own words.
This was the first time that Shen Yan felt frustrated.
What made her even more desperate was that this feeling of frustration would not disappear as Fang Yin became more familiar with her.
Because all Fang Yin's familiarity with her came from her descriptions, it gave her the illusion of cheating.
Shen Yan sighed heavily again, and then sat down on the sofa.
"I feel like we may have to change our approach and we can't continue like this."
Fang Yin also sat opposite her, looking at her curiously.
"why not?
I feel like I’m getting more and more familiar with you, isn’t this a good way?”
Shen Yan raised her head and looked at him seriously.
"Do you feel that the familiarity you have felt with me recently also comes from my description?
If I intentionally beautify the memories of the two of us in the past, will your impression of me as a person also become better?
Even if we were lovers in the past, I think it would be unfair for me to narrate the memories between us.
Those are completely from my perspective, but there is no content from your perspective."
Thinking of this, Shen Yan sighed again, she didn't know what to do.
If she can't relay the memories between them, who else can explain it clearly?
Should we just let Fang Yin never remember anything about her for the rest of his life?
Can she wait for a while? Can she wait for a lifetime?
"Since we are all lovers, why not?
Now that I have lost your memory, it is up to you to tell me all the memories about us.
If you are not suitable, I really can’t think of anyone else who can be suitable.”
What Fang Yin said makes sense. Their friends only have partial memories of them. In the end, no one knows what happened between them better than the two of them, and no one knows how their feelings are dominated. , once again fell into entanglement.
"But I just think this is unfair to you.
I am narrating all this alone, trying to make you fall in love with me again from the memories.
This is unfair to you and to you who have now lost that part of your memory."
Fang Yin was silent for a while before speaking, "Do you mind very much? If there were no memories of the past, I would not fall in love with you now."
Shen Yan was speechless for a moment, not knowing what to say.
Fang Yin directly provoked the most panicked thing in her heart.
Yes, this was the only thing she was worried about.
She was afraid that Fang Yin had to make do with her because of past memories.
She was afraid that Fang Yin would not fall in love with her again after losing her memory.
So what does her past persistence count for?
No one has proven that a person who has lost their memory will fall in love with the same person again.
No one has proven that she can attract her lover again.
"Oh, you are still as smart as ever.
But what can I do?
You have lost that part of your memory about me, and even your ability to love me has disappeared.
But I still love you so much. All the memories of both of us exist in me alone.
Do you know that sometimes I am really in pain?
I don't know how to face you, but just when I thought everything was about to get better, I suddenly discovered the problem.
I really don't know how to face you.
I really want you to be able to recall all the memories, I really don’t want to bear all this alone anymore!”
Shen Yan raised her head with red eyes and grabbed Fang Yin's arm.
"Fang Yin, can you remember it?
Would you please think of it quickly?
Why put me through this?
If it were you in the past, you would never have said these words!
Why do you want me?
Why is it me?
But, but... I love you so much. If it weren't for loving you, I would have given up long ago..."
At the end, Shen Yan let go of Fang Yin's hand again.
She sat silently on the sofa and wiped away her tears.
After resting for a while, he raised his head and looked at Fang Yin with a smile, "I'm sorry, I just lost control of my mood.
It's been like this these past few days, don't take my words to heart."
"Have you been in this kind of pain lately? It's all because of me."
Fang Yin said this in a very affirmative tone.
Although all this was beyond his control, at this moment, he still felt painful for her because he had forgotten everything about Shen Yan.
Is this what it feels like to love someone?
Fang Yin put his hand on his chest, and he felt a faint pain coming from inside.
That comes from concern for the woman in front of me.
But Fang Yin doesn't know this is love.
He was panicked by this sudden unfamiliar emotion.
Forgetting the memory of falling in love with Shen Yan made his emotional experience almost return to the empty window period.
After Bai Yuqing left, he never dated any woman.
Naturally, I can't understand this feeling.
His love was Chen Yan from beginning to end. It was Shen Yan who taught him how precious love is, how he deserves to be loved, and how he deserves to have a family that truly belongs to him, a family that can give him warmth. Yes, it's all heavy smoke.
But now that he had forgotten Shen Yan, he naturally forgot all this.
Shen Yan lowered her head and placed her eyes on Fang Yin's wrist.
Fang Yin must have come forward to hold her in his arms at this time before.
It's a pity that the relationship between the two of them is not close or far away now, and it is difficult for her to ask for a hug.
She didn't want to embarrass Fang Yin, she knew what Fang Yin's attitude was like when facing strange women.
She didn't want to use their previous relationship to get him to do something he didn't want to accomplish.
But sometimes people just miss each other.
Fang Yin never felt that Shen Yan's request was overstepping her bounds.
These days, she just recalls past events with him.
There has never been any overstep.
He knows that when lovers are deeply in love, there are some small actions that cannot be concealed.
For example, every time when Shen Yan sees something novel, the first thing Shen Yan will always turn to is himself.
But he always responded slowly, and the smile at the corner of Shen Yan's mouth would always drop slightly.
He knew what it meant, that he had let her down.
So the next time Shen Yan's eyes turned to him, he would always react as quickly as possible.
Another example is Shen Yan. When she tastes delicious food, she always misses home and shares it with him.
But when she came into contact with Fang Yin's doubtful gaze, her chopsticks would always shrink back slightly.
Fang Yin and her are not that close now. If their relationship deteriorates because of Fang Yin's mysophobia, it will be more of a loss than a gain.
Whenever this happens, Shen Yan will miss Fang Yin who still remembers him.
He could also feel that his love for Fang Yin was getting deeper.
But are the Fang Yin who remembers her and the Fang Yin who lost his memory still the same person?
Even Shen Yan sometimes couldn't figure it out.
“I’m not often sad, I just feel a little disappointed occasionally.
This is very normal, and Aunt Song said that I have just given birth, so my mood is still a little fluctuating."
Aunt Song also mentioned this matter to Fang Yin, but Aunt Song also said that it would be very bad if you cry all the time.
"Do you want Fang Yin who remembers you more to come back?
Am I not in line with the image of the lover you expected?"
Hearing his words, Shen Yan suddenly raised her head and looked into his eyes.
He still said this in that calm tone.
But Shen Yan was very sensitive and heard a hint of disappointment and hope in his words.