Shen Yan's soft hands covered Fang Yin's eyelids, making him feel an inexplicable sense of security.
"I'm just tired."
Fang Yin found an excuse for his lethargy.
"Okay, are you hungry now?
Do you want to get something to eat?"
Somewhat to Fang Yin's surprise, Shen Yan did not continue to ask.
But just because of this, Fang Yin was even more certain that Shen Yan already knew about his body.
"Don't worry, the doctor said he can determine the cause of my illness tonight.
Then it won’t hurt so much.”
Shen Yanxiao's busy hands paused.
After a while, he turned around with red eyes, "Then why don't you tell me?
Do you know how worried I was when I saw you like that when I came here today?"
Shen Yan lowered his head and kept his voice very soft, as if he did not dare to disturb other people's dreams.
…
"Are you crying?"
Fang Yin squinted his eyes slightly.
Looking at Shen Yan who was unwilling to look up, tears fell one after another from Shen Yan's face.
Shen Yan still shook his head, "No."
Listening to Wang Qing's words had some effect on her.
But when she saw Fang Yin lying on the bed, almost falling into a drowsy state, she couldn't help but feel confused.
She didn't know what she had been doing during this period of time, nor did she know how many things Fang Yin had silently hidden.
Why, why can a person make such a subconscious protective action even when he has completely forgotten her?
Shen Yan felt sad that she hadn't discovered Fang Yin's efforts until now.
Since giving birth, she has been immersed in her own world.
Occasionally she would blame others and wonder why this kind of thing happened to her.
But at that time, she didn't care about Fang Yin's condition.
I didn’t know about Fang Yin’s headache until now.
Based on what Wang Qing and others said, it was speculated that Fang Yin's headaches were most frequent during the period when they first woke up.
She doesn't know.
Even in the interface after amnesia, Fang Yin never showed any resistance to her.
What is the reason for this?
Is it because of Song Nan's words or Gao Xue's words?
Shen Yan didn't dare to think about herself. Maybe it was because Fang Yin's people were already familiar with Shen Yan.
If a completely strange woman stood in front of Fang Yin, would he still react like this?
Shen Yan didn't know, but she knew that she had done something wrong all this time.
Every tear she shed also invisibly increased Fang Yin's pressure.
Just like now, she shouldn't have cried, but she just couldn't help it.
Shen Yan only heard Fang Yin sigh, and then there was a sound of sitting up. She quickly raised her head, trying to stop him.
"Hurry up and lie down, your headache has just passed!"
"Then tell me, will you still shed tears?"
"...Why do you care if I shed tears?
Would you care about a complete stranger?"
Fang Yin looked at Shen Yan like this and even smiled.
"I thought you understood what I meant, but I didn't expect that you have been thinking wildly in your mind.
If you don't know, why don't you just ask me?"
Shen Yan was dumbfounded, looking at Fang Yin's lips opening and closing.
"What do you mean?"
"Oh, for a woman who has no feelings at all, it is impossible for me to go to her again and again.
I don't want to recall those things in the past either.
Although the past is not a burden, I only believe in the present and the future.
You see? Memories of the past are not that important to me.
only……"
It's just because of the memories with Shen Yan that they become so precious.
It is precisely because of this that Fang Yin hopes to hear more about their past from Shen Yan.
I just didn't expect that recalling the past would make Shen Yan feel burdened.
It gave her such psychological confusion.
From that day on, Fang Yin stopped compromising with Shen Yan and no longer asked her to tell her about the past.
Shen Yan felt as if she had had a sweet dream. She did not expect Fang Yin to say such things.
For her, it is a big surprise.
"If it weren't for you, those memories would be worthless."
In the end, Shen Yan only said this sentence.
"Are you still sad because of who I am now?"
Fang Yin took Shen Yan's hand that was resting on the bedside in his palm.
Shen Yan's face suddenly turned red.
"No, no!
If you had told me earlier, then I wouldn't have had to worry about it for so long?"
"oh?
Now you blame me again, right?
I don’t know who it is, but I’m always thinking wildly behind my back.
I obviously said such direct words, but I completely misinterpreted it into another meaning."
Thinking of the good deeds she had done, Shen Yan became unusually silent.
It seems that sometimes it is better to be more direct, otherwise there would not be so many twists and turns of misunderstandings between them.
"Okay, it's all my problem.
But you shouldn’t hide your headache from me, whether you admit it or not.”
Shen Yan considered this point very seriously.
For her, their bodies always come first.
Even if Fang Yin still doesn't know her and treats her like a stranger, it doesn't matter to her.
As long as Fang Yinjian is healthy.
Seeing Fang Yin in pain as if he had been fished out of water, Shen Yan no longer had any other worries in her heart at that moment.
"This is indeed my problem, but I just don't want you to worry anymore.
The psychological burden on you is already heavy enough, and you are still thinking about the babies all the time. I don't want to be a burden to you."
This was also what Fang Yin was saying. In this matter, Shen Yan always suffered the greater loss.
This is unfair to her.
Even if Fang Yin had a crush on her now, he knew that he would not be as good as the Fang Yin who had all the memories before.
But Shen Yan did nothing wrong, yet he suffered such losses for no reason.
Love cannot make up for it.
It was precisely because I had such a crush on Shen Yan.
Fang Yincai became more and more certain that he would never tell Shen Yan these things again.
It added to her psychological burden.
Everything is nothing more than the word "love".
Shen Yan felt light and airy, as if floating on the clouds.
"It's like a dream."
She also said so.
Fang Yin asked her funny, "Have you ever dreamed of me?
So what do I look like in the dream? Is it the me in the past or the me now?"
"All of them.
But I don’t think my dreams are as sweet as they are now.
Fang Yin, do you know?
I feel like I have eaten a piece of honey now, so sweet.
Even in the dream it was not as good as it is now."
Fang Yin nodded matter-of-factly, "Then I know that the person you dream about must be me now."
"No, Mr. Fang, are you still jealous of yourself?
No matter you were before or you are now, aren't you still Fang Yin?
The only difference for me is that it might have been 100 degrees before, but now it's only 60 degrees."
"What's this?"
"The temperature you made me feel was like fire before, but now it's like a glass of warm water.
When you first lost your memory, it was just a glass of ice water. Every time you came near it, you felt like it was crackling with ice.
Heartbroken."
Shen Yan spread his hands, looking very helpless.
But she couldn't face this at first.
It hurt for sure, but after everything passed, she could tell it like a joke.
Fang Yin looked at Shen Yan silently, knowing that this matter was not completely over for her yet.
But what to do?
Even now, he still can't remember things from the past.
We can only wait for time and rely on time to heal all this.
Because Fang Yin and Shen Yan mentioned that Dr. Xu would come over to explain the results in the evening, Shen Yan did not return to his ward.
I had dinner with Fang Yin.
Over this period of time, Fang Yin has become accustomed to the lunch boxes brought by Song Nan and Wang Qing.
It was just the first time Shen Yan saw it, and he was shocked by the lunch box that was as high as a person's arm.
"You're the only one eating it. Can you really eat so much?"
Fang Yin shrugged, "I have reminded them many times, but they are used to doing their own thing.
But fortunately, each portion is not large, so the two of us should be able to eat a little more today."
By the time Song Nan came back, they had already started eating.
Shen Yan quickly waved to him and asked him to sit down and eat some too.
But Song Nan refused, "I've already eaten with Gao Xue outside.
You two can just eat."
Shen Yan asked while eating, "Where's my sister? Why didn't she come with you?"
"She thought you were in your ward, so she went directly to your ward.
Seeing that you are not here, I should come over after a while."
Fang Yin, on the other hand, looked back and forth between Song Nan and Shen Yan with a questioning look on his face.
"What's wrong?"
"Tell me honestly, what is your relationship with Gao Xue?"
Hearing Fang Yin ask this, Shen Yan laughed first, "I didn't expect that you wouldn't be as sharp as before after losing your memory.
Do you know? It was you who told me at first, I said there was an affair between the two of them."
Song Nan also came closer with a surprised look on her face, "What?
Was it my brother who discovered what happened between me and Gao Xue first?"
Shen Yan nodded, "You don't know how keen your brother is.
The night you first met, he said there was a special atmosphere between the two of you.
It’s just that this time I lost my memory and hit my head, and even my observation ability is much worse than before.”
Shen Yan shook his head repeatedly, looking very regretful.