It can be said that neo's story surprised Shen Yan.
It almost overturned her previous definition of strength and confidence in the past few decades.
It wasn't until now that she seriously thought about what she wanted.
If what she wants is to be powerful, how can she become powerful?
If a person has no self-confidence, can she really become strong?
These questions were swirling in her mind, and she couldn't give an accurate answer for a while.
Although she was very moved after hearing neo say that, but actually being able to do it was another matter.
Neo picked up another chicken leg and took a bite, chewing it, swallowing it before continuing to preach.
"There is another very important thing you forgot."
"What?"
Shen Yan was already listening to neo's speech with rapt attention.
"Have you forgotten why your man likes you? Is it because you are strong? He loves you.
Does he love you because you are confident enough now?
I think you should know the answers to all these questions yourself."
This is what neo really wants to tell Shen Yan.
If Fang Yin likes her, it's because of these two things.
Then there are many people in this world who are stronger and more confident than Shen Yan.
But Fang Yin has seen so many outstanding women, why hasn't he fallen in love with them?
Instead, he picked an ordinary Shen Yan.
Of course, this ordinaryness definitely does not include Shen Yan's face.
Neo said this just to tell Shen Yan not to ignore the really important things because of trivial matters.
Once upon a time, he also had a love.
But for one reason or another, everyone was too young at that time.
Later, the relationship was ended in a hurry without even a decent separation.
Now that I think about it, Neo feels regretful.
If it were now, he would never deal with the problems they encountered during their relationship in that way.
Unfortunately, there is no such thing as a regret medicine in this world.
He also has no chance to come back again.
Thinking of this, he silently put down the messy chicken legs he was chewing, losing his appetite a little.
"Why did your expression suddenly become so sad?"
Shen Yan wrote down what neo said.
Of course she knew why he told her all this.
Shen Yan could also understand what neo meant, but their identities were different and their angles were not exactly the same.
If it is true that all the troubles in this world can be solved by having Fang Yin's love, then there is no need to think so much.
But Shen Yan is also a living person.
In addition to loving Fang Yin, she also has many things to do,
It is impossible for her to become a dodder flower and cling to Fang Yin.
She needs to be independent, she needs to be able to stand by Fang Yin's side and share his burdens in another way.
Rather than having Fang Yin stand in front of her every time she encounters any trouble.
Maybe the atmosphere was just right, and Neo also wanted to have a heart-to-heart with Shen Yan.
Two people opened a bottle of sparkling fruit wine, one person poured a glass, and started drinking.
"Hey, I shouldn't actually drink today. I still want to talk to Fang Yin about something later."
Saying this, neo drank down the wine in his hand.
Shen Yan was speechless.
"Although this is fruit wine, you can't drink it in such a hurry, right?
Hmm, open an extra bottle of grape flavor, it tastes good, just like a drink."
Saying this, Shen Yan couldn't help but drink up the glass of wine in his hand.
"Tell me about your past.
You have always been the one to solve problems for me, and I haven't heard your story yet."
Neo shook the empty wine glass and looked at the light reflected at the bottom of the glass. His memories seemed to return to the summer before.
“Actually, it’s just a love that ends in vain.
Maybe from today’s perspective, people may think it’s very vulgar or has nothing to say.
But to me, that's really important."
Shen Yan rarely saw neo look so unsure of himself. What kind of relationship was it that he still can't bear to forget?
"It sounds like he's really unassuming, but he's just a transferred classmate.
Later, the two of us fell in love, but it was a pity that we were young and frivolous at the time.
Just because we chose different directions in the end, we actually parted ways."
Shen Yan never expected that the story would take such a direction.
She thought she could still hear about a sweet love story.
"Is it because the ending is not so happy that you remember it until now?"
"Absolutely.
I just told you not to ignore the details. Something happened at my partner's home at that time, so the situation may not be as good as mine.
We always quarrel because of this."
"Why?
Shouldn't we pay more attention to our lovers at this time?"
Shen Yan couldn't figure out why. Most couples could suffer hardships, but they couldn't enjoy them together.
And neo and his partner actually had a conflict during this process.
But considering their age at the time, it's understandable.
All too young.
When people are young, they tend to be more arrogant.
I always think that I don’t care about anything and can forget everything,
But once that time passes, you will regret it.
But there are some things that you can't do anything about even if you regret it.
Missing it means missing it, you no longer have that person.
You will never meet him again in your life.
"I don't know either.
I didn't learn how to interact with my lover at that time. I only knew how to give him everything I thought was useful.
But the result was the opposite. He felt that he was neglecting his self-esteem.
I was also very arrogant at that time and refused to speak properly.
I think he just ignored my feelings.
Not only that, he misunderstood me!
I have never underestimated my lover. Later..."
Shen Yan didn't even need to use his brain to know that the two of them would have a big fight and then break up.
"It's just like what you said, but we often don't know how to cherish until we are separated.
I really had very good memories during that relationship.
Those are things I can't find now.
So I have been regretting all these years, why couldn't I speak properly?
Why don't I know how to cherish it?
If I had been 1% as enlightened as I am now, I wouldn't be in such pain now."
Through the dim light from the screen, Shen Yan vaguely thought she saw a tear streaking across Neo's face.
"But how did you know then that you would miss me so much now?
Just like what you said yourself, the past is the past.
Only in the true past can you discover whether your original choice was right or wrong."
"hehe……
Yes, it’s just like what I said, but I am so good at talking now, but I was so dumb at the time and couldn’t talk at all.
If, if..."
Neo lowered his head, and Shen Yan was sure that she heard his low crying voice.
After realizing this, she also felt sad.
What kind of love affair made him still remember it to this day?
It even hurts every time I think about that person.
There is no real empathy in the world, and pain and suffering are not exactly the same.
For neo, the most painful thing was that he didn't know how to get along well at that time.
Even he couldn't even get along normally.
What hurts him is that he doesn't know how to cherish it.
That's all.
"After so many years, have you never thought about finding that person again?
Maybe he hasn’t forgotten you either?”
Neo drank the newly poured wine in one gulp.
After filling it up again, he slowly shook his head.
"It's not difficult to find someone, but when you find that person, you find that he is completely different from your impression!
So how do you deal with such emotions?
So, to be happy in life, you must have all the fun.
That period of love has finally passed for me.
No matter how much I remember it now, I can't go back to the past.
I can't bear the possibility of him getting married and having children again.
I am a very contradictory person, and I hope he can be happy.
At the same time, I don’t want to see him really happy.”
Shen Yan deeply agreed, "You just feel that you are not included in his happiness, so you feel regretful.
I’m not willing to accept it either.”
After listening to Shen Yan's words, neo suddenly became enlightened.
"Didn't you expect that you are also an emotional master?
Except sometimes I can’t see my own feelings clearly.”
The two drank one glass after another, and Shen Yan sighed.
"It's so cool, don't you know what a fan of the authorities is?
Whether it's me or you, we are all like this when it comes to relationships, no one is an exception."
"Let's have another drink. This wine is really delicious."
"If you like, ask Aunt Song to pack two bottles for you when you leave."
Shen Yan didn't know what kind of wine it was. Anyway, there was a huge warehouse under their house filled with tons of wine.
Fang Yin obviously doesn't drink alcohol on weekdays, so I don't know why he built such a big warehouse.
It's almost like a small winery.
"You, don't worry about these things.
Your man can make money and still loves you, do you have any other requirements?
By the way, I have something to ask him for, so I can’t get drunk."
Saying this, Neo stood up unsteadily while holding a wine bottle in his other hand.
Seeing that he was unsteady when walking, Shen Yan wanted to stand up and help him.
But as soon as she stood up, she sat back on the sofa the next second.
"Hey neo, what's going on?
Why do I feel like the sky and the earth are spinning?
Is it because of the earthquake? Where is Baobao and Beibei? Fang Yin, I have to go find them!"
"Earthquake, what kind of earthquake? Is it because you drank too much?"
Neo and Shen Yan each had a blush on their cheeks.
But obviously Neo, who had drunk too much, was not qualified to talk about Shen Yan.
When Fang Yin opened the door and came in, he saw two drunkards.
He was lying on the sofa swaying around.
He took the piece of wine that was about to spill out of neo's hand.
He knew as soon as he smelled it that the two of them had brought the wrong wine.
This is not some sparkling fruit wine, this is the most mellow wine!
His winery abroad is experimenting with a new wine.
So this wine uses some technology to add some bubbles to it, and it tastes like a drink.
But it's really a solid wine.
Fang Yin touched the side of Shen Yan's face very gently and lowered his head to smell it. Shen Yan drank a lot.
"Is the baby feeling uncomfortable?
I’ll ask Aunt Song to make hangover soup, shall we go down and drink it?”
However, Shen Yan seemed to be particularly sensitive to a certain word.
As soon as she heard the baby, she immediately sat up straight. She got up too quickly and her head was very dizzy.
“Where is the baby? What happened to the baby?
My head feels so dizzy, Fang Yin, I feel so uncomfortable..."
Shen Yan subconsciously looked for the person she relied on most.
The name that came out of my mouth was Fang Yin!
This realization made Fang Yin feel a little happy.
"You know how to call me when you get into trouble?
Why don't you two think about me when you're eating fried chicken and drinking wine?
Fortunately, the drink was red wine...
It will take two days to come back to your senses.
If you were drinking liquor, should I be chasing you in the hospital now?"
It was obvious that what he said was angry, but Shen Yan didn't seem to be conscious.
But she just had that instinct, and she kept rubbing her cheek against Fang Yin's hand.
"It's so hot..."
Under this situation, Fang Yin had no choice but to take Shen Yan back to their room.
He immediately wet the towel and wiped the sweat from her face.
Shen Yan didn't really sweat, he just drank red wine.
Even though she had never drank before, she drank so much wine with neo.
Can the body temperature not rise?
After settling down Shen Yan, Fang Yin returned to the screening room and prepared to carry Neo out.
Unexpectedly, neo actually sat on the sofa calmly and even glanced at Fang Yin when he came in.
"Are you awake?
If you wake up, come with me downstairs to drink some hangover soup.
It’s probably not particularly easy to fall asleep if you come home smelling of alcohol.”
Although Fang Yin is often jealous because of the good relationship between Neo and Shen Yan.
But as Neo is a good friend like Shen Yan, he will never treat him badly.
Unexpectedly, Neo slowly shook his head, "I remembered what I wanted to say to you."
"What do you want to say to me?"
Fang Yin habitually sat down on the sofa opposite neo.
Neo's eyes are clear now, and it's completely invisible. He looked drunk just ten minutes ago.
"Are you sure you're okay now?
We can talk about things between the two of us later, there’s no rush anyway.”
Neo snorted softly, "In your eyes, is there anything Shen Yan is not anxious about?"
When Shen Yan was mentioned, Fang Yin also laughed, "That's true."
"Okay, I'm not looking for you just to hear you show your affection.
It's just that I heard from Shen Yan that the special unit's mobile reconnaissance technology is not particularly good. I know several big names in the industry who have settled abroad. Do you want me to help connect with them?"
Fang Yin just laughed twice after hearing this and did not deny it out loud. To him, all this was nothing.
"If you know someone, you can contact us. After all, only when the car accident is resolved as soon as possible can it be truly safe."