As Shen Yan spoke, tears were about to flow out again. She felt that she was ruining their happiness by doing this.
If she doesn't know how to cherish it, God will take it back sooner or later.
Neo looked at Shen Yan very distressedly. The reason why she was so sensitive and suspicious was because she was the one who gave more between the two of them in the beginning.
How do you say that?
The person you love first will always be hurt more, and this applies completely to Shen Yan and Fang Yin.
I'm afraid that even now, Shen Yan still feels that Fang Yin is always the one who can let go at any time.
"You have thought so much, have you ever thought about the two babies between you?
Do you think Fang Yin is the kind of person who lets go as soon as he wants and doesn't want you and the two children?"
Of course Shen Yan shook his head.
I'm afraid that even if I become a woman that Fang Yin doesn't love at all, Fang Yin will definitely take care of him if she has his child.
"Isn't that enough? What are you still worrying about?
Of course I know your struggles, but what you should do now is take a good look at your current life.
When you two children are older, you can go out and find a job."
Neo suggested this.
He always felt that Shen Yan was so uneasy because the gap between her and Fang Yin was so big.
Even if she finds a job and becomes financially independent, she will feel more confident in front of Fang Yinjiao.
Then I won't always wonder whether Fang Yin loves him or not.
Perhaps by then, Shen Yan will be more confident.
Then she will believe Fang Yin's love for her even more.
Shen Yan wiped his face, "Speaking of work, my dream last night was about this.
I dreamed that I had no job, and then Fang Yin dumped me, not even wanting my two children."
The smile on Shen Yan's face was very bitter.
The sour feeling of chasing Fang Yin's car and begging her not to leave her alone made her feel heartbroken even if she thought about it in her dream.
"Maybe I should really go out and get a job."
Of course neo supports her, that way at least some of her energy can be diverted.
Moreover, according to the current state of her and Fang Yin, it is not suitable for her and Fang Yin to see each other at home every day.
"You have to remember that it's all a dream, don't bring the emotions in the dream into real life."
"Well, I'll remember that."
However, Neo felt that Fang Yin's love did not need to be proven by these things. As a bystander, he saw the truth and could simply hold Shen Yan in the palm of his hand.
If you cover your mouth when you love someone, it will come out of your eyes.
Every time Fang Yin looked at Shen Yan, his affection was profound, but Shen Yan himself didn't notice it.
Of course, the same thing happened when she looked at Fang Yin.
After chatting with neo for a while, Shen Yan's mood indeed improved a lot.
It's just that she doesn't know what she is struggling with.
But at least now, Shen Yan went back.
She originally thought that Fang Yin would go to the company, but she never expected to see Fang Yin on the sofa as soon as she got home.
"...Why didn't you go to the company today?"
Shen Yan asked this seemingly casually while changing his shoes.
Fang Yin has been sitting on the sofa, changing the program just to wait for Shen Yan to come back.
"There isn't much going on in the company today, so I didn't go."
Shen Yan paused because she had heard Andy say that there were a lot of things happening in the company recently.
Even if he accompanied her to see Bai Yuqing yesterday, it would have compressed other time.
Shen Yan kept his head lowered and did not look at Fang Yin.
She went to the kitchen to pour water.
Seeing her like this, Fang Yin put down the remote control and followed her to the kitchen.
"Even if you don't want to see me, you still have to consider your two children, right?
Why are you so cruel, you won’t come back even if you don’t come back?”
Fang Yin's voice was full of resentment.
He hasn't slept for even an hour since last night.
"Do you know that I can't sleep well without you by my side?"
"...It won't be like this next time. I will come back even if it's late."
Fang Yin originally just wanted to be coquettish, but he didn't expect Shen Yan's expression to be so cold.
"No, if you're so reluctant, you don't have to come back."
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Shen Yan's hand holding the cup tightened suddenly, "If you're okay, give in.
I want to go upstairs and rest for a while."
"That's right, let's go together."
Fang Yin left the kitchen first. Shen Yan looked at his back and fell into confusion.
What exactly does he want to do?
"What's wrong? Don't you want to go again? Or have you changed your mind and want to stay downstairs?"
Fang Yin turned back to look at her, with vague anger in his eyes.
"What’s wrong with you?"
"Oh, what's wrong with me? If you ask me what's wrong, why not ask yourself what's wrong.
I'm always good, aren't you going upstairs? I want to go upstairs with you, don't you even allow this?"
Shen Yan just shook his head, "I didn't say that.
But what are you doing that makes you so weird?
I just didn't come back one night, is it so serious?"
Fang Yin had already walked close to the stairs, but now he strode back.
"Okay, this is called Yin Yang Wei Qi, so what do you call this when you originally promised me to come back but didn't come back?
That’s what you call going back on your word!”
Shen Yan was startled by Fang Yin's momentum and took a step back, but after he calmed down, he didn't move.
When Fang Yin saw Shen Yan hiding from him, his pupils tightened.
Fortunately, Shen Yan stopped in time, and she could only stand unsteadily, otherwise he wouldn't know what he would do.
"Yes, I went back on my word yesterday.
But I just didn't want to see you at that time, and I didn't know what to say to you.
Isn’t this also okay?”
Fang Yin couldn't open his mouth. He didn't expect Shen Yan to say the words "I don't want to see him" so clearly.
"I, don't think too much, I didn't mean that."
Seeing Fang Yin's eyes that turned lonely for a moment, Shen Yan was a little flustered. She didn't want to hurt Fang Yin.
And last night, it wasn't that she didn't want to see Fang Yin. She tossed and turned in bed for a long time before she fell asleep.
It's just that the meeting between two people who were in high spirits at that time would only make things worse.
Chapter 554 I also have a heart
"Then what do you mean?
What other meanings can be derived from the words "you don't want to see me?"
Fang Yin just looked at Shen Yan quietly, trying to get an answer from her mouth.
"I, I don't want the two of us to meet and get things to an irreversible point.
That’s why I chose to come back today.”
"If neo had not persuaded you, would you have come back today?"
Fang Yin asked.
Although others said that Shen Yan fell in love with Fang Yin first, only Fang Yin knew in his heart that Shen Yan had always been the cruel one between the two of them.
If they had a quarrel and Shen Yan ran to neo's house, if he didn't come to apologize, Shen Yan would never come back.
Sometimes Fang Yin couldn't help but think, does Shen Yan really love herself?
How could you leave so resolutely?
When he was at home, he felt that every corner was filled with the smell of Shen Yan, and he couldn't stop thinking about Shen Yan.
But Shen Yan didn't seem to have such worries. No matter how many days she stayed at neo's house, she didn't seem to care.
This made Fang Yin extremely sad.
What's more important is that others don't know how the two of them get along.
Only neos who live closer can detect it.
So when the two of them had conflicts, neo always helped to persuade Shen Yan.
Fang Yin's thinking made Shen Yan feel particularly wronged. How could she not care about Fang Yin?
She didn't know how much she wanted to return to Fang Yin.
But she is so sensitive.
If she wasn't sure about Fang Yin's feelings, she would never want to go back.
She was afraid that she would be hurt by Fang Yin's words again.
Sometimes Shen Yan feels like she is like a balloon, and only a small thorn can pop it.
She also didn't want to be as sensitive as a hedgehog.
It's just that these things have never been under her control.
She also hopes that she can be a carefree and informal woman.
But in front of Fang Yin, she would always lose control of herself and lose her grace.
Even Shen Yan himself felt that he looked very bad like this.
Is there nothing else she can do besides feelings?
Thinking of this, Shen Yan thought of neo's proposal just now.
Then he said, "I will go out to find a job in a few days, and I may not be able to stay at home with my baby and Beibei all the time."
"Work?"
Fang Yin frowned, "Why did you think of going out to work?
Didn’t you say it would take some time?”
Shen Yan didn't know why he asked like this, and her brows wrinkled.
"It has been more than a year since I graduated from college. Other college students have already found jobs, but I haven't even had an internship yet.
Do you want to raise me to be a loser?"
"When did I say that?"
Fang Yin felt very aggrieved. He just wanted to spend more time with Shen Yan. Why did he want to make her a loser?
Even if he really wants Shen Yan to be at home every day, he wants to see Shen Yan as soon as he gets off work, but is this possible?
He knew that Shen Yan was not a creature in the pool, and sooner or later he would shine in front of everyone.
It was precisely because of this that he hoped to get along well with Shen Yan before she left him.