I took a deep breath and sat on the side of the road in a daze. To be honest, I still didn't want to go. But listening to Cheng Xue's words and thinking about Lin Ran's experiences these days, I started to I feel bad, after all we have spent so many days and nights together, I hold my head and feel a little headache,
"Still sitting here."
I looked up and saw Cheng Xue's smile, "Haha, I just finished talking to her on the phone."
"Then let's go back." Cheng Xue sighed, "Just comfort her. She has nothing now. Don't you two have feelings?"
I looked at Cheng Xue blankly, "Of course I have feelings."
"That's right, she is different from Xiyu. Xiyu has you, such a good family, and relatives who care about her so much. Everything will be smooth sailing from now on. Lin Ran has nothing now, so you can sympathize with her. That’s fine, you should also comfort her. If she really can’t think about it anymore, or tries to commit suicide or something, then I say that given your personality, you won’t regret it for the rest of your life.”
I smiled and said "No."
"Why not."
"I know her."
"You know how stubborn she is. If she is stuck in her heart and can't get over it, anything could happen." After Cheng Xue finished speaking, she smiled and said, "It doesn't have much to do with me anyway. I'll go back first." It’s up to you to consider your own affairs.”
"Wait a minute." I shouted casually, "I want to ask you something."
Cheng Xue turned around and said, "What are you doing?"
"Do you and Lin Ran have any secrets?"
Cheng Xue's expression was a little frozen, but she recovered quickly: "The two of us just have some secrets that are not secrets. Haha, to put it bluntly, it is something that everyone will know sooner or later. I don't care, I told you already. , I look at these issues from a female perspective and have no personal feelings. If personal feelings are mixed in, then I definitely don’t want you to go. After all, you are depressed."
"Then what is your secret?"
"Haha." Cheng Xue smiled at me, "You should take care of your own affairs first. You still have time to worry about our affairs. I don't know what you are thinking about every day. Just take care of yourself."
I stood up and smiled, "But it doesn't seem to be serious."
Cheng Xue nodded, "It's a blessing, not a curse, but it's a curse that can't be avoided."
"Quite free and easy."
"It's better to be free and easy." Cheng Xue didn't say anything and went straight up the stairs.
I stood downstairs and hesitated for a while, then walked to the side of the road and stopped a taxi.
In ten minutes, I arrived downstairs at Lin Ran's house. I looked up and looked upstairs. Only Lin Ran's room had weak lights, and the rest was dark. I took a deep breath and looked. Looking at this inexplicably familiar place, I didn’t rush upstairs, I just walked around next to it, and then I walked under the big tree that we often kissed goodbye.
It seemed that some sounds came into my ears again,
"Liuliu, I love you."
"Sixty-six husband."
"We agreed."
"You swear, Liuliu, my Liuliu, you swear."
My mind was constantly filled with Lin Ran's laughter and laughter, and the scenes of us before were constantly reappearing in my mind. I rubbed my head hard and looked at the soft soil under the big tree. After thinking about it, I squatted After laying it down, I slowly dug up the soil with my hands. It seemed that it had just been buried for a short time.
After a while, the laughing iron box appeared in my sight. I picked it up and found that there was still a small lock on it. Such a small box is easy to open, but once it is opened, the box will definitely not be recovered. , I took this small square box and looked at it carefully for a long time, and finally put the box back again. For no other reason than simply not wanting to destroy this delicate little box.
I stood up, clapped my hands, took a deep breath, and debated for a long time whether I should go up or not. Finally, I went up.
I knocked gently at the door of Lin Ran's house, and Lin Ran's voice came from inside, "Who is it?"
"Me." I replied calmly,
Then there was silence inside, and the door was opened. Lin Ran was wearing a loose red pajamas, with fair skin, a slender neck, long hair scattered behind the pajamas, and a light dress on his face.
I am outside the door, she is inside the door,
"Come in."
I thought about it and for some reason, I said in a daze, "Let's talk about it here."
Lin Ran smiled, "Are you still afraid that I will eat you?"
"No, you don't have anyone at home."
"No one. My father won't be back at night. When did you learn to be so coy? Now that you're here, come in. I thought you wouldn't come."
I looked at Lin Ran, thought for a while, and then went in anyway.
After entering, I found a sofa and sat down.
Lin Ran glanced at me, "What are you drinking?"
"casual."
"Then let's drink beer. My dad likes to drink it. I don't know if you are used to it." Lin Ran said as he took out a can of beer from the refrigerator, opened it, handed it to me, and then He took out another box of Su cigarettes and threw them over,
I took a sip of beer, then opened the cigarette and took one in my mouth. "Life is quite luxurious."
"Smoking Su cigarettes is a luxury."
I nodded, "Yes, indeed."
Lin Ran smiled and said, "You can either take two when you leave."
"No need." I looked at Lin Ran, "You live with your father now, right?"
Lin Ran nodded, "My mother has never entered this house since she divorced my father. She has been living with my grandma. I live with my father now."
"How is your mother's illness?"
"Okay." Lin Ran smiled, "My mother still wants to have a good chat with you when she has time."
I was stunned for a moment, and then thought about it, "Well, I have time, then. I have been going to school recently. I am already a senior in high school, so time is tight."
Lin Ran looked at me with a half-smile but did not continue to talk about this question.
"Are you often alone at home?"
Lin Ran nodded, "Well, my dad often travels on business and is away from home all year round, so now I'm used to being at home alone. If I get really bored, I'll go to my grandma's house and stay with my mom."
"How does your father treat you?"
Lin Ran sat next to me, followed by the smell of perfume,
"It's late at night and there are so many perfumes."
"It was from the morning. It still smells good. Does it smell good?"
"Well, it's pretty good, refreshing fragrance."
Lin Ran also smiled, "I knew you would like the taste."
"You know everything."
"Nonsense, haven't we spent all these years together in vain?" Lin Ran continued to smile,
I was a little embarrassed, and then looked at Lin Ran, "Why didn't you tell me what your father did to you?"
Lin Ran glanced at me, "Do you want to hear the truth or a lie?"
"Of course it's the truth."
"It's really good. She treats me much better than when my mother was here."
"That's okay."
Lin Ran shook his head, "But after so many years, I'm really not used to the sudden absence of someone in my family. No matter how nice he is to me, I can't be happy. I just want my mother to come back, and I just want this family to be harmonious."
"You can go and persuade your father to go find your mother."
"It's no use trying to persuade me. My dad drinks alcohol when he gets bored at night, and sometimes he cries when he falls asleep. I get up in the middle of the night and go to his room to cover him with a blanket several times. I look at my dad's hair, which is slightly white. He He is really old, no matter how old he is, he is also worried, or he cannot grow so much gray hair so quickly."
I smiled and said, "Then your father is still a little bit reluctant to let go, let alone your mother. She is even more reluctant to let go. She doesn't have a new love, so why not continue to live together with your father."
"How would I know? Anyway, neither of them looked back. I tried hard, but it was of no use."
"Don't worry, such things are impossible to say. If things go wrong, one day the two of us will get together again."
Lin Ran glanced at me, "Have you ever seen people get back together after divorce? Even if there are, how many couples need to meet a couple by chance? We have had such a family for almost 20 years. Now that we are divorced, we will get back together again." ,Yeah."
I smiled and said, "Just be open-minded. Didn't we break up and get back together many times when we came here?"
Lin Ran looked at me, "So are we married, have a family, and have children? Can it be the same thing?"
"Actually, they're all the same. My uncle and my aunt divorced frequently. They've been divorced many times. Now they are still together, and their relationship is still very stable. Haha, they are divorced, and they still live together. Together"
Lin Ran chuckled, and then said to me, "What about the two of us?"
I glanced at her, then stretched out my hand and pointed casually, "Isn't this good now?"
"You're fine, okay." Lin Ran followed up and said, "After all, we broke up, and the breakup was complete. After all, you still ran away with Xiyu, didn't you? After all, you still failed me and forgot about us. The past has been discarded cleanly, thoroughly and decisively." Lin Ran continued to smile, "What is that sentence called? By the way, it tells you to wave your sleeves and not take away a single cloud, right?" After finishing speaking, Lin Ran smiled again,
I looked at Lin Ran with some embarrassment, "Can you please stop saying it so harshly."
"Why do you sound so ugly?"
"Why do you mean I ran away with Xiyu?"
"That's the truth, isn't it?" Lin Ran continued to smile at me, "Can you give me any reasons to convince yourself, Wang Yue, you betrayed me, love is selfish, I have not been depressed for a long time Those methods, so I admit it, haha."
"What means."
"There are no tricks, Wang Yue, I know you very well, and she knows you very well, but I am too naive."
I sighed, "Stop talking about this, please."
"Then what do you want me to say? When I think of these, I feel uncomfortable, regretful, and hateful."
"Why don't you cry anymore."
"I don't want to cry anymore. I've cried enough. I cry every day when I have nothing to do. There will always be a time when I've cried enough." After Lin Ran finished speaking, he took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and put it on the mouth, and then light it, the movements are very skillful, puffing out smoke,
I glanced at Lin Ran and took a deep breath, "Then what did you mean by crying just now?"
"If you don't cry, you won't come. If you cry, you might not come. But if you cry, you still have a better chance of winning."
"You lied to me."
"Well, I just want to lie to you, okay."
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