Su Jin didn't know how to describe his mood. Simple anger, sadness, disappointment, and depression could no longer express his inner feelings. Is this the Song Dynasty in his impression? He once thought it was a prosperous, dreamlike, elegant and refined place.
In this era, with your own efforts and advantages in certain aspects, you can live a healthy life in this era. Unexpectedly, the evil stars are shining high and your dreams are about to be shattered.
Su Jin didn't know when his life started to become so bad. Everyone around him lived comfortably, but he encountered all troubles. Why?
Su Jin thought about it and understood the crux of the matter. The reason for this situation was his uncompromising character brought about by his later generations.
If he had not chosen to fight against the Chamber of Commerce when he was in charge of the Suji Industry, he would not have been imprisoned later, nor would he have been at loggerheads with the Luzhou prefect and the big bosses of the Chamber of Commerce.
When I met Yan Biyun, if I could calmly retreat after knowing Yan Biyun's identity and not get myself deeply involved in it, the situation today would not have happened; what happened to Xia Siling, if I had known that she was a daughter from the beginning,
If you choose to stay away from him, you won't break this woman's heart and make her run away in tears.
Su Jin is caught in a contradiction. The unwillingness to be restrained in his character makes him incompatible with the behavioral norms of this era. If he adapts to it, his life will get better and better. Of course, inner depression is inevitable.
Like now, with the two choices given by Yan Shu, there is no doubt that if Su Jin compromises, he will have a prosperous official career and a bright future. With the support of the three envoys of the Song Dynasty, there is no need to worry about not having a bright future; but the price is to give up his beloved
The woman endured the humiliation and self-blame in her heart.
If there is no compromise, Su Jin's future can also be foreseen. In an era where power can turn clouds into rain, the fate of little people depends on the look of those in power.
Su Jin asked himself: Was it wrong for me not to compromise with the Chamber of Commerce, to avenge my father, and to fight for the right to live? Of course it is! I fell in love with a woman, and this woman also likes me, is this also wrong? Of course it is! Wrong
The mistake is that your behavior touches the selfish interests of others.
The Chamber of Commerce wanted to monopolize the country and did not hesitate to kill and set fire, colluded with the government, preyed on the people, and protected bandits, so their behavior was not tolerated by them. The reason why Yan Shu was able to propose such a choice was simply that falling in love with Yan Biyun would greatly damage his reputation.
, the enemies in the court will use this to attack him, leaving the veil on his head unprotected.
All of this is caused by self-interest. Su Jin is in this dilemma just because he is just a commoner. Faced with this kind of oppression, Su Jin is unable to resist.
"Su Jin, make your decision quickly. I will return to Beijing soon, and Biyun will follow me back to Beijing. I don't have time to hang around with you here; in fact, this choice is not difficult at all." Yan Shu reminded.
Su Jin sighed, raised his head and looked at Yan Shu and said: "Master Yan, for me, the choice is actually very simple, but before that, I have a few words to ask Master Yan."
Yan Shu had a calm expression on his face, took a sip of tea and said, "Say, I never listen to nonsense, so I will make an exception for you today."
Su Jin smiled slightly and said: "Then I would like to thank you for your generosity. What I want to ask is, do you really love Miss Yan?"
Yan Shu said: "Nonsense, she is my most beloved niece. I regard her as my own, not even as good as my own child."
Su Jin said: "Master Yan, does he know what a woman's greatest wish is in her life?"
Yan Shu said: "A woman...I haven't thought about this. Come and tell me."
Su Jin said: "Your Excellency, you are avoiding this. In fact, you know better than anyone else that the boudoir poems you have written have deeply penetrated into the woman's heart. Since you don't say it, I will say it clearly for you. As the saying goes,"
Men are afraid of falling into the wrong profession, and women are afraid of marrying the wrong man. This statement is not unreasonable. A woman's greatest wish is probably to find a good match, a stable and happy husband and a child. Throughout the ages, the words of the boudoir have been filled with resentment.
A lot of them, whether they are missing each other after separation, or they are in a difficult mood, or they meet unkind people, all of them are related to men without exception, does Mr. Yan think so?"
Yan Shu said: "It seems to make sense, but what do you want to express by saying this?"
Su Jin said: "I want to expose your hypocrisy, Mr. Yan. What you said about loving Miss Yan is empty talk. Miss Yan clearly died before she was married. She was simply an unmarried woman. As her uncle, you don't try your best."
After dealing with the Pang family to terminate this marriage contract that was not worthy of the name, Miss Yan was allowed to waste all her beautiful youth. From the age of sixteen to twenty-one, a woman's best time was wasted. How many five years are there in her life?
How many sixteen, seventeen, or eighteen-year-olds are there in life?"
Yan Shu unexpectedly did not get angry and listened quietly to Su Jin's words.
"You swear that you love Miss Yan, but in fact, all you care about is your reputation and the black veil on your head; you choose to turn a blind eye because you are afraid that Miss Yan will break off the engagement and marry someone else to you, the dignified Third Secretary of the Song Dynasty.
Mr. Yan, whom everyone admires, has a black face. From the bottom of your heart, you are not in love with Miss Yan, you are in love with yourself."
"If you really love her, with your master Yan's power, no matter how powerful the Pang family is, this matter is not without room for maneuver. It's not that you can't, but that you are unwilling to do it; watching your niece grow older
It's hard to imagine how you can drink and write lyrics with peace of mind. I even suspect that the lyrics you wrote are just moaning and pretending, because someone who is indifferent to the suffering of others is not worthy of writing such moving lyrics.
Come."
"When Miss Yan and I met, and I fell in love with her, you did not bless us and be happy for the niece you said you loved most, but instead interfered and threatened me and forced me to give up. This is a true reflection of your heart.
, you are afraid, you are afraid that our love will bring you unnecessary trouble, you are afraid that people will say that there is a daughter in the family who is not upholding the rules, you are afraid that your political opponents will attack you because of this, and you are afraid that the emperor will punish you for this matter.
You, but have you ever thought about what Biyun will do? Are you going to die like this all your life, and when your hair is full of white hair, you will still be alone, unable to appreciate the life journey that a woman should have? Aren't you afraid that your niece will regret this?
Lifelong? Are you so selfish that you can ruin the lives of your loved ones just for your own shame and face?"
Su Jin's tone was fierce, his whole body was shaking, and there was a sense of grief and anger in his heart. He would risk it all, and he would risk it today. He would listen to the call of his heart, even if the person sitting opposite him was the emperor, and he had already died once. Regarding these words,
The consequences are no longer taken seriously.
Yan Shu listened quietly to Su Jin's words, looked at Su Jin's face and lips that turned pale with excitement, still remained calm, and only asked: "But what is your choice?"
Su Jin shouted angrily: "My choice is not to compromise! Unless Miss Yan comes and tells me personally that she will never see me again, I will never let you succeed."
Yan Shu said: "Don't act out of emotion. Young people shouldn't be so impatient when talking and doing things. Do you know what your decision means?"
Su Jin laughed heartily and said with all his madness: "At most, it's just death. People always die. I'm not afraid of death. What can you do to me?"
Yan Shu said: "You can give up your life for a woman? Don't you think your life is too boring?"
Su Jin bared his teeth and said with a smile: "You don't understand me. I'm not afraid of death not for Miss Yan, but for my heart. A person whose heart has been suppressed and distorted will be a pile of stinky meat while alive. I don't want to do that."
That pile of stinky meat, so I'm not afraid of how you deal with me, I only obey the call of my heart."
Yan Shu burst out laughing, stood up and clapped, his eyes flashing; Su Jin looked at Yan Shu blankly, wondering what this guy was up to.
"Girl Yun, come out, this kid has passed the test." Yan Shu chuckled.
In shock, Su Jin saw the curtain leading to the cubicle slightly lifted, and Yan Biyun standing there handsomely with tears on her face.
Su Jin suddenly understood what was going on, opened his mouth in a daze, and shouted in his heart: "Damn it, I've been fooled by this old guy." dd